Worthfull Project

"Worth gives you the strength to hold space for what you actually need."

Today's guest episode is covering some of my very favorite topics - get ready for it: grief, sadness, loneliness, and addiction. I know, it's odd to say these are my favorites, but I learn so much about myself and others every time I talk about them.

I got to talk to my friend Kylee, who is a licensed clinical social worker and has a wealth of experience supporting people of all ages through these emotions. I love her perspective on why addiction isn't all bad, what we learn from our shame, how worth isn't an antidote to loneliness, and lots more.

If we don't understand our darkest experiences, how are we to know the full extent of our worth despite them?

• What boundaries have to do with self-love and worth (1:50)
• How to reconcile losing something we care about with our worth (7:55)
• Why self-worth doesn't resolve loneliness (14:10)
• What addiction really is and how to shift out of it (15:40)
• What coming home to yourself means to Kylee (26:56)

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"There's a god force in this world and an adversarial force in this world."

I realized last week that there has been some dark energy at work in me the last few weeks/quarantine/pandemic. It's been revealing to let it come to the surface and start to re-program my thoughts.

In a nutshell, one of my oldest and deepest insecurities, "I'm not worthy of good things" has reinvented itself on a grander scale and I've been feeling down during the pandemic. Ex. I'm not worthy of getting married, creating a new home, financial stability, etc.

Just in case you also have been noticing these kinds of *untrue* thoughts, I recorded a solo episode on how I'm starting to shift out of them and embrace my full worth, expect miracles, and fill up my hope bucket once again.

• Deepak Chopra 21 Day Abundance Meditation

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"You can't know the meaning of something the day it happens."

I remember the first time I heard the idea that as humans, we are meaning-making machines. Wow, okay, yes, that makes sense. This has taken on another layer of meaning during a global pandemic when we are all desperate for meaning and can't find it yet.

I heard the above quote at a community meditation gathering last month and have been pondering on it for a month. It feels relieving and freeing and also like something I need to constantly remember. My worth is not based in me knowing the meaning of something the day it happens.

• Lower Lights Meditation

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"The time I feel most full of my own worth is when I'm pursuing my creative interests."

I have had a surge of creative energy in the past two weeks, stemming from my decision to focus on worthfull home and whatever else sparks joy in me. It has been a welcome boost, I can say that much. But it also isn't random.

I know that when I shift how I spend my time and energy to focus the bulk of it on things that light me up, my creativity flows, my happiness soars, and my overall productivity and quality of life improves.

I recorded a solo episode this week to talk about how all of this reflects my worth and how creative work is one of the truest reminders of what my worth really is.

• Heather Crosby's Yum Universe Good Food Cooking School
• Creative Calling by Chase Jarvis

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"Our environment deeply impacts our wellbeing and our experience of self-worth."

I have something to share that is bursting out of me. It's in rough form, newly coming together, and still in ideation phase, but it's COMING. I can't stop thinking, especially during this shelter-in-place, about what makes a worthfull home. It has become the most interesting and important topic to me.

I recorded a solo episode to start introducing the idea, while it's still in formation, and I can't wait to see it unfold. If I know one thing, it's that our worth needs the best kind of home - space, body, and lifestyle - in order to thrive.

• Worthfull Home Pinterest board
• Magnolia

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"The camera brings up all of our insecurities."

I am thrilled to know the people I know. My friend Carmina is a gorgeous woman with an amazing career as a former TV host and now on camera transformational coach. But that's all beside the point because what we talked about in our conversation for the podcast was about something deep and important.

Carmina has spent years and years coaching people about how to show up as their true, best self. On camera and off, she has seen how our insecurities rise to the surface when we compare the image of ourselves to what we think we are supposed to be.

In this episode, we talk about what it actually looks like to own your worth while showing up imperfect, as you are, and loving exactly who that is. (*Note: you're going to want to check out Carmina's online workshops that are just SO TIMELY right now while we are all showing up on camera during quarantine.)

• Why everyone can struggle with feeling confident on camera (3:09)
• What happens when we see ourselves on camera (7:25)
• How working as a TV host cut away at Carmina's confidence to be herself (11:15)
• Why our imperfections make us valuable and interesting to others (21:40)
• How to think of fear as excitement because you care (25:10)
• How Carmina has learned to come home to herself (34:01)

• Camera Ready
• Camera Ready Online Workshops
• MITT Training

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"My intuition is already, always full of worth."

I was talking to a friend this week about how challenging it can be to trust your intuition when you feel like it has betrayed you or led you astray. When things haven't gone well even though you felt like they were going to. When you've been deeply hurt by someone you felt connected to.

As I talked on and on about my thoughts about this, I realized I needed to record a podcast to note what I've learned. I had a rather intense experience with this in my own life several years ago regarding a romantic relationship that was very painful and it became a great teacher to me of how important it is to trust my intuition no matter what the results are.

As I thought about how intuition and worth are connected, I realized they are innately intertwined. Trusting myself has become one of the pillars of owning my worth. I hope it becomes one of yours as well.

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"I am who I've always been."

I have been doing a lot of thinking. A lot of listening. A lot of noticing. I'm feeling some big things shifting in me.

And the through line is that my innate persona, my true self, my full worth, is emerging from deep down. It's noticed that I've slowed down and quieted down and am ready to receive it.

I recorded a solo episode to note this moment in my journey. I'm as interested as you in what comes next.

• Soothing sounds playlist
• Dr Trisha Smith
• Good Food Cooking School

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"If I don't allow this paradigm shift to actually shift me, then what's the point of it?"

I don't know about you, but I have been EMOTIONAL this past week. Combo of the world turning upside down indefinitely, postponing my wedding indefinitely, and taking on way too much energy as an empath, just to name a few.

But one thing that has been showing up as I've been weeping my way through the week is support - from all sources. I've been so blessed with support from people and places that I couldn't have anticipated. It inspired me to record this week's episode about the practice of receiving support - since we are already, always worthy of it.

• Lucero Rodriguez, Reiki Healer
• Corrie Ten Boom quote

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"There's a bigger divine alignment happening that I don't fully understand yet, but I trust it."

I did a little journaling last night and was surprised by what came out of me. So I'm sharing it + my thoughts about it on today's episode.

I'm noticing how relieving the quiet and slow down of world is right now during the coronavirus pandemic. It's so anxious, but also so peaceful. So uncertain, but also so calm. So disruptive, but so quiet. A freedom born from chaos. A "divine alignment" as my journaling says.

I hope you're taking care of yourself. Loving on yourself and those close to you. Listening in to what you can learn about your own worth right now. I am.

• Humans of New York
• Insight Timer app

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