I fall, I fall, I try again / I fall, I fall, to fail's a friend / for failing to fall, is not trying at all

How to write again

Is Simple

Its done one line at a time

Or verse by verse

And slowly

Like a valentine, divine

Though

I must scrub clean, the brine

For she's been at sea - that muse of mine

Traversing the oceans

A ghost ship

Blown by emotions

Wishing to sail smooth

Well, that wish is granted when I move

I haven't had patience

Which got me discouraged

I was drifting and aimless

Didn't even pay mortgage

I took care of my body

Nourished my mind

But sadly

I left my courage behind

To not give a shit

Cuz at least I was tryin'

I handled it

Till lost to a lion

A beast in my head

Which all started with

A procrastination tactic

Now look where its led..

Back to square one

No; square two

For the foundation's been done

Back to work, like a tool

My lungs don't want me to smoke

So I don't 

I vape

I inhale the subtle hints of pine and grape

The blue dream and varieties of ape

And when I vape

I feel great

But let's step back to when I was young 

And dumb

When I smoked to avoid feeling numb

When Mary was my number one 

And Jane, my number two

Bong rips after school

Grinding bowl after bowl 

Getting high 

But diggin myself into a hole

When I felt it's just a habit

But I had to have it every day

Whether I work or whether I play

Eighteen was a different scene 

But I'm a man today

No longer a kid 

No longer just chillin and listenin to Wiz

I use the same green bud

That had me choking back then 

To supplement my life

To be my aromatic friend 

The difference now is I'm mature 

I no longer want to smoke more and more and more 

I just want enough 

To spark creativity 

To see deeper into me

To move and breathe freely 

No blocks in my flow 

No voice in my head

Just me, my body

And with heavy indicas

My bed 

The tid

We know the potential of this plant

Spread the word, it's essential

But so many feel that they can't

Despite the high the bud can grant

Though elemental

Decades of stigma have made people mental

The misinformation's been incremental

The scope of the lies has been monumental

But it's no surprise

Cuz money's the prize

And big pharma wants to keep it

Truths been in front of our eyes

Now we can finally rise

And position ourselves to defeat it

But we must be wise and let cool heads prevail

Just trust and enjoy the highs - cannabis will not fail

The reefer madness still exists

In some ways

The trusting masses were convinced

And outraged

But what if she were portrayed

Accurately

Rather than with misinformation, betrayed

Spectacularly

How many people in pain could be aided

How many artists, inspired

Why is this being unduly debated

If only justice worked as we desired

102 day streak broken

Where New Years Resolution fell flat

But the lesson here's to stay floatin'

Not sinkin', so run with that

The habits been built

But I wanted a break

No sad bits or guilt

I relaxed for growth's sake

It's not a mistake

But a chance to have a new take

For me to see its okay

To take a day

Away

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If you truly believe

The air over there's better to breathe

If a good lesson is

Offered to combat weaknesses

From geniuses

Through the ages

And thousands of years later

We call them sages

It may be advantageous to put eyes to paper

Absorb the wisdom in those pages

For if knowledge is power

Then wisdom is might

Leverage your hours

So your mind may burn bright

The number one key is to breathe

Brings you back to the present moment

Better to be done than believed

So for a second or two, just do it

Inhale

One mindful breath a day

Helps keep the dark at bay

It's as if time itself has slowed it a bit

And gotten sweeter

Can't resist this boon to health cuz its lit

Between past and future we teeter

The results of your decisions

Can result in your submission

Not knowing your Life's Mission

Or getting lost in indecision

First hand results are better than belief

So simply decide to breathe

This is the foundry

From which ideas are made

The process did'nt find me

But - the plans, they were laid

Some might say I'm late

Like the voices with their games

But the past, to me was fate

Same reason my name is James

I'm not at this game for fame

But instead to clear my head

Sometimes sappy, sometimes lame

I'd like to be happy before I'm dead

Literally

As in, I take my last breaths

Joyfully

And I'm laid to rest

Mournfully

But ultimately

Leaving the world a better place

And seeing that happen - what it meant to me

Carl Keith

Helen Loeffler

Rest In Peace