You’re Probably Right

Going "live" is not easy while doing your podcast for people like me. listen as a squirm through another episode live.

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Speaker 1

Know, I work around a lot of young acting, vibrant individuals and I don't work with them, but I work around them. And what I really, really, really realized today is I'm working in the wrong area of the company and working around the wrong people. I'm like, maybe not around the wrong people. I mean, maybe they do need people like me.

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Speaker 1

But today was an extra special introvert day for myself. I had people jumping into my space to talk to me and to try to interact in certain ways that I only personally interact that way with people that I know like very well and maybe other people, you know, some your listeners hear listening to me will understand. What I'm saying is that it's horrible.

00;07;55;23 - 00;08;23;29

Speaker 1

There's no better way to put it than somebody you don't know asking or almost demanding you explain exactly what it is you do for the company at your level. And you don't know them at all, and you're not. You almost feel like you're you're asked to do an impromptu presentation of who you are and what you do.

00;08;26;02 - 00;08;57;21

Speaker 1

But I don't know you. So that makes it so uncomfortable. Not to mention I had other things that I needed to do within that 10 minutes and this person was just all over up in my grill. I was like, what the deal? I don't need this. And just listening to the interactions while I was quietly working away, listening to my my instrumental tunes and just trying to get some computer work done and hearing the interactions going on behind me, I was like, Man, I'm in the wrong place.

00;08;58;00 - 00;09;26;13

Speaker 1

And I could never work with those people. Not because I have anything against them, but I'm so close the off that I just wouldn't fit in. It'd be the whole time people try to pull me out of my shell and me trying to curl back into my shell and then bursting out at the wrong times. Like, that's the one thing I've recognized within myself as an introvert, is that I end up trying to accommodate to be more of an extrovert.

00;09;27;01 - 00;09;50;07

Speaker 1

And generally what happens is when I put too much effort into it, I end up doing it at the wrong times and it just becomes awkward and it just doesn't feel right. And I also recognize the power struggle that goes on within an organization, especially a big, wealthy organization or a government backed organization.

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Speaker 1

The people they pick to be your boss isn't necessarily the person you'd pick to be your boss. That's a whole nother story.

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Speaker 1

So should I start big and go small?

00;10;17;03 - 00;11;27;03

Speaker 1

Why not, since I brought it up? OK, so the 2022 index of economic freedom, I wanted to know obviously, where does my country stand? Because this woman was talking about Senegal in she brought up something that I already knew. Funny enough, she talked about how most of the black doctors in the United States are from Nigeria and it's funny because that was very evident to me as exactly what was happening as far as education is concerned in North America, in Canada, or let's say in Ontario, even when it comes to black people I secretly, secretly, I secretly knew that secretly is a dumb thing to say that the people who were prospering were not from

00;11;27;15 - 00;12;10;16

Speaker 1

Jamaica. And not to say that no Jamaican Jamaicans have ever prospered or are prospering. It's not true, but it's funny how it goes. I mean, Jamaicans are known for the culture, but what culture? Dancehall culture, the known for the ox tales and parties and reggae music, you know, everybody knows Bob Marley and to what level they're going to say that he's the quintessential Jamaican that's a whole nother story.

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Speaker 1

Some Jamaicans love Bob Marley and a lot of people around the world love Bob Marley. And then there's a lot of Jamaican people who don't rate the M

things  I touch on briefly in today's talk:

911

2003 The blackout eastern seaboard

The ice storm 2012

Covid

Rogers communications

The cloud life

Music

Movies

Netflix

Files

Pictures

Videos

Physical copies rule

Excerpt from Lex Friedman Podcast https://youtu.be/j4PEu4sVD40 Being and introvert and seeing the world through my eyes

dealing with loss and how karma or the what goes around mentality sometimes doesn't add up at all.

sometimes we need to step back from our grocery list of wants because we have to realize that we may not make the cut on someone else's list.

She quotes you to her friends

She will try and catch your peripheral view

She will say Hi very nicely

She will say bye more than once when leaving your presence  if you are off together

She may play with her hair unless she is more worried about messing up her and her appearance.

When you speak she will not be in a rush to leave your presence if you are a good talker and you hold her interest with good conversation.

She will be able to talk to you for hours on end.

You will feel it in your heart.

She shows excitement when you come around

She will be open to hang out or even following you to a store to be any random thing just to be in your presence

If you have mutual friends or acquaintances she will naturally tell someone maybe even an individual that does not keep secrets.

She will ask your opinion about a lot of things.

She will report back to you with her findings according to what you said.

She may alter her way of dressing to suit what she thinks you like.

She will give you something or regularly gift you things

Her countenance will change when she sees you talking to someone who seems like a threat, rather than just any other Girl.

Her Body language will show, IE. Smiling with her eyes, her posture will be shown to be flattering

She will either attempt to be smarter than she is or dumbs it down if she is of above intelligence so as to not alienate you if you are not on her level.

She will take interest in something that you like even if it was something she has never cared about before.

She may have nervous accidents around you that you never noticed before.

She will tease you with inside jokes even if it is the dumbest thing and it is beneath both of you as far as jokes go, it will be your little secret.

As in 21 you and she may develop certain code words that only the 2 of you understand.

She may be open to being very close to you passing either of your general personal space bubbles without touching you but there will likely be an overwhelming sense of comfortability with it.

She may playfully hit you, grab your arm or rest her head on your shoulder.

Ask a lot of questions testing out to see who you really are behind all of your good looks.

She may ask or insinuate about your relationship status and inquire how or why you broke up with your last partner.

She may ask about intimacy history

She will be grateful for your spending time with her even if she doesn't say it verbally

She may appear visibly upset when parting for the weekend or extended days away.

She will follow you on social media or she may just appear as someone you know if the algorithms are working right after stocking you out on social media.

She may purposely friend either over the net or in person someone you know just to get close to you.

If you are speaking terms she may ask you where you have been and if she hasn't seen you around like normal.

She may offer something she or her mother cooked or baked.

If she is shy she will try to get an acquaintance to arrange a group hangout or have someone you both know to invite you to a party, get together, or function so things can work out organically.

She will ask you for advice

You will feel it deep inside of you beyond your loins

50 questions you may want to ask a person you want to know

Things like cancer, and Parkinson's Disease are not easy to watch especially when it is a loved one or anyone you care for or care about.

doing it without a safety net or a loved one who has your back is so hard. Sit with me as I attempt to articulate what I am going through with this experience.