Trigger Warning: loss, suicidal ideation Jennifer is a wife, mother of four, and an educator who is passionate about helping struggling students. One evening on a routine run to pick up her child, she collides with a motorcyclist. Despite her desperate prayers and efforts made, he passes away. Everything begins to unravel and life as she knew it was falling apart, her identity, faith and mental health. She battles the voices of guilt and whispers of shame and countless questions without hope of answers on this side of heaven. In this episode Jennifer shares:

• A bit of her faith walk
• The night of the accident and praying for a miracle
• The unimaginable loss, shock and facing the possibility of prison
• Her rock solid faith being shaken for the first time
• How God moved through people and circumstances
• A vision in a church service God gave her of David in heaven and a word from God
• Fully surrendering her fate and trusting it to God before her court decision
• Learning about "cities of refuge" found in the Bible
• Being called to share her testimony for the first time and its effect
• Being led to serve in a ministry to help others who are seeking hope after causing accidental death or injury

"I will tell you, in those darkest, scariest places, have hope for the day because God has a plan. The work done on the cross was meant for you too. That there is nothing, absolutely nothing, that can separate you from the love of God that he is in complete control. He will give you perfect peace and if you trust him, he will make those things work out for good." -Jen Eikenhorst In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God's people in accordance with the will of God. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:26-28 NIV Jennifer's ministry, podcast, resources, and contact info on the Accidental Hope website: https://accidentalhope.com/ Jennifer's book Left Turn, Life Unimagined: https://a.co/d/i14VIaj Support Group and safe place for anyone who has caused accidental death or injury: https://hyacinthfellowship.org/ Jennifer's episode on Red Table Talk: https://www.facebook.com/redtabletalk/videos/481244670021721/ New Yorker Article referenced in this episode: https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/09/18/the-sorrow-and-the-shame-of-the-accidental-killer I found this on cities of refuge in the Bible: https://www.christianity.com/wiki/bible/what-were-the-cities-of-refuge-in-the-bible.html