May 31 - Buy the book!

For decades, I lived in my past. I would get up every day and replay the “early years” in my head. Get coffee, take a shower, brush teeth, shit, shower, shave. All the while, images of the past would creep into my brain, like camera flashes of a bad movie. Sometimes it all seemed so random. I would have flashes of childhood memories and being a young adult. My brain seemed to be stuck in a loop of the past. Not only that, I was reacting to these thoughts without really paying attention. I would feel the emotion of the moment/memory and could be deeply affected by the thoughts. Some people would tell me to seek therapy, and others would say I need to drink more. I chose the latter. As I got sober, these thoughts returned and stayed until I began to lean into them, I peeled the onion, picked the scab, pulled my own card, and I could mix more metaphors here like poorly mixed drinks, but let’s just try to remember this one thing! What stands in the way becomes the way.

Reflections

What are you thinking? What are you avoiding?

Daily Challenge

Start journaling. Get a notebook and fill in a page each day. Say/write whatever comes to mind.