Apes on Tape

The Story of My Dad That Died

While Freddo initially shares lighthearted tales of joy and inspiration stemming from a mushroom ceremony, Benji throws a curveball with probing questions about Freddo's relationship with his parents. This unexpected twist leads to a poignant and deeply personal story: Freddo's discovery of his father's lifeless body when he was just 8 years old.

Freddo recounts this traumatic scene with an almost robotic detachment, offering a unique perspective on how a child's mind can shield them from the full weight of such tragic circumstances. He vividly describes the event, highlighting his surprising lack of tears or immediate sadness.

As the conversation unfolds, Benji's inquiries uncover surprising revelations that suggest Freddo's father's death may not have been as random as it initially seemed. A hand-written note delivered to Freddo after his 18th birthday further complicates the narrative.

Together, Freddo and Benji piece together fragments of the past, gradually realising that there may be more to the story than meets the eye.

Prepare for an emotional journey as Freddo bravely shares the story of his childhood and how both he and Benji grappled with the loss of their fathers at a young age. 

The episode navigates this sensitive topic with utmost respect, offering a deeply moving and thought-provoking exploration of their shared experiences.

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This episode is sure to leave you both entertained and inspired, with a reminder that life's disasters can sometimes lead to the most memorable and heartwarming moments.

Benji takes us on another wild journey with one of his famous "vanecdotes." 

It's a story that proves life can throw you the craziest curveballs, but it's your reaction that truly counts. Get ready for a hilarious rollercoaster ride featuring tow trucks, tuxedos, and explosive diarrhea!

But beyond the laughs, this story holds a deeper message about resilience and tenacity. It's a reminder that even when faced with disaster, we have the remarkable power to choose our reactions. Benji's tale showcases the art of finding humour in life's most unexpected moments.

 Freddo shares his experience of providing support to a newly injured paraplegic. Through conversations and guidance, he  becomes a crucial part of the feedback loop of love within the spinal cord injury community. 

It's a heartwarming testament to the strength and compassion that thrive within this tight-knit community.

So, join us for a captivating and uplifting episode as we explore the incredible resilience of the human spirit, the healing power of laughter, and the profound sense of belonging that comes from helping others on their journey.

Freddo talks about his latest YouTube video, where he answers the question “What advice would you have given yourself when you first got injured?”

This prompts Benji to ask a series of leading questions that bring us to the heavy topic of the suicidal thoughts and depression that Freddo faced back then, and an impromptu trip down memory lane. 

Details never spoken of on a public platform come to light and while raw and emotional at times, it is handled with humour and tackled sensitively.

We talk about how psychedelics inspired a remarkably powerful act of forgiveness. 

The spotlight of social media “progression” posts and the pressure of cheerleading. 

The instagram highlight reel vs the shadowy reality of depression and poor mental health.

And while these subjects are indeed worthy, things take a more typical lighthearted direction in the tail end of the podcast with Benji’s jovial storytelling including funny accents, foolery and duck jokes  🦆  It’s a quacker.

WHAT I WOULD HAVE SAID TO MY DEPRESSED SELF: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bRh30nf2Zf8

Once again thank you for listening and for all your wonderful feedback on our conversations.

Having recently deleted my instagram account, feel free to contact me at Freddo Smith on Facebook

You can contact Benji Sowter on FB or @whatwouldawombledo on instagram

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We continue our glorious gratitude journey with serendipitous synchronicity as we are both in the honeymoon period of new romance and love, prompting questions on how we will remember these days through the lens of nostalgia one day, and how our future selves will thank us for being so present and grounded.

What lessons are learned from previous life adventures that give such present day insight?

How has Freddo has used century old stoic wisdom to pacify his angry mind when able bodied people use the disabled changing rooms?

What grim discovery did Benji make in his new home that keeps him up at night?

All this and more in the latest episode of Apes on Tape podcast.

Once again thank you for listening and for all your wonderful feedback on our conversations.

Having recently deleted my instagram account, feel free to contact me at Freddo Smith on Facebook

You can contact Benji Sowter on FB or @whatwouldawombledo on instagram

We do make an effort to reply to all correspondence!

Love yourselves and each other ❤️ ✌️

Join Freddo and Benji in another thought-provoking and hilarious episode as they delve into the complex realms of mortality, wellbeing, and life's unexpected twists. We explore the reasons behind the traditional fear of death and ponder the contrasting emotions surrounding the loss of young versus old lives.

Be prepared for laughter as Freddo recounts a daring encounter with a class of teenagers. What begins as an inspirational talk takes an unexpected turn when Freddo decides to showcase his rapping skills. Brace yourself for laughter as Benji humorously reflects on the potential embarrassment and disastrous consequences that could have ensued.

Freddo talks about his new job, revealing how the structure and routine have become vital pillars of his well being. In a candid moment, he shares his recent struggles with a dip in mental health, highlighting the importance of vulnerability and especially grateful to have a friend like Benji to share intimate struggles with.

Phone addiction and imposter syndrome take the spotlight as both hosts openly discuss their personal battles. With lightheartedness and wit, they shed light on the challenges they face, reminding us that it's okay to find humour even in the midst of our struggles, and that even in the face of adversity, there's always room for a good laugh.

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In this shockingly honest episode, Freddo and Benji talk about the intricacies of new romance and Freddo's recent experience of being asked to go on another podcast to talk about sexual intimacy after a spinal cord injury, which inspires some unexpected revelations, including the importance of open and honest communication about things that were previously too embarrassing to share.

Benji recounts some of his recent highlights which include some once in a lifetime opportunities like a random encounter with dolphins while surfing in his favourite spot. Freddo opens up about starting talk therapy, while Benji reveals his decision to part ways with his therapist, having gained invaluable insights about people-pleasing and the importance of setting healthy boundaries.

We also engage in playful banter about the role of AI tools, such as chat GPT, providing affordable therapy, highlighting the pros and cons, with humorous takes on a potential dystopian future, where AI becomes the primary source of all therapeutic guidance.

Join us in this thought provoking episode as we navigate the depths of vulnerability, personal growth, and the limitless power of honest conversation.

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If you want to meet up with me in the UK next week, then contact me on Instagram @freddosmith14 - I look forward to seeing you!

In this episode Freddo talks with Mickey Fitz, a close friend whose journey has taken him from the slopes of Morzine to the vibrant world of Formula E, and beyond, creating stunning films that captivate audiences worldwide.

In this candid and thought-provoking conversation, we share deeply personal experiences and insights on how our friendship has grown and evolved over the last ten years.

We delve into some of the most transformative moments we've shared together, including a psychedelic ceremony that left a profound and lasting impact on Mickey's life.

We also discuss the importance of mental health and self-care, and how journaling and talk therapy have been instrumental in our own journeys.

With unwavering honesty, we explore the highs and lows, the moments that have brought joy, the challenges faced, and the lessons learned along the way, and the importance of forming connections that can withstand the test of time.

We share our perspectives on how our friendship has been a source of strength and support, helping weather life's curveballs and staying connected despite the inevitable changes and challenges that arise.

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In this podcast, Freddo and Benji discuss the fascinating advances of Artificial Intelligence, and the potentially disconcerting future that lies before us as a species. 

While Freddo mourns the loss of his job, Benji highlights the value of talk therapy for maintaining one's mental health. 

Benji shares a hilarious anecdote about buying a flashy new e-bike and then forgetting the code after locking it up outside the supermarket. 

Freddo recounts his reluctance to release a recent reaction video to Candace Owens, finding himself on the unpopular side of a contentious issue in the disability community. 

Why do algorithms reward outrage over nuance? Do they encourage groupthink and tribalism? 

All this and more in this lighthearted and deep chat between two friends who are keen to share new ways of thinking and novel ideas that are both entertaining and thought-provoking

If you think someone might enjoy this episode, then please share it with them, as word of mouth is such a great way to help our podcast grow.

If you really liked it, then share it on your social media and tag us @freddosmith14 and @whatwouldawombledo

Feel free to ask us questions or send feedback, we will reply to every message we receive