i am just going to say something for my own self. i forgot that i said something about jimmy kimmels appearance. the thing is i once did that when it came to grimes, i made a different twitter account and said something like she was not pretty. but i do think she is pretty. i did think she was pretty at the time. i said that because of the situation.  so i apologize kimmel. you are not bad looking. sometimes i am not sure what to say so i insulted your appearance.  the reality is that the media doesnt work anymore. i can explain what i mean by that another time. 

also, the reality is, that i got online by myself and people like elon musk and grimes crossed my path.  i did not know who they were.

i wouldnt be surprised if some foreign government marched in there and just took all the money. and now the u.s. has no money. 

i really hope the admin did not just clean out the government and put the money in to their own bank accounts. 

they cut funding to fight food insecurity and do not have a back up plan , as in a food distribution plan instead or anything that i know about. 

i swear at one point the u.s. owed a foreign country a lot of money and there was a lot of fear of what would happen to the u.s. economy if they called the loan.  as in if they demanded all of their money. 

 i hope some one can go check the gold reserves or the u.s. bank accounts and make sure the money is there.

you should also know though that there are some crazy things going on in the building i live in and sometimes think i live around people who are trying to kill other people. there was this one story about a man that used a syringe to put opiods and stuff on a neighbors door because he thought they were too loud. the family became sick and stuff from the opiods he was putting on their door then they found out what the guy was doing. i feel like i am in a situation like that. if you think people are not smart enough to spray you with fentanyl laced substances these days, i am not sure what to tell you.

i dont know what the attics are like in this building, but sometimes i think people or the maintenance workers live and hang out in the attic and do drugs up there. and maybe i think they can go down in to the units because there are several openings and doors in the cieling to the attic. i tried to open one once but there was a big metal box , so i couldnt see in there.

i dont know if it is in my head. but i keep getting a wierd feeling about jimmy kimmel.did you know his show has been on since 2003? and that colbert and the others have only been on since 2015? i do not watch any of them really, especially kimmel. t.v. is different now.  it actually may only be for suburbanites. 

all i am saying is,  i dont have a problem with you. but please dont invite my brother or father on to your show or to your parties. and things like that. and probably dont leave your children alone with my brother or father. 

it also makes me wonder if my brother or father were reaching out to my aunt and grandmother for money solely because we are blood relatives. and i wonder if my father and brother were tracking me through facebook and making business connections and all of that stuff at my expense. even though i too was struggling in the economy.  would a man that raped me, my brother, and a man that was absent but had a restraining order, my father, legally be able to dox me all that time and hook up with people i know or am related to, solely because they are a blood relative?  is it legal for them to connect with people i know but not let me know? i have no idea what those two people have said about me. were they talking about me to try to make business contacts?  i know that my cousin zoey roslyn whatever did. she hooked up with people i know. but before she did that, when i reached out to her and her family for help, they ghosted me. and i have not heard from them since they reported me missing. which i still do not know how they decided i was a missing person. because i did not have personal contact with them.  it seems very illegal. i had stayed with the childs but they told me that shannon had disowned me and they asked me to leave. so when i left, did the childs report me missing?  they are the ones that told me i could not stay there. 

so this is how i know that generally, friends or family are not going to be capable of helping other family members or friends. 

he also didnt get his business going until 2010. i just find it very troubling that someone who is 9 years older than me, was struggling just the same as i was in the economy during the economic downturn. it make me realize that people 10 and 20 years apart were falling all over each other for jobs and things. 

they would have depended on me for ssi. so it always comes back to the money flow. its all very ghetto.  i know my aunt and uncle used the money as well for themselves and to raise their family.