they would have depended on me for ssi. so it always comes back to the money flow. its all very ghetto.  i know my aunt and uncle used the money as well for themselves and to raise their family. 

its just really startling to find out that my brother who is 9 years older than me and my father who is 27 years older than me, were possibly depending on me without me knowing, because they were struggling in the economy. 

after my mother died, i went to live with my grandfather. i did not live with him for very long actually. and during the time i lived with him, my brother also needed a place to stay. so my brother, my grandfather, my uncle justin, and myself all lived in a house in garland. well one day i heard my grandfather erupt in anger at my brother and the next thing i know my brother was saying he had to leave.  i am not sure why my grandfather became angry with him. it may or may not have had something to do with me. i remember when my brother lived there he did not have any money one time. and i had been saving some money from the lunch money i was given, and i remember giving my brother the money i had which was around 35 dollars.  

he was my mothers child also, but it is kind of infuriating to realize that my brother was still down on his luck and needed to stay in the same place i was staying after my mother died. 

with them doing that, they were helping their own wives and children. and i think it caused very lethal tension with me and people who took care of me.  as in the caregivers killed me by not giving me clothes and things like that.

i will describe how it happened. he molested me for years. but one day he said "i want to try something"  then he took whatever bottom clothes off i had . i dont remember what i had on. and then he forced himself anally.  i did not know what intercourse was. i did not suspect anything like that was going to happen. so when he forced himself anally, i figured out what intercourse was at that moment.  i remember realizing his penis was in my anus and what he was doing right then.  it hurt very bad. i will not describe all of the details of what happened.  it could have been worse than what it was. my brother seemed to care about me in whatever way he was able to, so he didnt do that for very long. but i wont explain what i think caused him to stop.

he is 9 years older than me, so he was basically an adult raping a child.

i remember realizing when he stopped , that it could have been much worse if he continued. 

so in the moment i learned, what a penis was, what intercourse was, what a penis in the anus is,  that he did not do that for very long, and i realized that if he had kept doing that it would have been so bad its not something you can understand.

the rhino face in the circle represents the anal rape while being a different version of his name, ryan.

i was told a lot of things by other people. i do not remember how i found these things out or who told me mostly. but i was told that my brother had a problem wetting the bed. i think it was pointed out because it was still happening when he was older.  

maybe if you are looking for something to do today, you can meet up with my father and brother to rape some people.  i think they do that kind of stuff on halloween.

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i think it is great , that my brothers company name is RYNO  after his anal rape of his half sister, that would be me.

this is to me an example of how people probably are empowered after they rape someone. 

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