but,  i am surprised they didnt target my father in oklahoma.  i do not understand what the difference is.  as far as i know, my mother was the one who helped him get the respiratory therapist career by paying for expenses, helping him with it , etc.

i think my father thought he was better than my mother, because of his father. even though my father was disgusting.  my father couldnt get an education without the help of my mother i dont think.  i think my mother supported him to become a respiratory therapist. by paying for school , housing , things like that.   i only met him a couple of times, but like somehow during one of those meetings. he told me he thought college should be free. after that, i thought maybe the only reason he was with my mother was so she could help him gain a better career. 

i did try to like my father though.  mostly it seemed like he didnt have much to say. but then sometimes he would speak coherently.

when i met my father i thought he was dumzo. i was pretty upset he was my father. i dont like the way he looks or anything. but i still tried to like him.  but then i found out his father was a spaniard that was exiled from spain or whatever. but i didnt get the entire story on that.  i did meet my grandfather on his side one time. for a few minutes.  i think i was four or five.

there are probably peopl ethat  would pay for that kind of thing though  to buy someone that is going to die   

my grandfather jesse was also on the dallas city council or something like that too. he ran for something and i think one of his opponents ruined his run for office by claiming he didnt pay his taxes or whatever. my grandmother said this several times "that person said    "go check jesse out"  and then he was ruined"   my grandfather jesse was also involved in a building project in texas and i think something political happened that ruined his building plans   and put him in to debt. the kind of debt i dont think you can recover from. so like maybe those same people that ruined his life triangulated me and my mother etc    kind of like crows they dont forget their enemies they teach their children to hate the same enemies  generations of crows will hate the same person because their great great great great great grandparent crow taught them to hate that person.

i think my mother was a valedictorian or a salutatorian or something   they killed her anyway 

i do have a story about my grandfather. my mother's father.  my grandmother told me.  when she first married jesse, they went to visit her father. my great grandfather. when they were together, jesse, like hit my grandmother or pulled her hair and took her away from the table or outside or something because something she said or did embarrassed him.  she said that her parents told her to forgive what he did or something.  

i have three sisters and a brother that i know of. but i think i am the only one that was targeted.  meaning my father was not targeted also.  just my mother, me.  possibly my mother's father.

i was thinking about how i hear they hang people in oklahoma. i actually was wondering why they didnt target my father.   he really made a mistake telling me what he told me about his ancestry. because i dont think it was true.  i think he just said that to me to destabilize me to be honest.  the sisters dont seem to operate in a way that they were told anything like he told me.