i am a court jester for donald trump. i am kind of pissed that donald trump was my boyfriend for the last ten years. 

i got a text message from a fiona about a charity event in la. is that a thing. is there a fiona out there? she was looking for someone named lauren. she didnt know who the phone number belonged to. but she was talking about where i live.  seems like there is someone out there that doesnt want people to meet in person. 

they think everyone is playing 4d chess. i guess that is an interesting way to look at it. if oliver tree is alive, it would have been easier for someone like me to meet you through the concert schedule, rather than in a situation that is a bit more unapproachable. not even sure if he is alive. but i could be getting the wrong messages about what is going on.  but if they asked you to go along with a stunt, the path is impossible. if you had kept the concert schedule, you could have still met people then.  i think you were just starting to become more famous.  which in that industry is kind of crazy it happened the way it happened for you. most of the time, the fame happens sooner. but we are in a muffled market. i saw you talking about how you worked on your album for five years then the influenza hit. i dont know seems like you were talking about covid. seems like you were also being blocked.  i wish i could have heard about you around the time of covid. i am sorry.  i hope they didnt ask you to cancel the concerts and then for the last couple of months you have been in a dungeon somewhere. or they have been misleading you. i think if they asked you to cancel the concerts and stuff they just wanted to divert you to the wrong things. most likely bad things happened for the last couple of months. if not, that is good for you also.    if they are tanking the markets, i will never meet anyone or move forward here     ill be able to go make friends with the homeless person on the street still though. i can meet those people.   if they hurt the market even more like it seems like they are doing i definitely cant rise above it not sure about other people, i am probably going to have to flee the country to save the money i do have.  

they want me to tell you the trafficking isnt happening, but it is.  they are standing by because they want me to say i am only crazy, so they are released from the claims i made.  they just want to be free from the claims. you are free. 

if oliver tree is still alive, he should not have reached out to me while having a girlfriend. i am going to settle with you on that one. i wont be able to deal with another girlfriend.  i dont do polygamy or whatever. not sure how to say it.   i am kind of surprised that this is how american media works now.  i feel like i was put in a story and now all i can see is how oliver tree has a girlfriend but was reaching out to me. 

to me how it would go is oliver tree would try to be my friend, then donald trump and his team would somehow step in to make him an enemy.   that is what i believe the story has been so the way i see donald trump is. say one of you try to become my friend, he is going to catch you before you can meet me, to turn you against me, then i never meet you. kind of thing. 

these are complicated things. was the oliver tree story to fake friendship toward me, then in the end the story is only about how he has a girlfriend?   and will not be my friend?

would it be possible for someone to use an invisibility device to show to someones house to do that in person? is it virtual, is it a hallucination. i dont know. but i heard about using lsd for government to split peoples minds  which could cause hallucinations

for me it started in 2015 never went away

its hard to explain the rape. could be virtual could be imaginary. some people know what i am talking about. they have seen it. they watch my nether regions. does this sound normal for them to watch nether regions? no, it isnt normal but they do.  i learned to ignore it most of the time but sometimes it gets to me.

i am 42. i am older. but i am not dead.    but i do think it is important to know that not all stress is harmful. some stress is beneficial. some stress is harmful.   when you are older you have to minimize harmful stress such as exploitation and stuff. 

well, because i dont know how much time i have. i will say my opinion of america is that the media has hijacked the culture so much that it kind of seems like any celebrity can sort of use the lives of others for their own gain with no consequences.  compared to a place like russia or china,  i am not saying that i agree with everything they do, but they do control the narrative a lot more and dont seem to let individuals exploit other individuals in the media like it is done in the u.s.   at this point, i think that whatever russia and china have done to insulate themselves from the sliding hack shit sack of the united states is good.   some of the people who are least respected in america are the ones going around trying to take over other countries .   i will give you an example.  like my grandmother, she did not like me, ok?  but when i told her i was traveling one time, she said "oh if you go there maybe they will respect you more "   i had never heard her say something like that before, it was the first time i realized she really didnt like me.  but when she said that, i was like, she is right actually she has a point, some people are not respected in the united states.  compared to her , i guess i was not respected.  but as an individual i thought i was doing fine.  i was always estranged from my grandmother, so she didnt know what my daily life was like. she was just going off of the time when i lost my family and then went in to ward of the state mode.   she had no respect for me obviously. but i didnt know. 

but anyway, there are a lot of people in the country that are considered not respected. so i guess its important to know like   is someone like really disrespected where they are from. and if so, are they treating you like shit?  then you may have a problem.   if they are nice to you, that is better. 

through this experience, i have learned that some men that rape women, know how to rape them so that they cause the woman to have a stroke or a heart attack. i didnt really think about a rapist being smarter like that, but some of these people have enough medical knowledge that when they rape a person  they know how to rape them to cause a stroke or a heart attack. it probably just has to do with blood pressure and basically assault.   but kind of scary. next time someone approaches you to rape you, remember they may know how to make you have a stroke or heart attack with the assault.   it reminds me of a story where an older guy was punched by someone and he died from the punch. i think the person that punched him pretended he didnt know how much force he was using. but he did know how much force he was using and punched him to kill him.