TW: Death, grief, trauma

Who would of known just how therapeutic this discussion would be LOL. I flip through a few quotes that have stuck with me from a book about grief (It's Ok That You're Not Ok by Megan Devine) and explore some thoughts on them. Sorry, I end up getting a little passionate on some parts LOL

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Episode corrections: I literally graduated college in 2017... so I moved to Tucson years before that for college! LOL (my memory is trash)

It's Denisa's birthday, and unfortunately she is not here to celebrate it, and I hate that. Last month was another year since Eliza passed, and I hate that too. But I'm working hard to find fitting ways to honor my loved ones on these difficult dates.

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fuck cancer. #teamdenkpro

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I started thinking about why I've had such a hard time doing the podcast lately. Even when I actually sit and record episodes (I swear I have like 5 episodes recorded) I just feel a mental block where I don't want to use them and instead just avoid posting them and forgetting about them instead. I realized I've been in a super avoidant place where I just would rather not, with so many things, even the things I ENJOY like anime!

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Let me try to give y'all a little update of my summer so far so you know where I am. I'm here, I'm around, I'm a mess lolol but thankfully, all good things. I'm trying my best guys, I promise!

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I feel like its tradition to do an episode around my birthday at this point lol. But this year is a bit different and thankfully in a good way! I know a lot of this is thoughts and feelings I've expressed on the podcast before but it is also what I need at this moment. So here is a moment of repetitive reflection from me.

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Welcome back for part two of the episode with Tay! Reminder that I will be away for a while for my birthday so no episode for a bit. I'll be back soon!

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With getting closer to the end of my graduate program (humble flex fr) I find myself with higher levels of anxiety about being done. I've found myself wanting to take more or longer breaks in an attempt to push off the inevitable of graduating. When I started this program, I told myself I have the duration of the program to "fix" myself and my own mental health status. But life had other plans for me of course, and rather than picking myself up over the last few years, I ended up going deeper and deeper under. Which has contributed to me feeling like I'm just not ready to finish.

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April went by so fast I didn't even finish blinking!! But I had some wonderful highlights this past month also so I wanted to share those.

Bands mentioned:

Bad Omens

Sleep Token

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