ehh just here to celebrate my 29th birthday LOL

I've literally uploaded this three times how annoying!

Video pods are back! Well at least for this week LOL. I'm slowly working on setting myself up for success with a podcast set up to hopefully help me with consistency. But keep your expectations low here.

I guess this ended up just being a full detailed recap of my first anime convention! It was a huge success and brought so much joy to me. Can't wait for more!

Another insightful therapy session I wanted to share this week. I was able to identify my main thread being relationships as a common struggle I have in all aspects of my life. I know I struggled in this area but I wasn't aware of just how major this influenced me. It was actually really sad to sit back and realize I don't really feel safe in any relationship in my life. Really good session!

I miss her everyday.

TW: Cancer, death, loss, grief

In some happy news, I was peer pressured to get out of my house and go on a last minute adventure to Disneyland for my bestfriends birthday! I hate Disney LOL so this was me giving it another chance and it went to well (minus spraining my foot)! Somehow I survived and actually enjoyed the full day from open to close (so long!). I'm glad I forced myself to go I know it was very much needed. 

My next travel adventure is already around the corner as I'll be heading to Puerto Rico and the Dominican Republic this weekend! Wish me luck. 

I wanted to share a few important updates in my life. As I've discussed before,  I've been struggling for a while now, while also angrily refusing to take steps to feel better. I wanted to stay stuck in this bad place. But it has gotten too difficult and I just know I can't keep going like this anymore. So I'm finally taking the first steps to getting better, I'm back on my ADHD medication and I'm back in therapy. 

But don't let the serious updates fool you, I'm also chatting about the Slime movie and Bad Bunny. How random. LOL 

I'm excited for some of the upcoming ideas for the podcast, I'd love to hear your feedback or ideas also! 

This week got a wee bit more sappy. lol But the reality is I've been struggling to accept the fact that I am moving forward and "healing" I guess. I feel guilty after having good days or fun moments. 

In other news, preparations for my goddaughters quince are going on and although I may be the worlds worst godmother, I'm doing my best to be present for her.