In this deeply inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Sarah Viliamu, founder of The Self Love Supply, to explore her extraordinary journey of resilience, healing, and empowerment. From experiencing childhood homelessness and family violence to navigating the heartbreak of recurrent miscarriages, Sarah opens up about the adversity that has shaped her and the tools that have helped her rise above it.  

With openness and wisdom, Sarah shares the practices that have supported her path to healing, highlighting the power of self-love, the importance of community, and the courage it takes to keep showing up when life feels unbearable. She reflects on how personal struggles can impact relationships and offers insight into the ways grief can also deepen connection and compassion.  

Sarah also gives a glimpse into the upcoming Empowered Her event, created to inspire women, foster meaningful connection, and remind us all of the strength that comes from standing together. This is an episode about finding light in the shadows, embracing vulnerability, and choosing resilience as a way forward.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction and Sensitive Topics Warning

00:51 Meet Sarah Villiamu: A Journey of Resilience

03:29 Life Changes: Pregnancy and Family Dynamics

05:12 Behind the Smile: The Reality of Miscarriage

08:33 Coping with Loss: Tools for Healing

10:40 The Complexity of Grief and Support

14:28 Navigating Relationships Through Grief

17:00 The Role of Friends in Times of Loss

18:06 Childhood Experiences: A Unique Upbringing

22:58 Impact of Family Violence on Relationships

25:03 Escaping Reality: Coping Mechanisms

26:24 The Journey to Modeling and Body Image

30:05 Self-Acceptance and Inner Healing

37:16 Creating Community: The Self Love Supply

39:43 Empowered Her Event: A Space for Women

43:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

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Find out more about The Empowered Her Event here.

Empowered Her 2025 Event Discount Code = Use the code BTS50 for $50 off the ticket price!

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In this episode, Ash is joined by Ryan Bayly, who courageously shares his story of 19 years of sobriety, the mental health battles he has faced, and the isolating experience of living with Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome, a condition doctors struggled to believe. For decades, Ryan hid behind a smile, staying quiet about his pain, carrying the weight of loneliness and misunderstanding.

Sobriety became the first step in Ryan’s journey back to himself, helping him rediscover who he truly was beneath the silence and struggle. It opened the door to living fully, embracing travel, and building a life that feels expansive and aligned. He reflects on the freedom that comes from connection, community, and allowing himself to be seen as he really is.

This conversation is a raw and inspiring reminder that even in the depths of silence and struggle, connection can bring light. It’s a testament to resilience, self-acceptance, and the hope that comes from walking the journey of recovery together.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Ryan's Journey

02:49 Daily Life and Sobriety

05:15 The Impact of Mental Health Work

07:57 The Struggles of Social Interactions

10:39 Childhood Experiences and Their Effects

13:06 The Development of Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome

15:48 Coping Mechanisms and Alcoholism

18:33 The Journey to Recovery

21:16 Finding Community and Understanding

23:47 The Importance of Breath and Mindfulness

26:13 The Power of Sharing and Connection

29:23 Non-Negotiables in Life

32:07 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

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In this inspiring episode, Ash is joined by Elle McBride, a Certified Havening Techniques® Trainer, who opens up about her personal journey through trauma and the healing work that has transformed her life.

Elle shares how discovering Havening became a turning point, not only in her own recovery, but in her ability to help others release the emotional weight of their past. Together, Ash and Elle explore the lasting impact of childhood trauma on adult behavior, and the role of community, self-compassion, and resilience in creating lasting change.

This is a powerful conversation about the deep human need for connection, and the practical tools that can guide us toward emotional freedom and healing.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Elle McBride and Havening Techniques

03:49 Elle's Personal Journey and Transformation

08:33 Understanding Havening Techniques

11:49 The Impact of Havening on Clients

16:28 Elle's Childhood and Early Influences

20:51 Near-Death Experience and Its Significance

25:45 Finding Purpose and Meaning Through Challenges

27:20 Finding Peace Through Struggles

34:34 The Power of Community and Connection

36:06 Understanding Childhood Trauma

44:02 Healing and Building Resilience

47:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Elle through social media and her links listed below:

 Web:⁠ www.ellelouisemcbride.com⁠

House of Delta:⁠ www.houseofdelta.com⁠

Email: [email protected]

Program Login:⁠ https://havening.podia.com/⁠

Train with Elle:⁠ https://www.houseofdelta.com.au/haveningtraining⁠

Instagram:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

Facebook:⁠ Elle McBride Official⁠

YouTube:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

Insight Timer:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

TikTok:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

LinkedIn:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

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In this heartfelt episode, Ash sits down with her now husband Damian, one week after returning from their surprise elopement and European honeymoon. You guys sent in the questions, and the couple didn’t hold back in answering them. From how they met, to making the decision to elope, what really went down on the wedding day and their favourite memories from the honeymoon, they discuss it all. The conversation also touches on the changes that come with marriage, their future goals, and the keys to maintaining a happy and healthy relationship.

The episode highlights are:

00:48 The Elopement Surprise: A Love Story Unveiled

02:31 How They Met: A Serendipitous Encounter

05:28 Navigating Relationships: Trust and Vulnerability

09:06 The Proposal: A Moment to Remember

10:39 Planning the Elopement: From Bali to Europe

16:24 The Wedding Day: A Dream Come True

21:45 The Honeymoon Adventures: Exploring Europe

27:05 Reflections on Marriage: What Has Changed?

32:22 Lessons Learned: The Importance of Routine

35:53 Courage and Change: Embracing New Beginnings

38:21 What They Love About Each Other: A Deep Connection

42:14 Future Goals: Traveling and Growing Together

44:39 Non-Negotiables for a Healthy Relationship

50:19 Closing Thoughts: Gratitude and Authenticity

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In this episode, Ash welcomes back Carlo La Marchesina for an honest conversation about the realities of recovery and the power of emotional resilience. Carlo shares his personal journey, reflecting on the recent challenges he’s faced including grief, loss, and betrayal, and how these experiences have shaped his approach to life and healing.

Carlo opens up about the daily routines and non-negotiables that keep him grounded after 17 years of consistent sobriety, emphasising the vital role of both physical and mental health. He speaks to the transformative power of vulnerability and emotional expression, and how leaning into community has been essential to his ongoing recovery.

Carlo also discusses the importance of faith and spirituality as cornerstones of his journey, and the inspiration he draws from others walking similar paths. This episode is a testament to the strength found in connection, the courage to feel deeply, and the hope that comes from living authentically one day at a time.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:38 Carlo's Journey in Recovery

05:14 Daily Life and Routine in Recovery

07:59 The Importance of Physical and Mental Health

10:52 Morning Rituals and Mindfulness Practices

13:27 Vulnerability and Emotional Expression in Recovery

16:22 The Role of Honesty in Long-Term Recovery

19:10 Navigating Grief and Loss

22:04 Challenges Faced in Recent Years

24:37 Finding Purpose in Helping Others

27:21 The Impact of Environment on Recovery

30:22 Coping with Betrayal and Trust Issues

33:06 The Role of Faith and Spirituality

36:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

38:49 The Importance of Community and Connection

41:36 Final Thoughts and Reflections on Recovery

You can connect with Carlo through Facebook or the Harmony House website.

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In this inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Bryce, founder of The Breath Code, to explore a journey marked by adversity, healing, and purpose. Bryce opens up about his early battles with addiction and the lingering shadows of childhood trauma, revealing how these experiences shaped his path and ignited a search for deeper meaning.

Through raw honesty and vulnerability, Bryce shares how breathwork became a lifeline, helping him reclaim his mental health and reconnect with himself. He discusses the power of sharing our stories, especially for men who are often taught to hide their struggles, and how vulnerability can be the first step toward true transformation.

Now dedicated to guiding others, Bryce explains how The Breath Code empowers individuals to break cycles of pain and find their own path to healing. This episode is a testament to the courage it takes to face our past, the strength found in community, and the profound impact of breathwork and self-discovery.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:18 Bryce's Journey: From Pain to Purpose

05:19 The Struggles of Addiction and Mental Health

11:05 Childhood Trauma and Its Impact

18:22 The Turning Point: Rock Bottom and Recovery

23:55 Discovering Breathwork as a Healing Modality

31:38 The Power of Breathwork in Men's Mental Health

37:15 Ayahuasca Experience and Personal Growth

46:14 Navigating Life After Addiction

51:56 The Importance of Sharing Stories

57:23 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living

You can connect with Bryce through The Breath Code and his personal instagram. 

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In this episode, Ash sits down with Blythe Langford, a holistic business mentor, trauma-informed healer, and the definition of resilience. From drowning in debt to building a salon empire, surviving cancer, and radically transforming her life through sobriety, raw veganism and fasting, Blythe’s journey is nothing short of extraordinary.

She shares the bold rituals and unconventional healing practices that have cracked her wide open, revealing a life of deeper purpose, clarity, and connection. With raw honesty, Blythe reflects on the beauty and burnout of the salon world, her ongoing dance with grief and growth, and her mission to reclaim the salon as a sacred space for transformation.

This conversation is a powerful mix of spirituality, strategy, and soul, touching on business as a healing vehicle, turning pain into purpose, and Blythe’s vision to create a retreat and recovery haven for those ready to truly rise.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Blythe Langford's Journey

02:00 Life on the Farm and Daily Rituals

05:54 Hiding Behind a Smile: Blythe's Past Struggles

09:50 Transformative Experiences: Cancer and Lifestyle Changes

13:59 The Power of Fasting and Raw Veganism

19:10 Urine Therapy: A Unique Healing Practice

25:01 Blythe's Hairdressing Journey and Business Acumen

35:48 Transformative Experiences in Business

42:03 Navigating Personal Trauma and Business Challenges

51:52 The Journey of Healing and Self-Discovery

56:53 Future Aspirations and Impactful Projects

You can connect with Blythe through her website or Instagram here.

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In this episode, Ash is joined by Kyle Stagoll, a crypto trader whose world came crashing down overnight with the collapse of FTX, one of the largest cryptocurrency exchanges in history. What started as a story of rapid success turned into a sobering fall, as Kyle faced the unthinkable: losing everything he’d built.

Kyle speaks with raw honesty about the emotional aftermath of that loss, the depression, the isolation, and the shame that followed. He opens up about how childhood wounds shaped his drive for external success, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to confront the patterns of self-sabotage that had quietly followed him for years.

But Kyle’s story doesn’t end in the wreckage. Through deep self-reflection and a commitment to personal growth, he began the slow, steady climb back, this time with a different compass. He shares how mindset work, neuroplasticity, and a redefinition of success helped him rebuild a life grounded in purpose, presence, and freedom.

This is a powerful conversation about loss, resilience, and the healing that happens when we stop performing and start showing up as our true selves.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile

03:04 Kyle's Journey: From Success to Setback

05:58 Life After Loss: Coping with Depression

08:57 The Impact of FTX: A Financial Catastrophe

11:57 Navigating the Aftermath: Rebuilding Life

15:07 Reflections on Resilience and Growth

25:07 From Rock Bottom to Resilience

31:30 Childhood Influences and Family Dynamics

35:46 Overcoming Self-Sabotage in Trading

39:59 The Power of Mindset and Neuroplasticity

43:17 Redefining Success and Self-Worth

47:14 The Importance of Freedom and Giving Back

51:40 Lessons Learned from Financial Losses

You can connect with Kyle through Instagram, YouTube, Facebook and LinkedIn. 

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In this episode, Ash speaks with Rachel Pfeiffer, a psychotherapist and yoga teacher, who shares her journey of healing from trauma, the importance of self-care, and the intersection of psychotherapy and yoga. Rachel opens up about a traumatic time in her life when her identity was not only stolen but exploited, resulting in a landmark court case and subsequent sentencing.

She also shares her insights and experiences with burnout, the significance of relationships, and how she continues to show up authentically. The conversation explores the complexities of trauma, the healing process, and the role of movement and breath in supporting mental health.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Rachel Pfeiffer

02:27 Daily Life and Finding Fun

06:43 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Personal Story

14:58 The Impact of Trauma and Healing

25:59 The Journey to Becoming a Psychotherapist

30:54 Understanding Psychotherapy vs. Psychology

35:10 The Journey to Becoming a Yoga Teacher

39:30 Integrating Yoga and Psychotherapy

44:01 Navigating Relationships in Therapy

49:00 Embracing the Messiness of Life

57:02 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living

You can connect with Rachel through her website or Instagram here. 

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In this episode, Ash is joined by author Peter Norris, a CEO, world-class athlete and the son of one of Australia’s most notorious bank robbers.

Peter’s early years were shaped by instability, violence, and addiction, but what unfolds in this conversation is not just a story of survival, it’s one of profound transformation.

Peter opens up about the pivotal moments that changed the trajectory of his life: the unlikely mentors who showed him kindness, the brave choices that led him away from generational trauma, and the deep belief that no matter where you come from, you can choose a different path.

Now a powerful leader and passionate advocate for vulnerable children, Peter shares how fostering has helped him heal parts of his own past, and how writing his memoir became a cathartic and courageous act of service.

This episode is a testament to the strength of the human spirit, the impact of compassion, and the radical power of choosing to break the cycle.

The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Peter's Journey

02:55 Life as a Criminal's Son

05:48 The Impact of Addiction

08:57 Childhood Memories and Trauma

12:11 The Search for Normalcy

14:56 The Role of Family Dynamics

17:59 Early Signs of Criminal Influence

21:06 Coping Mechanisms and Resilience

24:10 Reflections on Intuition and Trust

26:54 The Absence of a Mother

29:55 Life in State Care

33:08 Turning Adversity into Motivation

36:03 Navigating Early Life Challenges

39:15 Lessons in Leadership and Kindness

42:11 A Pivotal Decision at 13

46:56 The Impact of Family and Routine

51:17 Fueling the Fire for Success

52:50 The Journey of Fostering

54:56 The Power of Lived Experience

55:43 The Birth of a Book

01:00:35 Bravery and Authenticity in Life Choices

You can visit Pete’s website here.

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