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By Elliott Wald
Welcome to the ‘Coming Clean With Me’ Your ultimate resource for expert insights and guidance on conquering addiction.
I get it, because I've been there too. I used to be a six-day-a-week co
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For 20 years, Matthew Hopkins lived in a constant state of paranoia, violence, and chaos — coked up, tooled up, knives under the pillow, convinced people were coming through the door. Alcohol and cocaine weren’t just part of his weekends, they defined his identity, his relationships, and his sense of safety. In this follow-up episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Matthew two years clean, revisiting where he was eight months sober and where he is now. The contrast is stark: new house, new mindset, repaired family relationships, and a calm he says he’d never experienced before. He speaks openly about curtain switching, hallucinations, carrying knives, sleeping with his foot against the door, and how his paranoia became so severe that even alcohol alone would trigger it. Relationships were toxic, consequences disappeared, and fear became normal. This episode goes deep into:What early sobriety actually feels likeAnxiety, grief, and fear of a life without drink or drugsWhy recovery isn’t just stopping — it’s rebuildingHow hypnosis, environment change, and self-understanding played a roleThe reality of loneliness, growth, and emotional regulation after long-term useMatthew also talks candidly about:Buying his first homeThe shock of mental quiet after chaosTurning down cocaine for the first timeNavigating pubs, weddings, and social environments soberWhy some people secretly want you to failThis is a no-gloss, no-influencer recovery story — just lived experience, accountability, and what sustained change actually looks like. Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

In this gripping episode of *Coming Clean with Me*, host Elliott Wald sits down with the inspiring Lauren Amy White to delve into her tumultuous journey from the depths of addiction to a life of sobriety and empowerment. Known for his expertise in addiction therapy, Wald guides listeners through an unfiltered conversation that reveals the raw and often hidden struggles behind White's public persona. Lauren Amy White, a personal trainer and motivational speaker, opens up about her battle with alcohol and drug addiction that began in her teenage years. Despite growing up in what appeared to be an idyllic environment in Hertfordshire, Lauren faced significant challenges, including ADHD, dyslexia, and family traumas that fuelled her descent into substance abuse. By 18, she had reached rock bottom but found the courage to seek help and enter rehab, a decision that would change her life forever. The episode explores the complexities of addiction, highlighting how Lauren's early experiences with alcohol at family events spiralled into a dependency that masked deeper issues of self-worth and identity. She candidly discusses how societal pressures and personal insecurities led her to live a double life, one where she was the life of the party on the outside but deeply troubled within. Listeners will hear about Lauren's transformative journey through recovery, where she not only battled her addictions but also rebuilt fractured relationships with family members who were also struggling with similar issues. Her story is one of resilience and hope, demonstrating the power of recovery to mend broken bonds and foster new beginnings. Elliott Wald's insightful questions bring out the nuances of Lauren's story, making this episode a must-listen for anyone interested in understanding the human side of addiction and recovery. Whether you're seeking inspiration or insight into the complex world of addiction, Lauren's story is a testament to the strength required to overcome life's darkest moments. Join us for an episode filled with honesty, hope, and healing as we uncover the real story of Lauren Amy White—a journey beneath the veneer to discover true sobriety and self-acceptance. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

On the podcast today I have ultra-runner and author Charlie Engle. In a captivating conversation, Charlie takes us on his incredible journey from the depths of crack cocaine addiction to becoming one of the world's most accomplished ultra-endurance athletes. He pulls no punches as he delves into the gritty details of his substance abuse, the warm cozy feeling that first beer gave him as a child, and the destructive cycle of using alcohol to fuel his cocaine addiction. Charlie's harrowing tale includes a six-day drug binge that nearly cost him his life, ultimately leading to his arrest. But this is a story of redemption and transformation. Charlie shares the pivotal moment that led him to seek help, and how the power of community and support became the foundation of his recovery[1]. Running became his lifeline, allowing him to channel his addictive tendencies into a positive pursuit - a feat that would etch his name in the history books. In an awe-inspiring accomplishment, Charlie and two friends embarked on a world-record journey, running across the entire Sahara Desert - a staggering 4,500 miles in 111 days. This extraordinary experience taught him invaluable lessons about living in the present moment and the importance of shifting one's perception of pain and pleasure. Don't miss this inspiring episode as Charlie Engle shares his hard-won wisdom on overcoming addiction, filling the void with positive activities, and the transformative power of taking action today. His story is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the ability to turn adversity into strength. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

From Gavel to Gravel: Brian Cuban's Battle with Addiction on Coming Clean With Me Imagine a high-powered lawyer, seemingly untouchable in the courtroom, brought to his knees by a different kind of battle – a brutal fight for his own life against addiction. This is the raw and powerful story of Brian Cuban, on this episode of Coming Clean With Me. Elliott Wald pulls back the curtain on Brian's past, revealing the hidden wounds of childhood trauma and crippling body image issues. These demons fueled a vicious cycle of bulimia and a descent into the dark world of cocaine. Brian, the lawyer known for his sharp mind, couldn't outthink his addiction. This episode doesn't shy away from the harsh realities. Brian recounts a pivotal moment in high school that shattered him, pushing him to the brink. He talks about the all-consuming grip of addiction, the frantic chase for control, and the rock bottom that forced him to confront the monster within. But Coming Clean With Me isn't just about hitting rock bottom. It's about the arduous climb back. Brian opens up about the intervention that became his lifeline, the long road to rebuilding trust, and the unwavering support that helped him reclaim his life. If you or someone you know is battling addiction, this episode is a must-listen. It's a raw and honest look at the power of trauma, the destructive nature of addiction, and the incredible strength it takes to overcome it all. Brian also delves into how writing became his catharsis, how his experiences influence his fiction writing. Join Brian Cuban on Coming Clean With Me. It's a powerful reminder that even the most successful amongst us can be brought low, but with courage and support, redemption is always possible. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Are you ready for an emotional rollercoaster? Buckle up because we're revisiting Tal, the talented tattoo artist who bravely shared his battle with cocaine addiction in a previous episode. But this time, he's not alone. Joining him is his rock, his confidante, his mother, Michal. Prepare to be moved, as Tal and Michal openly discuss the ripple effect of addiction on their family. This episode is a raw and emotional follow-up, that delves deeper into the hidden struggles families face while supporting loved ones in recovery. Michal, Tal's mother, will share her strength and journey, as she helped her son navigate the throes of addiction. They'll also openly address tough questions like guilt, fear, and rebuilding trust. But most importantly, they'll discover the unbreakable bond forged through vulnerability and support. This is more than just a follow-up episode; it's a testament to the power of family in the face of adversity. Witness the unfiltered emotions, their shared laughter, and the tears that speak volumes. Here's what you'll gain from listening: A deeper understanding of family dynamics within addiction recovery. Practical tools and insights for supporting loved ones struggling with addiction. The strength and resilience it takes to heal, together. Hope and inspiration for families navigating their own path towards recovery. Don't miss this powerful and raw conversation. Tune in now and join Tal and mum Michal on their remarkable journey! Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/
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