In this softer, more playful episode, I’m sharing the weird witchy wellness rituals that actually help me feel grounded — from crystals in my bra to moon water in my tea. We’ll talk about intuitive tools like oracle cards, talking to your guides in the shower, ancestral altars, energy cleansing, and tuning into your menstrual cycle as a sacred rhythm.

I also open up about a recent shift in my mental health journey — including a medication adjustment, finding a new OBGYN, and receiving an official diagnosis of PMDD.

⚠️ Content note: This episode includes mentions of depression, medication, and PMDD. Please take care of yourself while listening.

🔮 Want to connect or share your own weird rituals?
Find me on IG @monica.elzbieta and @cosmicmesspodcast
📧 Or email me anytime: [email protected]

Awakening isn't always light and clarity. Sometimes it's heartbreak. Sometimes it's sacred rage. Sometimes it's feeling so overwhelmed by the state of the world that you don't know how to keep going, but you do anyway.

In this episode of Cosmic Mess, we talk about the emotional and spiritual cost of being conscious in a world that thrives on disconnection.

This is for the ones who can't unsee what they've seen and are trying to stay soft anyway.

We explore:

• Sacred rage + spiritual violence
• The fog of not knowing what to do
• Losing people as you set boundaries
• The energetic imbalance of masculine/feminine paradigms
• Nervous system burnout and somatic tools
• The 7 activist archetypes (and how you show up)
• Why rest and presence are radical acts of resistance

If you're feeling like it's too much, you're not broken.

You're awake. And that is sacred.

🛑 Trigger warnings: mentions of systemic injustice + cruelty (no graphic detail), spiritual violence + performative politics, personal experiences of burnout, fatigue, and emotional overwhelm, body disconnection and nervous system survival, grief, boundary loss, and relational trauma

Please listen gently. Take breaks. Come back when you're ready. 💛

📩 Contact & Connect

DM me on Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast or @monica.elzbieta

Or reach out via email: [email protected]

💌 Resources, archetypes, and transcripts available at @cosmicmesspodcast on Instagram.

In this episode, I’m getting real about my lifelong diagnoses of Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and Major Depressive Disorder (MDD)—and why, even after years of therapy and self-work, those labels still feel more like symptoms than answers.

We explore:

• The shame that grows when you feel like you’re always “too much” or “not enough”

• How women—and especially women of color—are often dismissed or disbelieved by the medical system

• Why I believe ADHD and PMDD are part of my story too

• What it looks like to advocate for yourself when the system tells you not to trust your own experience

• How shame disconnects us from our bodies—and how I’m starting to rebuild that trust

This episode includes a short closing meditation to help you ground and reconnect after what may be an emotionally charged listen.

Trigger Warning:Mentions of mental illness, diagnostic invalidation, medical gaslighting, PMDD, and emotional dysregulation.

If you’ve ever felt dismissed, misdiagnosed, or unseen inside your own body—this one’s for you.

Let’s stay connected:💌 Send your thoughts to: [email protected]📸 Follow along on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta | @cosmicmesspodcast

If this episode resonates, please share it or leave a review—it helps more messy, magical humans find this space. 🖤

What happens when movement becomes more about punishment than pleasure? When our bodies are treated like problems to fix, rather than sacred spaces to inhabit? In this unfiltered and heartfelt episode, I sit down with my very first guest, Amy’rie, to talk about our complicated (and ever-evolving) relationships with movement, intuitive eating, diet culture, and body trust.

Together, we unpack:

• What it means to move without shame or performance

• How diet culture sneaks into even our most “wellnessy” intentions

• The healing potential of joyful, intuitive, and mindful movement

• Why "play" might be the missing piece in your healing journey

• And how being seen in our full humanity is one of the most radical acts of all

Plus, an intuitive oracle reading from me to Amy’rie, highlighting themes of alignment, devotion, ancestral support, and awakening to a new way of being in your body. If you’ve ever felt like your body was "too much," "not enough," or just… confusing, this episode is a love letter to you.

🧿 You are sacred in motion. Especially in the mess.

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✨ Mini Bio: Amy’rie
Amy’rie (she/her) is a self-described chaotic wholesome cat mom. In her spare time she casually crochets, plays cozy video games, reads, and is trying her hand at postage stamp gardening this summer. 

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🔗 Let’s connect:
Host: @monica.elzbieta

Podcast: @cosmicmesspodcast
Email: [email protected]

✨ If you loved this episode, share it with someone who needs permission to move gently. Leave a review and let us know what resonated most. Stay messy. Stay magical.

In the premiere episode of Cosmic Mess, host Monica shares the raw, honest origin story behind the podcast. This episode explores body image struggles, spiritual healing, and what it means to live as a highly sensitive, neurodivergent soul in a world that often demands perfection. If you've ever felt like you're "too much" or "not enough," this podcast is your permission slip to take up space, speak your truth, and reconnect with your messy, magical self.

✨ Topics covered: body acceptance, energy work, self-healing, spirituality, empowerment, and mental health

🎙 Keywords: body image podcast, spiritual healing, self-acceptance, energy work, neurodivergent, feminine empowerment, highly sensitive, reiki, witchy podcast

📲 Connect on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta & @cosmicmesspodcast

📧 Reach out: [email protected]

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes personal reflections on dieting, disordered eating, body shame, and body image struggles. Please take care while listening and pause if anything feels overwhelming.

In this powerful episode of Cosmic Mess, Monica unpacks the toxic myth that our bodies must look a certain way to be lovable, successful, or worthy. Sharing personal stories of early dieting, starvation, and the pressure to shrink herself to fit in, Monica offers a raw look at how body image wounds are formed—and how we begin to heal them.

This episode is a love letter to the bodies we were taught to hate. If you’ve ever felt like your worth was tied to your weight, your appearance, or your ability to be "palatable," this conversation is for you. You’ll walk away with a new lens, soul-deep validation, and practices to start reclaiming your body from systems that profit off your shame.

Questions from the Episode:

1. Who told me what my body should look like?
2. What have I been taught to fear about taking up space?
3. What does safety feel like in my body — not society’s version of it?
4. Can I let my body be enough today… without needing her to change?

✨ Topics covered: body image healing, self-worth, diet culture recovery, disordered eating, body liberation, spiritual self-love

🎙 Keywords: body image podcast, body acceptance, self-worth, healing body shame, intuitive healing, body positivity, anti-diet, worthy body, energy work and self-image

📲 Follow on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta & @cosmicmesspodcast

📧 Contact: [email protected]