What happens when you finally stop hiding?
When you stop shrinking to be digestible — and start telling the truth, even when it shakes your voice?

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Cosmic Mess, Monica opens up about a difficult phone call with her parents, being honest about her mental health, her sexuality, and the cost of being seen.
This isn’t an episode about blame — it’s about boundaries, grief, and the quiet freedom that comes from saying: this is me, and I’m not sorry.

If you’ve ever been told your truth makes people uncomfortable, this episode is for you.
It’s a reminder that you can speak up, cry through it, and still be worthy of love.
Because healing isn’t tidy — it’s real, messy, and deeply human.

💌 Connect: [email protected]
🌐 Follow: @cosmicmess.llc | @cosmicmesspodcast
🎧 Listen to more at cosmicmessllc.com

Part Two takes us deeper into ancestral healing—where release becomes reclamation. We talk about creating open dialogue with your ancestors, altar practices, and the simple but powerful ways signs and synchronicities show up in daily life. You’ll also hear a guided ritual for letting go of inherited pain, plus a card pull to check in with the energy of the week. This conversation is a reminder: you are not broken, you’re part of a long line of survivors, and your healing ripples both backward and forward through your lineage.

Connect:
• Monica — IG: @cosmicmesspodcast • @monica.elzbieta • Email: [email protected]
• Brittany (guest) — IG: @_issavibecheck_

P.S. Got a spooky story for our Halloween special? Send it to [email protected] with “Spooky Story” in the subject.

📍 Ancestral Wounds w/ Britt, Part One

What happens when the pain we’re carrying isn’t just ours? In this episode, I’m joined by my dear friend Brittany (@_issavibecheck_), a multi-passionate creative, vibe curator, and creator of the Issa Vibe Check affirmation deck, to talk about the ancestral wound—the inherited trauma, silence, and survival patterns passed down through our families.

We share personal stories about body image, money, family expectations, and the unspoken rules that shaped how we thought we had to be. This isn’t about blaming our ancestors—it’s about honoring them while choosing to break cycles and live differently.

✨ Part Two drops next week! In it, we’ll get practical with mirror talks, cord-cutting, building ancestral altars, and a collective card pull to help you bring this healing into your own life.

🎙 Cosmic Mess is unfiltered conversations for the too much and not enough among us.

💌 Connect with me:
Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta
Email: [email protected]

We’re told healing is about fixing, upgrading, or becoming someone new. But what if it’s not? In this episode, I share why healing isn’t about polishing yourself into perfection — it’s about remembering who you already are. ✨

From treating healing like a Virgo-style checklist, to realizing my body is a doorway to the divine, to living the life my ancestors dreamed of — this conversation is about coming home to yourself. You are not broken. You are not behind. You are whole, messy, divine, and human.

📩 Connect with me:
Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta
Email: [email protected]

✨ No More Shrinking — Breaking Free from People Pleasing ✨

For years, I bent myself into shapes that weren’t mine — silencing my truth, softening my edges, and playing the role of “easy” because I thought that made me lovable. Spoiler: it didn’t.

In this episode of Cosmic Mess, I’m sharing the real cost of people pleasing — how it sneaks into our relationships, friendships, work, even tiny everyday moments — and how I’m learning to stop abandoning myself. From trauma in a trench coat to saying “it’s fine” when it’s not, this one is raw, messy, and maybe a little too relatable.

If you’ve ever struggled with shrinking yourself for approval, comfort, or belonging, this episode is for you.

🎧 Listen now and let’s talk about what it really takes to stop pleasing, start expanding, and belong to yourself first.

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✨ Let’s connect:
Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta
Email: [email protected]

Hey, beautiful messes. Welcome back to Cosmic Mess, unfiltered conversations for the too much and not enough among us.

Episode 11 is something new — the start of a series I’m calling Dear Diary. I’m opening the pages of my journals from the very beginning of my healing journey back in October 2019.

These entries are raw and unedited — filled with confusion, hope, anger, affirmations, Reiki reflections, angel numbers, and the first glimpses of PMDD. Think of this episode as a breadcrumb trail, a time capsule of where it all began.

⚠️ Trigger Warning: Themes of pain, grief, PMDD, anxiety, anger, medication side effects, and emotional struggle. Please listen with care and step away if you need to.

✨ If these words resonate with you, I’d love to hear from you. Connect with me on Instagram @cosmicmesspodcast & @monica.elzbieta or by email at [email protected].

Because you are worthy — simply because you exist. 💫

⚠️ Trigger Warning: Discussion of loneliness, patriarchal conditioning, queerphobia, fatphobia, and religious themes.

In this empowering episode of Cosmic Mess, we dive deep into being single on the spiritual path, breaking generational trauma, and healing women’s loneliness. I unpack the so-called male loneliness epidemic, the patriarchal systems that shaped it, and why women have been carrying the emotional weight of the world for centuries.

You’ll hear about:
🌙 The sacredness of singleness and the Maiden archetype
🔥 Why partnership doesn’t define your worth
🖤 Ancestral patterns of loneliness — and how to alchemize them into self-love
🪄 Witchy wisdom for reclaiming your wholeness
💬 Personal stories of healing queerphobia, fatphobia, and “too much” energy

Whether you’re single, partnered, or rethinking love entirely, this episode will help you see yourself as already complete — no waiting for Adam required.

📩 Share your story: [email protected]
📲 Follow: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta

✨ Breaking the Cycle, Rewriting the Story ✨

This episode is a sacred space for the cycle breakers — the ones doing the work no one modeled, who carry both grief and hope, and who are rewriting the story in real time.

We’ll move through personal storytelling, ancestral trauma, the science of epigenetics, and the emotional and spiritual toll of being the first to choose differently. If you’ve ever felt like the outsider in your own family, like healing is too hard or too slow, this episode is for you.

💭 We explore:

• Generational trauma + ancestral memory
• Epigenetics and what we inherit through the body
• Family estrangement and grieving what never was
• How to recognize if you're the cycle breaker
• Rituals and spiritual practices for support
• The cost and the courage of healing

⚠️ Trigger Warnings: Emotional abuse, family trauma, estrangement, grief, mentions of mental illness

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💌 Contact:@cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta
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You are not broken.You are the turning point.You are the rewrite.

Episode 8: The Lie of Not Enough
🎙️ Imposter syndrome, ancestral wounds, and the messy miracle of becoming.

Ever feel like you're faking it? Like at any moment someone’s going to figure out you have no idea what you’re doing? Same.

In this episode, we're pulling apart the myth of not-enoughness — where it starts, how it shows up in the body, and why it gets loudest when you’re on the verge of something sacred.

We explore:
🌿 The roots of imposter syndrome in trauma, neurodivergence, PMDD, and systemic harm
🧠 Why this isn’t just mindset — it’s nervous system, lineage, and survival
📚 Overachievement, burnout, and the double-bind of being “too much”
🕯️ Rituals for remembrance, ancestral healing, and body-based reclamation
💬 A live oracle card pull to close it out (and yes, there are tears)

⚠️ Trigger Warnings: Mental health, internalized shame, PMDD, trauma, burnout, self-doubt

Whether you're navigating a creative project, stepping into your voice, or just trying to believe in yourself again — this one’s for you.

📩 Connect with me:
Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast + @monica.elzbieta
Email: [email protected]

You don’t have to be perfect.
You don’t even have to be consistent.
You get to be a whole-ass human with messy edges and brilliance.

What if your cycle isn't a curse, but a key?

In this deeply personal and soulfully educational episode, Monica breaks down the four phases of the menstrual cycle, shares her lived experience with PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder), and reclaims the bleed as a sacred, powerful rhythm.

You'll learn:

• What's happening in your body during each cycle phase, hormonally, emotionally, and spiritually
• Foods, teas, and movement to support each phase
• The difference between a White Moon and Red Moon cycle
• How PMDD feels from the inside, and what has actually helped
• How to track your cycle without giving your data to Big Tech
• The witchy history of blood magic, ancestral wisdom, and lunar alignment

This episode is a love letter to bleeding bodies, shadow work, and cyclical healing.

You are not broken. You are sacred. Even in the mess.

🩸 Trigger Warnings: Mental health symptoms, PMDD, suicidal ideation, medical gaslighting, mention of blood

📬 Connect: @monica.elzbieta | @cosmicmesspodcast | [email protected]