Sounds silly right? But that’s been my experience. The more I hold space for my pain, the more I can hold capacity for joy. Borders are breaking down within me. I hold the capacity to love and feel more. Not only for myself but for others. And maybe that’s what we need. To feel our pain. And to do it together. Because we all have it. Pain is universal. And if I know that, I can love you no matter what. Because you feel what I feel. And why would I want to add more pain to your load? To my own. I don’t. So this episode is about that. I hope you enjoy it.

My partner Ben is trying to navigate life not based on fear. So since February, he hasn’t worked. He’s lived off of his savings. Because he doesn’t want to do anything just because someone tells him to. That’s our life right? From childhood we’ve been doing things we were told we had to do. You have to go to school, get a job, vote for this person, watch this, wear this, look like this. We have layers and layers of things we’re supposed to do and be. So Ben has been challenging that, I have in my own ways, but last night I was truly inspired by my partner. His desire to live freely. To not have attachments. And it’s been an incredible thing to witness. What would we be without all these ideas of who we are and what we need and what we have? If we tried things differently. If we revealed who we are underneath years and lifetimes of conditioning.

I took two weeks off of work for my mental health, and it has been the most eye opening experience of my life. This episode I talk about the conditioning of needing to “work”. How this idea has taken us away from ourselves, our planet, each other. For the past two weeks I have learned so much about myself, why I’m here, how I want to show up for myself and others. How work is just a waste of our lives. We were here to experience, maybe work is one of those experiences. Work for the community, to feed ourselves and each other, to give our gifts. To be ourselves and live our lives with passion. Maybe that’s work. Not giving 40 plus hours a week doing something you’re pretty much forced to do. I don’t know anything, but I’m glad you’re here to listen to me anyway.

Hello friends. This episode is vulnerable. I discuss how Bowen family systems theory, which looks at how trauma is passed around in generations and in the family’s, looks in my family. And maybe looks in yours. And how when we can take responsibility for our role in our lives and in our family’s, which transmits to our relationships outside of our family’s, we can change for the better. We can have a healthy relationship with ourselves, our families, and everyone else around us. This is a great episode, I hope you give it a listen. I love you. ❤️ here is a link to Bowen Family systems theory article https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/1988/09/chronic-anxiety-and-defining-a-self/668356/

This is about love. Coming from a place of the heart rather than the mind. It’s about how the mind works more in an animal survival way and the heart comes from a human perspective. It’s there to help and heal. I talk about trauma (as usual) and how unhealed children basically run the world. And how they just need some love and someone to listen to them. I talk about the gift of this life and this planet and this experience. Thanks for being here with me.

This episode is a return to my roots on this podcast. Using cannabis, I try to articulate information on why we might feel anxious when using cannabis, what it means to actually be yourself, family systems theory and at the end there’s a little breathing exercise I added on a whim. It’s a good episode full of rambles and rants and love. I hope you enjoy. ❤️

Two episodes in a day? Yup. This one is in response to the one prior to this. It’s about how we should enjoy ourselves and live to our fullest potential, regardless of fear. Regardless of judgement. Because if we live in fear, we limit our experiences. I’m alive once, for all I know. I am of the nature to die. I am of the nature to get old. So why not enjoy my body and my abilities and try to access my full potential? This is short and sweet and a good one. I hope you enjoy.

Hello friends. This is a ramble about finding your worth. Knowing that you are worth being seen and heard and shared and so is everyone else. We all have gifts that can be shared. This ramble is also about forgiveness, of the self and of others. I hope you can find yourself in it. ❤️

Anchor just informed me that one year ago today I published my first podcast episode. It’s so funny how the universe works. I’ve unconsciously spent that past few days listening to old episodes, comparing them to the ones I’ve been putting out lately, and seeing where and who I was to where and who I am now. This episode might resonate with you. It might not. But it’s the one year anniversary of the first consistent thing I’ve ever done. I’m proud of it. It’s me. I love it and her and you for being here. Thanks for growing with me. Cheers.

This is a ramble that starts with what an interaction with a child taught me. That we are all born to love. We aren’t afraid of each other. We aren’t afraid to hug and kiss a stranger. We all want to love and be loved unconditionally. And why when we grow up that goes away. And how love is repressed in our society. How our idea of what god is and how it judges and punishes might influence why we judge and punish ourselves and each other. 89% of people believe in a higher power, and what they believe that higher power is determines how they treat themselves and each other. So what if god was loving? If god didn’t judge and want anything from you. And lastly, what are you? Are you your job? Are you the voice in your head that judges everything? Or the thing behind that that just observes? I hope you enjoy todays ramble. And I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.