Men hate me?! What?! I didn't know I was a cunt :( .. boohoo. In this EP I talk about cis-het male insecurity and how that can manifest in extremely harmful behavior. Some of this harmful behavior is sexual abuse, verbal/physical violence, and more. I explain how I deal with misogynist verbal attacks, and that not all battles are worth fighting. Enjoy!

Welcome to another episode of heavily oversharing!!! In this EP I dive into the nuances of my sexuality and how identifying as bi or straight doesn't resonate with me. I explain the role my upbringing had, some wild experiences, and the conclusion I came up with when explaining my sexual orientation. If you are or have been in ~confusion~ like me, I hope this helps!

This is part one of a series I'm doing about my journey with mental health illness. I talk about my struggle with depression and dissociation, specifically derealization. TRIGGER WARNING I speak on topics like severe depression, religion, sexual assault, and suicide. I'm doing this series because I had a recent realization that after seven years of struggling with dissociation I am nowhere near complete healing. I am now trying to be more objective with my judgements of my mental health progress; I want to share my experiences because I know I am not the only one struggling. This is part 1 of a multiple part series. I'm mainly explaining the disorder, how it felt, and how it currently feels for me. To anyone struggling with mental health, I hope this helps you and makes you feel more seen. 

 

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This is one of the first episodes in which I dive into some of the experiences I've had in the acting world. I knew this was going to be a tough journey, and dealing with racism and stereotypes is one of the reasons why. Seeing that POC are being reduced to their race or some misery story is a topic that has been frustrating and sad to deal with lately... so this EP is more of a venting sesh for me. I talk about the stereotypes I've come across, why white people should not be writing POC stories, and how I want to use these negative experiences as fuel to accomplish my dreams. Not all representation is good representation, so at this point, we are fighting for inclusion and positions of power that way we are eventually represented with RESPECT and DIGNITY.

Yes, I DID THAT. In this EP I rant and cuss into the void about how much I don't give a single fuck about your opinion. If you're a sex-negative c*nt GTFO! This is not the place for you! In this week's episode, I talk about facing the struggle of being told to fit into a box and how liberating it is to not follow that standard. I share my fears, experiences, and expectation with my OnlyFans. Enjoy!

In this episode, I put myself on BLAST once again.... (sigh). I don't know why I do this to myself, I think it's part of not giving a fuck about anything, LOL. I start this EP by explaining the kind of mindset I'm in and how I am approaching romantic relationships. I talk about the guys I've talked to and what I like in every one of them. I also share some embarrassing stories, it was about time for one of those! I conclude the episode by going on Clubhouse and asking people to share their embarrassing sex stories!

In this episode, I'll be discussing my own experiences with pretty privilege with all of its pros and cons. I recognize that in my experience there are more advantages than disadvantages. I also talk about desirability politics and how they are constructed upon a foundation of racism and white supremacy. Pretty privilege is more than just getting free drinks at a bar, it the product of a system built to oppress marganilazed communities. I conclude this episode by offering some ways on how to use your privilege to help dismantle the system.

In this episode, I talk about my own journey with celibacy and committing to No Dickstractions 2021!!! I discuss how practicing abstinence or celibacy in my younger years was really unhealthy because it was rooted in conservative shameful beliefs. Practicing celibacy now is much different! I talk about the lessons celibacy has taught me and how it's helped me love myself more and become more mindful of who I exchange energy with.

In this EP I talk about my positive progress with my mental health and how I came to the realization that I'm much closer to healing than I thought. I also discuss what this means to me as an artist and how I've developed alternative ways to connect with negative emotions when necessary. At the end of the EP, I talk about how moving to Los Angeles has been a work in progress even before moving and how this has become an extremely beautiful spiritual journey.

What in the social dilemma is this?! In this EP I explain how I struggle with being addicted to my phone. I do not use the word addiction lightly, and I fully intend on using it in this context because this has become a very serious problem for me. I talk about how my addiction started (way back in the myspace days) and how it's evolved. I also elaborate on how the addiction looks on me (it looks different on everyone) and how it has negatively impacted my mental health. At the end of the episode, I share some tips on breaking the addiction, and how those things have worked for me. I know there's a lot of people struggling with this, so I hope this resonates and helps!