The world is a garden. Buttt- can I see the garden in the person I see in the mirror? Moshiach already exists in the world. (And mamash science has proven it. All is one. All is G) Now, It’s time to reveal Moshiach in our minds and hearts. In my experience of my own self. 🤍 When I’m sitting in the throne of my soul… my dignity is not up for debate. My beauty is not something that is “judged” and my ability to find FULL LOVE and aliveness is not something that can be rationalized based on my stage or age or circumstance. When I’m sitting in the throne of my soul- even when the world likes like a jungle- I breathe and see a garden. And even when i feel like I’m in the wrong place at the wrong time and things should be different then they are… I breathe and see Hashems presence. Moshiach now. TYH.

This is such a vulnerable conversation for me. To start learning that there is a place for me to lean into that experiences ALL OF ME (including all my parts) as oneness with god is scary… So many parts are so used to feeling fragmented and alone… and so they have built empires of thoughts and beliefs and behaviors inside my body and consciousness that “protect me”…. And now… as I’m starting to get curious if there is another way to function other then through those “protectors”… they are getting scared. They really want me to be protected(: and they can’t imagine that there is another way for me to be safe other then the way they thought of…. as we continue this convo I’m leaning into unconditional grace and tenderness with every part of myself… Reminding all my precious inner children (animal soul) that when I access my light…they will NOT be left behind… but that they too, will finally have the home they so deeply desire. I remind them that Gods love is unconditional, and that that love will encompass them also. This is the dance to Geula. This is redemption.

It’s time to start noticing- is this my animal soul fighting my animal soul ? Or is this my godly soul? “Moach shalit al Halev” is not when we compulsively try to control ourselves. It is the state of being in which we are sitting in the THRONE of our soul. Where our divinity and worthiness and aliveness and breath and ability to CHOOSE is not up for debate. It is when we have access to the state of expansiveness LIGHT… and light does not FIGHT darkness. When light shows up- darkness sees itself for what it truly is. Godly soul isn’t afraid to differentiate between godly soul and animal soul… (“this is a part of me” vs. “this is me”) bc godly soul/ self knows that this is actually what the animal soul desires!!! To finally be seen through the lens of our godly soul. To finally “belong”. To finally have a mother. When our godly soul shows up, our animal soul finally has what she always wanted …. A mother. A home. God. TYH.

This is so tremendously powerful. Hashem. Ily. Thank You for being mine.

The rasha is blended with his parts. No differentiation between me and this experience. When a rasha FEELS his past… where did I come from? When did I start feeling this? … The rasha automatically has a differentiation between ME and the feeling. I am not the totality of this experience. I am the one feeling it. It is our natural state to be in a state of choice and breath. When we aren’t, it’s time to feel. Sending so much love and the palpable feeling of hashems arms enwrapping you fully with so much love in this exact moment.

TYH. This is the link for chapter 16 Tanya inside: https://open.spotify.com/episode/0jJsMrLRB1LRGf492tCIGr?si=Ru-7KmJ6S0OO1ZjwFa1PXA

True aliveness = the present tense experience of engaging with our lives❤️the emotions of our lives are not the enemy. Everything is here for me. There is no antagonist. The messiness is part of the journey. Hashem is everything. Including this. TYH

We have all the tools and recourses we need to be in the darkness and still feel our own light. To be warriors of love and light, our weapon being the loving breath of hashem breathing through our minds and bodies right now

Entering the arena. How are you defining yourself? Someone who is “still struggling”…? Or someone who has the opportunity to engage in the most delicious divine mission in Hashems magical garden…? You

Wow what a journey. What a life. TYH.