DARE TO LOVE

I birthed our baby in 2,5 hours.

I didn’t intend to have a free birth, it just kind of unfolded that way. And honestly, up until the first contraction, I can’t say I really felt necessarily courageous or super ready. 

But somehow the readiness was there. 

A readiness from my body; from my instinctual self. All I needed in that moment was to be left alone, uninterrupted, untouched, to move with the force of birth guided completely by my inner knowing. 

Our baby boy Raiden Onyx was born on the 25th of April in 2,5 hours. 

This experience changed me forever. 

I am in complete awe of everything this journey has taught me. From conscious conception, to my wild pregnancy and sovereign birth. 

May my story inspire you…

Since 2010 plant medicine has been part of my life in a very intimate way. This is actually the first time I publicly speak about specific experiences during ceremonies. 

The only way that makes sense to me, is to share through story-telling. Not as an expert on the subject. Not as a way to teach you what you should or should not do. But really just as it has been my experience during this pregnancy.

I recorded this right in the final moments of my pregnancy. Simply flowing with whatever information wanted to be shared in the present moment. 

I would love to hear how you have connected to plant medicine during pregnancy, or if this is something you feel called to do.

Now that I'm approaching birth for the second time, I've decided to share with you my deep contemplations of how this pregnancy has been preparing me. 

In an unexpected way I've needed to integrate many details of my first birth. Eventhough my daughter was born at home and came out perfectly, I've needed to come to terms with the many ways my primal needs weren't accommodated. 

For this pregnancy I chose a "wild pregnancy" - no doctors, no tests, just me and my instinctual guidance. It has blown my mind to see how profound and precise this journey has been in comparison to my first. 

It is simply because there was no external influence messing with the primal voice of the mother; the primal voice of the dark feminine.

What if insecurity as well as confidence can both be ways in which you sabotage your path of love?

In this delicious conversation with Sam, we talk about our love journey's, and what we are now able to see that wasn't obvious before we met our soulmates.

Interestingly enough we both met our men around the same time, and got pregnant around the same time!

I love and respect Sam for who she is - her intelligence, her wisdom, her embodiment as a sister, woman, partner and mother. We're extremely aligned, and in so many ways so opposite! Which is what makes our connection so interesting and complementary.

I'm sure you'll love this episode!

You can connect with Sam on IG @alchemy.of.awakening - she does beautiful 1:1 work and holds a powerful container for anyone who longs to go deeper into themselves. 

Meredith Lynn interviewed me on her podcast “Serving Love”. I absolutely LOVED our chat. Meredith feels like a good friend I haven’t yet met.

So many incredible women, who’ve done a lot of inner work, are extremely self aware, successful and independent…. And yet struggle finding the man that is right for them.

Love should be easy.

What does it take to get there? What are those subtle blind spots that are hiding in your peripheral that are sabotaging what you desire…

You can find Meredith on IG: @meredythlinn

Serving Love Podcast: https://tr.ee/cPZho3pb3B

Do you want a child or a career? So many women prioritize one or the other and end up feeling incomplete.

The dilemma of the modern woman is exactly that.

We don’t wanna sacrifice our purpose and disappear in the role of motherhood.

Simultaneously, a lot of women in their mid-thirties will feel pressure to pursue a very primal and intimate desire of starting a family.

What would the rest of your life look like without it?

Laura shares vulnerably about her own experience and interpretation of what she’s learnt and perceived in the last decade of questioning this dilemma within herself.

Laura is an amazing teacher. I met her a decade ago, and can confirm she is one of the rare ones who truly embodies what she shares. Her speciality lies in intimacy, sexuality, deep inner connection to the body and the unconscious.

Find her on IG @laura_deva_love

Or check out https://www.lauradeva.com

Laura found true love after doing DARE TO LOVE course with me in 2020. Her journey is a very unique one as her blockage in the heart manifested as breast cancer. She discovered the cancer while doing the course.

The support of the group as well as the deep inner work she was doing on her patterns in love and intimacy helped her realize the deeper meaning of the cancer and therefore pushed her even deeper into the incredible healing journey she was on.

She understood the places she had denied her desires, she recognized her self-love and sense of self-worth were truly at the core of what had prevented her to manifest her wish to share life with a man who truly prioritizes her and their love.

When all was healed… the man of her dreams swept her of her feet!

Angell Deer is a dear friend and medicine man. The work he offers is in such integrity, it’s rare to find someone who carries such wisdom and knows how to share it in pure humbleness.

I’m honored to (again) chat with him on his podcast "The Sanctuary".

In this interview we cover:

• The shadow of the strong independent woman
• Self-sabotage and how it prevents us from getting the love we truly desire
• How to move from “protecting the heart” to “feeling secure”
• What it truly means to be feminine and how this vulnerable power is the opposite of the feminist interpretation of being powerful
• How to combine shamanic and tantric practices to help enter the optimal resonance to attract your soulmate

Meeting the love of your life can be an ego-shattering, identity crushing whirl of an experience. Many of us dream of finally resting in a secure sense of commitment, but once your there... the initiation can be something that is far beyond what you may expect.

The happily ever after exists, it is real... and, you also gotta be ready for a certain level of Sacrifice it requires to fall into that devotion.

In this episode with Nikki Ananda she shares her story of how she got initiated into love once she met her soulmate. If you haven't listened to part #1, check out episode 016.

Nikki is an intimacy coach and does incredible work. Check her out on IG @nikkiananda and visit nikkiananda.com for more details.

Sometimes we have to suffer, to dare to love more truly. Sometimes we have to get lost, in order to find new expressions of ourselves. Sometimes we have to face our shadows, so that our confidence rises.

In this episode my husband Ruwan and I talk about the cycles of life, pleasure and pain, connection, female sensuality and other personal stories. 

This was recorded after coming down from a beautiful day of ceremony. We were caught in a moment of inspiration, and hit record. I hope you'll enjoy this episode as much as we did.