It's been a busy day but had the luxury of two great learnings, both delivered by very good friends.

One was about how ready I am or I will ever be.

The other was a great insight into how I get to do stuff that I never thought I'd do. This refers to the Insanity Max Out training but i think it is a lot more than that.

So, all in all, a good day.

It was a day with two very different parts. The morning was rubbish, feeling tense and unsettled. The afternoon improved slightly and eventually got decent and even good. I just didn't want to feel those feelings, and I had to do something. It seemed to work.

Ah, and a question from a song: who is luckier, those that love, or those that are loved?

Have a nice day

Javier

Yes, I missed yesterday's entry and this is telling me that I will do this for as long as I find it useful and fun. That seems to be my secret. If I do it and enjoy it, I will keep doing it. If it's becoming a drag... I'd rather not do it.

Which prompts me to think about bigger decisions in life. Do I have to do them, or do I choose to do them.

Have a lovely Sunday

Javier

Today it's bee a good day. I have no shame in saying it. It's been a really good day.

A virtual walk in the park talking with Sarah, a great piece of work with Amy and a question to my friends: Best way for me to make an impression? comes with a simple answer: just keep smiling.

And that's my message to you: just keep smiling. That's what makes you, you.

Keep Safe, Keep smiling

Javier

It's been a busy day and nothing much has happened, but maybe that is news in itself. I take this very short entry to reflect on the things are I am lucky for.

Also, this will be the last entry I post in FB as I think it has run its course. I will continue doing this diary and uploading it as per my self-commitment, but just not mention it in social media. Whoever listens to it, fantastic.

We have been in one or another variant of lock down for a month. I am noticing the girls loosing energy. They don't talk about their friends and we are all becoming 9-5 family, not doing much and going from one day to another. What can I do? should I do something?

And to make today a complete mix, I got very important news about a project I have developed. I will have 15mins to pitch it, how do I go about it and why I cannot stop thinking about my lack of "pulling" ability as a teenager. How do they come together?

Wishing you all the best

A walk in the park recording my rambling thoughts. The audio has some contribution from the A40 motorway as well as some fellow walkers and birds chipping.

I think and talk (sometimes not in that order) about good things happening to bad people and the other way around. Also, what's the reason why I decide one way or another, if maybe nothing good comes out of it.

Finally, a thought for all those who had experienced this illness, directly or indirectly, severe or mild. It's not picnic.

A conversation with my daughter prompts me to think how this lockdown is different from the first for the young people.

I am finding I am more aware of my feelings and how I am using (or not) my time. The time to leave moaning behind and start taking action seems to be getting closer.

And a nice message from a friend made my day yesterday.

A busy day doing nothing really important but having a funny sense of keeping myself occupied. An interesting strategy.

Talk about my feelings about letting go, getting ready for 2021 to be a barren year and how I feel about it. Am I ready to accept it? am I ready to change my mindset? I know nothing will change until I do.

Ah, and some quick reflection about that wine o'clock habit.

After a good day on Friday, I woke up on a funny mood.

Reflecting on what to share here, what makes a good day or a bad day, those feelings I had about how my emotions affect my family and questioning what makes me do this podcasts. More rambling, but in between those words and sentences, I find some ideas that help me out.

There are good days and bad days. If I am having a bad one... well, I guess I just keep going, hoping the next will be better.