Diving Into The Shadow

I have finally completed what I tried to do in March; solely by using my voice, my hands, my mind, and the natural world.

When you put someone up for public execution and you're wrong...it turns on you ten-fold.

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It turns out there IS a wicked witch of Shelton Connecticut; but it's not me.

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I address the rumors and is Darla capable of change? I definitely think so. 

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I use my voice to take back my power, and offer it to those who are too afraid to. This episode also covers the 8 of swords in Tarot.

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(Lyrics) Motive

I found the gumption to give it up

Let the shadow fall and fill the cup

My mind is certain, time is up

Julius Caesar was man enough

What's your motive?

Really what's your motive?

Locomotive diving in the ocean

Made of Steel, who's driving at the wheel?

It's your darkness, making you so heartless

Set it free

Sing it to the trees

Carve it in the sand

Set fire with your hand

No other way to give it up

Replace the darkness with some other love

The moon awakens a pivotal sun

Centrifugal forces have just begun

What's your motive?

Really what's your motive?

Locomotive diving in the ocean

Made of Steel, who's driving at the wheel?

It's your darkness, making you so heartless

Set it free

Sing it to the trees

Carve it in the sand

Set fire with your hand

Gazes like a familiar touch

Juggle the moment, surrender the rush

A mind at play is a mind in love

And Mercury shines on your wheel of luck.

What's your motive?

Really what's your motive?

Locomotive diving in the ocean

Made of Steel, who's driving at the wheel?

It's your darkness, making you so heartless

Set it free

Sing it to the trees

Carve it in the sand

Set fire with your hand

Tarot, working under pressure, the nature of criticism, gossip, angry couple energy, happy couple energy, weed, temperance, and the power of the 4 elements.

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Episode Mentions:

Toni Braxton - Breathe Again

Michael Jackson - You Are Not Alone

Divorce, new perspectives, major life changes, mourning loss with laughter, and the funniest waiter to have ever lived. Another song is shared.

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Lyrics:

I'll have you fooled mother f***** by the sleight of my hand you think you're in command of me

But I'm a cool mother f***** ripping open my soul and you opened your door to me

Now you're shook mother f***** but you're caught in the rain and your heart overturns your brain

Then you're hooked mother f***** are you down for the ride feel the rush of the eagle tide.

It won't be long mother f***** till you come to a stand run in fear or you take my hand

What will it be mother f***** is there even a choice to return to your toys again

Happy Easter!

Mother Nature Lyrics:

I explain my absence after reaching a breaking point. Also discussed: how my spiritual beliefs relieve anxiety, family stories, my husband/my marriage, the power of storms, new beginnings, what it's like to be in a psych hold, and I sing the most important song I've written yet (lyrics below).

Special Thanks to Sue at blackbearwoodcraft.com

Song Lyrics:

Mother Nature, by me :)

the archer watched me for years

manifesting all of my fears

but pain is a drain

and now my life switches gears

the ego is funny

had me working for money

now I wait at the gate as freedom nears

you held me

you loved me

you reached down 

from above me

you guided and provided

in times when I was hiding

you waited, you were patient

and when I sought out your graces

you lifted the partition

and you listened to my wishes

you walked me through the valley

now we dance at the finale

cause I made it to the gate and

I embrace all of the changes

it was a slippery slope

while I was trying to cope

life gave me a mountain

and I brought the rope

I took on a mission

but something was missing

was climbing in fear instead of hope

but you held me

and you loved me

and you reached down 

from above me

you guided and provided

in times when I was hiding

you waited, you were patient

and when I sought out your graces

you lifted the partition

and you listened to my wishes

and you walked me through the valley

now we dance at the finale

cause I made it to the gate and

I embrace all of the changes

we never suffer in vain

there's always wisdom to gain

and though pain is a drain 

we can dance in the rain

no you are not insane

this is simply your lane

and you can handle the blows that destiny throws 

cause hardship is given

to those who have vision

born with the power

to face the darkest hour

and she'll hold you

and she'll love you

and she'll reach down 

from above you

she'll guide you, and provide you

with a landing that'll tide you

just wait and be patient

and when you seek out her graces

she's liftin' the partition

as she listens to your wishes

and she'll walk you through the valley

and you'll dance at the finale

cause you'll make it to the gate if

you embrace all of the changes

I've finally figured out who I am and what I want. Is money the root of all evil? It's possible. I also sing another song I wrote.

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Lyrics to 'Stars Above' by me :)

The connections getting deeper each day I repeat the love

My heart belongs to keeper of the stars above

And I could waste a lifetime working for the dough

But the truth is that it's stupid, confidence is worth more than you know

And when the day comes, you take a peek down at your feet and your heart loves the way you are recovering

It seems now that you know, contrary to show

The stars are guiding you along the road

What good is life if you can't do what your soul needs

Because your burdened and your hurting pulled down in the weeds

Turns out you can pluck yourself out of the ground, and move over to the clover

Release what you have lost, look what you've found

And when the day comes, you take a peek down at your feet and your heart loves the voice you are discovering

It seems now that you know, contrary to show

The stars are guiding you along the road

I spent enough time working for the dough

Cold and lonely and it only robbed me of a soul

But now I've cleared the path, I'm ready to bloom

Looks like I'll be going to the moon

And when the day comes, you take a peek down at your feet and your heart loves the voice you are uncovering

It seems now that you know

Contrary to show

The stars are guiding you along the road