Yeah. Okay, this is terrifying. I haven't actually done this in it feels like way longer than it's been. In reality, it's only been like three like maybe three days, but it makes all the difference in the world. Hi. what's going on, I was just reminiscing about kitten mittens. Aw shit. I dropped my pen. If you remember if you're listening to this right now and you remember kittenman. congratulations, you've been with me since the beginning. um anyway, I don't know why I was just remembering that. kitten mittens. I thought it was the most hilarious thing in the world. I really I might have been delirious. losing my mind at a certain point, but I thought kittens was the best thing in the world. It was at the time. I was like I couldn't think of anything better. Then again, I was uh I don't know, I was discovering many hilarities. excuse the idiots in the back, they are idiots. um and they and they do this based on whatever I'm doing in my apartment. I'm their god. Anyway. I'm excused the background noise is still gonna be a a little bit uh while we're dealing with that, but at least you can help me collectively consciously remove them from existence entirely, um with the help of you know a collective existence we can get rid of evil. I don't I don't entirely. I'm not sure. I think that it would take a lot of people to understand that like a lot of it is just a game. I think it would take raising the entire consciousness of like people as a whole for them to understand that like, most of it is for entertainment and based off perceptions. So, like, whatever you' idea for the world is, like it was your idea. Whatever's making you upset is it was your idea. So I'm kind of coming to like terms with that in my own, like sense. I'm like, oh, yeah, like, whatever is happening, I'm like a certain like at the surface level is wrong, but like on a grander scale, like I programmed this into my reality for whatever purpose in order to better suit my, like ideal reality. That's, you know, that's that's it. I can't attribute it to anything else. They're idiots, cause I'm idiots. Anyway, what else is going on? I don't know, I was I'm gonna try and do this off book. I think I do have like I have some notes, but like I don't like the way that it feels when I'm going off of my notebook because it feels like robotic. It feels really, you know, like and not necessarily rehearsed, but it's it feels planned and when I listen back to the episodes where I do go off of like notes or something like that, I don't like the way that it sounds. Hearing myself back, going from a going going from like a script. And so I try to keep it like 100% improvisational and it keeps it fresh. and honestly, honesty goodness, I haven't been on the Peloton for like more than 15 minutes at a time since I stopped doing these episodes. I don't know what it is about the sound of my own voice, but maybe it's the fact that like, I'm in performance mode and I'm giving you guys like I'm in, you know, I'm like in my radio voice and then I'm watching back like a performance of myself in order to like, I don't know. It's like it's like experiencing myself for the first time secondhandedly because I'm not necessarily not thinking about what I'm saying, but I'm also not thinking about what what I'm saying or how I'm saying it as I'm saying it. And then, you know, sometimes I just really like even on my hardest days, sometimes I make myself laugh the very most, and I'm like, okay, there's another reason to keep doing it. Because for the most part, I'm like I don't wanna do this anymore, it costs me too much money and it's not. Like, I'm not a clut person. I'm just not a clout guy. I don't like doing stuff for clout, cause clout doesn't pay the bills and clout doesn't clout doesn't necessarily get you jobs, like unless it's like the right person's clout. Like, you get have clout from a million people, and if none of those million people are the well, a million is kind of where they drive line. Like if a million people are like, yeah, this is the shit, then it might get you a job. But like a million is probably the minimum number for that. Like if you don't have a million followers or you don't have a million views or you don't have a million of anything of just like clout like it doesn't pay bills. So I'm not a cloud person. I'm not just gonna do whatever off clout. What did I get off that on that clot rat for? I don't know, what was I saying? Oh, I'm going off book. I'm off. script. Anyway. what can I remember from things that I wrote down?, I don't know. I've been reading a lot. I've been, you know, doing doing the best that I can. I've been well, I've been reading. I've been reading children's books specifically because I'm finding information. Well, first of all, I picked up these children's books with the hope that I would be the owner of a small library and I'm not. I'm actually putting a lot of the books back into like society, which is fine. I'm just downsizing. It's actually helping me feel a lot better. Like my head is a lot clearer, my studio. My studio for for the first time in a long time was like a place that I can that I feel like I want to work. and it was the weirdest thing because I went through like a year of just like collecting whatever book I saw, like whether it was just like on a stoop, like I, you know, for whatever or out of the little free library or like just wherever, because books are everywhere in New York and that's probably my favorite thing hands down about New York is that like wherever you go there are books and they're free and you can pick them up. But I'm also very sensitive to energy, so as like an energy worker and a transmuter, it became congested to the point where it's like, okay, there is like a certain type of energy that's not that's foreign to me and as much cleansing and as much like, you know, whatever, as much, you know, in any kind of, you know, like spiritual work I was doing, there's an energy here that I'm not necessarily comfortable with. And I realized every time I picked up a book, I fell into like a certain type of world, you know, and it wasn't just like whether the book caught my attention from just like the cover or whatever, and then I decided to flip through it or whether it was like a book that I was stuck in, I was falling until like a certain energy or a certain world and that every book had a certain energy to it. And so I realized after a year of collecting hundreds of books that I had literally hundreds of energies, like floating through my space and it became like hectic and it became heavy to the point where I was like, like, I don't necessarily want to hold on to all these things. and so it's it's been really rejuvenating. I've been going through a time of just like not necessarily like I know I have a lot of stuff to do. but one of the stuff to do is is like going through all of the things that I know that I need to like let go of in order to feel better. And it has been helping me feel better. It has for the most part, I'm still doing a lot with like my energy recovery and the noise here has a lot to do with it. I'm now like I now have anxiety to the point where I have like a consistent nauseum. like every time I hear like any kind of motor, like I get sick and now it's it's actually getting worse the longer that I've stayed here with the noise, it's like I now have like an upset stomach all the time, headaches twitches. It's the it's the most fucked up thing ever. and I've also been learning more about because I'm, you know, still still really focused in my music and so frequencies and, you know, like I've always been like a huge believer and like layered frequencies for healing, like sound healing, beta thick alpha, and and the whatnot, but I finally caught onto a piece of information that made me realize how the noise outside has affected my brain chemistry and not just in the way that it's like it's annoying or it's a nuisance or it's harassment, which it is all of those things, according to the law, but in a sense of what's happening to my brain chemically, like the chemical changes that are happening in my brain, or the frequency changes that are happening in my brain are actually the things that are making me more upset than loss of sleep, or, you know, like a disruption or disorganization of my mind or my daily habits. The thing that's making me the most upset is what I'm realizing is it's changing my frequency, and I'm not talking about just my my aura I well, I am in a sense, but like the frequency, the frequency differences that that your brain your brain goes into different frequencies during, you know, waking state, alha state, better state, you know, and when you're sleeping, you're in um I well, it depends on the person actually, and it depends on the type of sleep that you're getting. Like most people sleep and like a data state from what I'm understanding and this is the state of like conscious dreaming. And this is this, I could be incorrect because honestly, I layer them anyway. And I finally I finally did it. I I did. I' I was working on a song and I realized that I achieved like perfect theta without actually even meaning to. And I think I did another one and that was like in perfect gamma without even like it was just mixed perfectly. that it I was also listening to like a gamatone and then I realized I was like, wait, is that the song or is it the tone? Because, you know, if the if the frequency that you're listening to is pure enough, it will actually distort the bass or the, you know, it will distort the entire sound of whatever you're listening to. So sometimes things can sound warped or like they're waving or like they're going through something because those tones are kind of like they're they're moving against each other or with each other just kind of depends. And so what what has been, well, I wanted to finish, well, yeah, I think I have at least one song now that's in theta, and I have at least one song that's in gamma, completely. and and I and I shocked myself because I was listening to the tones and I was like, wait, the wait a second. like, I'm feeling like double here. Is this this song that I'm listening to, that I'm checking back the mix, or is this the the frequencies? And I I turned off all the frequencies and sure enough, it was the song. It was like a pure I was like, wow. I'm like that's an achievement. I did it completely by accident and I wish I knew the formula that I used to do that.c some people are so mathematic about it. Like some people are so uh like, you know, some people do this to their music. A lot of people, especially inass music, that's why it is the way that it is, is you're going to a show to get these frequencies like zapped into your body at at full forces. and some people know how to do it on purpose. I did it on accident, so I'm like, if I can continue to achieve at this but I'm trying to figure out like the mathematical equation or like the actual sonic equation for making this happen, like every time, because going through my history ofass music, I will finish in a second, going through my history of bass music, I have always gravitated to the to these frequencies, to the frequencies that make me feel better after a certain amount of time listening to them or a certain amount of time being in in that frequency. So that's this is the music that has, I guess subconsciously kind of for the kind of artist that I am. But this is the reason why I'm upset about the noise. like the most upset about it, like not even on a legal level, on a social level, on a moral level, like, no, this is actually morally wrong, it is morally wrong on so many fucking levels. I'm like, why are you so like, why obviously I did this on purpose, like in my God complex, I'm like, oh, well, I can better the community as long as I make a point, like that environmentally, this is damaging people. It's giving people mental illness, that it or like if they're predisposed to mental illness, it's even worse, but it's it's also like causing mental illness and people that are otherwise healthy people, which is not a lot of people in New York City given. It's just not. It's not a healthy place. A lot of people are not healthy. But even in like moderately healthy humans, this noise disruption can cause like brain changes and chemistry changes, and this is the reason why I'm so upset is because when you are sleeping, if you are sleeping, your brain is in a certain level that is like in a healing state. In the first few minutes that you wake up, as I understand it. In the first few minutes after you wake up, your brain is in a state that it can like that you can manipulate your entire environment, that you can change things, that you can heal yourself. And so when I'm waking up in the first few minutes in the very first thing that I hear is a motorcycle that's ripping through my fucking brain, it's changing my brain frequency from a frequency that is like at the at the at a human level or at any kind of level, kind of the the thing that makes every human capable of being a genius, not the genius level able to heal yourself and the frequency that you're able to heal yourself is what you automatically wake up in. So when you' when this frequency is interrupted, it's intercepted in immediately into a negative thought pattern. And so you immediately, so what's happening, what's been happening to me over the last year with the motorcycle nuisance harassment problem or whatever the fuck I don't care what it's called on paper. I just want it to stop like I just want to live in peace. It's not like and kind of having like coming from a a background where I kind of tend to have like take responsibility for myself, like oh, it must be something that I'm doing and yes, I also have like a higher god complex or like an ego if you want to call it, that's like, oh no, I must have done this on purpose. And you know, like in order for the greater good, like in order to fulfill my purpose in some sort of way, it must be it must be part of my process to have this. That's also my ego like I'm a god. like, you know, that's just me, that's the generation. That's the generation that I come from. That's our mindset. Like nothing happens in this world without me in it, period. That's why rappers are rappers and that's why that's why models are models. We all have egos and it's really hard to kill the bitch. I've had at least ten ego dusts throughout my fucking like existence and it still comes back. It doesn't matter. You can have an ego death and be like a completely ego list for like what, six months tops? Eventually you're gonna have like the ego is is is imp important to survival, because I lost the word. I think implemental what was I gonna use? I was definitely a for syllable word. Either way, it is you need it. Like if you if you oh, you know, people might describe people, like being in like a in a sense of humility as like, oh, just completely without ego, but like at the end of the day, like, no, like your ego allows you to actually like compensate with the rest of the world, like, most people do not have no ego entirely, or at least for like, like a week after your acid tri or whatever, yeah, like, oh, had ego death and I completely. But like within I swear to God, like within six months time, like your ego has at least minimally like repaired itself. That's what an ego does, that's why you have it. You have it. It's a survival. It's it's a part of your consciousness that has to do with survival if you don't have your ego, like you're pretty much dead in the world, especially the way it is now. Anyway, this is that that's going to probably close up my spiel on that. Yeah, I'm upset because instead of like the first few moments of my waking moments being a healing, time, it is immediately going into disarray and chaos and anxiety. And so in in so I'm losing like, I don't I don't really care about oh, I mean, like I care about life in a sense, but I mean, like, and it in a mortal sense. I like, yes, it's taking years off of me. and I feel it like in the way that it's like, I I am slower to do regular things or like, whatever my rising thoughts, might be are completely just destroyed by this like what I've what I've come to perceive is like an evil force. It is evil in so many levels again this breaks down from like a higher consciousness to like a lower state of consciousness. The lower state of consciousness is saying that like these people are just idiots. They're idiots and they are not self aware of the fucking like pollution that they're doing on kind of middle sense, I'm like, oh, it's politics, it's like gentrification if these guys run around in circles, then people call up the fucking place, the place gets fucking more allocated funds to their fucking police officers, the police officers have fucking filling their quotas. It's all bureaucracy and paperwork and politics on that middle level and on the highest level it is like no, this is evil, it's pure evil because people are so grossed out by the fact that fucking New York is New York and also the wage and income and quality factor is that this guy is doing whatever the fuck he has to do brown. He's doing well, not that guy. that guy's that guy's a weak dick motherfucker. He has a small dick and everybody in the neighborhood knows it. He drives around and circle making people miserable. He also I'm it's the same dude. that same dude followed me to the Trader Joe's. It's the same dude, so I'm like, I like I know the sound of his bike from anything, so I definitely know when I'm at the Trader Joe's and then he's like all of a sudden traffic like, I'm like yo dude like why the fuck you following me to Trader Joe's like I live four miles away, which is not that far on the fucking motorcycle, but I came all the way over here on the subway for you to follow me on your bike. week, dick, bro.way, like, fuck this, fuck this, fuck that guy, fuck this neighborhood, fuck this place, fuck these politics, fuck these people. On a low frequency. Like on a low frequency, I'm like, fuck all this, like on a high frequency, I'm like, there's a purpose or whatever, it'll work, is temporary, blah, blah, blah. What the fuck was I saying? I don't know. I what the fuck was I ranting? I don't know. I that's that shiel, right? Trader Joe, hello Trader Joe. It's not safe. No, but you know, oh man, let's you say I, whatever. Let's just say oh, whatever. a lot. What else do we got? I don't know. I put on an album that came out today, yay, it's called all the rage. Actually, all that all that gripe about like, oh, it's an EP when I'm sure that the stores are gonna call it an album. I was like, I'm sure it's gonna be an album, so I just started calling it an album. like the release comes out and they're like, it's an EP, you congratulations. So I I thought I was putting out an album, that I was an EP, but it just missed the cutoff her album, because technically you can have a six track album and if it's over 30 minutes. If and you can have a six track album that's an EP like this, all the range is technically an EP at least according to Spotify's standards. And it's, I think it's like two and a half minutes under I think it's like 2 and a half minutes under, so it's an EP, but it's six tracks and I'm really excited about it. I kind of put a little bit more promotion into it than usual. I even had some press done, and that's great. because you can get pressed done. They're like,Yo, for $500. You'll be famous tomorrow. I'm like, that fucked up. That's a paycheck for some people. and that's not famous. also. They're charging people to be like spectacular. Well, they're charging they're like charging for people to be like popular, which is I think it's wrong, like ethically, you shouldn't be able to do that, like, oh, no, you're gonna get on all the playlists and whatever, you're gonna have like all like you should not be able to sell followers, like whether they're real people, which is slavery or they're robots, which is also slavery. Like you should not be able to sell fame that's making it like now I don't even trust like, okay, like this person got an award, but like, okay, because because the album was popular, because it was better than all the other ones. Or like, how do you know that you even heard all the albums because there are so many, and that like, okay, this person who put like zero dollars into promotion, how do you know that album wasn't better? because you didn't hear it? Because the person with a million dollar ad campaign won the fucking won the fucking award? Because you heard it because they put a million dollars into the fucking promotions. So it makes it makes everything the fact that everything is on a level system that's based on money is completely unfair. Like the all the industries are broken, it's not just music. Like, it's not just music. I'm like, holy shit, like you could spend like a year, an average year salary, which is what's the median income now. even with like no adjustment for inflation, like what, $50,000? Okay. So you could spend $50,000 on your your career so you'd have to you'd have to do that. That's even you're still competing with people who have a million dollars for doing nothing. That's insane. Anyway, I'm not bitter. What the fuck did I do earlier that I wasn't that literally the spirit that was like, don't be salty. I was like, oh, I was like,Yo, stop teaching models to fucking DJ, because I I happened on this girl that was like, yo, like I actually liked some of her music. I liked some of her music, but she wasn't doing much. And like everything was just fake. It was like super duper fake, but she was mad gorgeous and like more of these girls are popping up out of nowhere that are like not they're like models that are barely touching the decks and they're like a march. I'm like yo, dude, if that girl made this music like okay, maybe I should see her, but like, I'm like no somebody goes produce this because like she's moving badly in time to it and I realized something about being a producer is like yo if you spent enough time actually crafting this like this piece, you're not gonna move like badly to it like you're not going to move weird to music that you made because it's in you like it came from in your body. So like, I was like, I don't know what the fuck I'm looking at and I'm like, oh, I'm looking at propaganda. But then like, isn't that just kind of like discouraging people who don't have that type of body type or mindset, but it was funny because the algorithm was like don't be salty. It was like DJing is for everybody and if that's your passion and I'm like yeah, if that's your passion, but like, yo, when what where is the line between like propaganda and passion? Like, oh, I'm already a successful like, multimillionaire fashion model, but like I'm gonna be a DJ, like it washes out all the people who have actually like put in the work. It washes out all the people who have actually put in the work. Don't be salty. I was like fine, fine, but only because I like that algorithm. Only because I like that algorithm. I'm like fine, okay, we'll we'll be whatever. Whatever I've been reading. Oh, I read a book, let's see, let's see if I can remember the ones I already put back. I've been reading these uh this like children's book series on like famous people because I realized that they're written for children and I'm like, yo, dude, like somebody could read this whole series in the second grade and be smarter than me because I didn't know anything about the people that I'm reading about at all. And so they're like these little biographies. Well, I mean, they they're on a child's level. I don't know how long it would take a child to read, but they take me like an hour, hour and a half to read just like at a normal speed. And I read really fast. But I think the reason why from taking me so long to read them is because I actually take like a lot of I take a lot of like, I don't know, words or art to me, so if something is like especially musical, I might take it and be like that's a good song title. Like, if I think enough about this and what I know about this, like what kind of song is it? And, you know, just like little fun facts. Like first of all, I'm obsessed with George Lucas. I've never been a huge Star Wars person, just and I I realizing this. I've never been being on like Star Wars wicked. like, I've never been being on things that are like really, really big, but then I did grow up and kind of like a sheltered shut community where like most of the people like twilight, I wasn't hungerames, aylys Cyrus, well Hannah Montana at the time, okay? I just wasn't into those things, but most mostly because they're fans, actually, she just put out something that I kind of piqued my interest. It was in my fucking sl side bar. I was like, oh, no, what's this? I'm I might check it out. But I've been staying off the mainstream just cause I'm realizing like the reason that I'm seeing this is money and doesn't necessarily make it better or worse than anybody else. Because sometimes mainstream artists come out with crap and I think they do it on purpose, they're like,Yo, watch this. I can do whatever because so many millions of people love me, watch this. I'm like, damn. And then millions of people are like, yay, yes, yes, this. I'm like, the fuck? What did you do? And I'm pretty sure the mainstream artist is like consciously, even collectively like, you see what I'm saying? I can do whatever the fuck.c I did one thing cool, maybe like five things cool, like a long time ago, and literally don't have to do anything else. I just do this just to prove a poil. Like, I can shit on a track, literally. And millions of people will be like, I love you. I love you, please more of those. do it again. I'm like, oh, God, please, no. What the fuck? Millions of fans. Like once you have your fucking fan based unlock, like that's it. Like, you don't have to fucking people will be like, literally kissing at all of the ground that you touch for the rest of forever forever. That's it. I'm realizing that about fantom, so I'm like, yo, if you know what kitten mittens are. I'd still don't, but if you if you know kitten mittens, congrats, you're one of 12 people who actually like me. one of 12. I'm like 12 is enough. That's what Jesus had, right? might as well and Jesus technically have like 11 I don't know why I like that guy so much. I'm pretty much obsessed with him, too. I love Jesus. I'm like, Jesus is the god kind of I mean, like he's technically like three gods. anyway, why am I obsessed with uh George Lucas? First of all, he's one of the coolest people ever, Kate, like, okay, first he was a greaser, like a real greaser. like from the movie Grease, but like the actual thing before the movie Grease, cause if I if I'm not mistaken, he was like a greaser before they made Grease. That's crazy. Yeah, because Gre was like in the 70s, but it was about the 50s, right? I don't know. He was like an actual real life, like they just put Vaseline, I guess in their hair and wore like dirty shit and they were like, yeaheah, greaser. and they w and they fucking drove and they drove, what did they drive? I don't know, cars, old cars, and they would race them. I that was honestly I'm obsessed with this dude. I and now I kind of want to see Star Wars because I've never seen them. But honestly Star Wars is one of those things that, oh, that's what I was saying. God, yeah, well, yeah, I like grew up not liking Star Wars because all the people that liked it were mean. Like all those other things I named earlier in the episode. Like they're fans sucked, so I was like, I definitely cannot see myself getting into this. And so I never did, but now I'm well, as happy as I am being single. I save certain things for like just a case. I ever get in a relationship. I'm like Star Wars. I've never seen that. Like I saved certain things for like you know, like I wouldn't necessarily want to watch it by myself. I think I'd get geeked, though, now, now that I understand, like the kind of person that created Star Wars, I'm like, yo, dude, like he's the shit. Like, okay, first of all, okay, if I did the math, secondly, no, cause the first of all thing was like, he's a greaser. That's the coolest thing about George Lucas. Yeah. I mean, like I mean, like there was so many cool things. I had to take notes, I had to stop. I was like bending back pages, I was like, all this dude's the best. Okay. I was like,Yo, okay, whatever. Like, uh, oh, well, that was one of the last things I read. If I did the math right, this dude has like a 12 year old. He's older than my dad. My dad's pushing 80. I'm like, is he 80? He's like 80 with a 12 year old. That's incredible. That's I have so much respected admiration for that. Because it kind of proves my point that like if you're dude, you can just like keep on popping them out, popping them out. But he also like adopted kids, I think. Yeah, yeah. And he also like adopted kids. was at him? Yeah. Yo, I'm telling you there's so much practice into these little books. I'm like, okay, whatever, what else is cool. I don't know, he just seems he just seems like the dude just seems like the dude. I was likeYo. I I can't remember all the notes I took, but those those two things alone. I'm like, yeah, I earn my respect. I did write down a quote earlier that was like, what did he used to say? oh, do that again but better? I'm like, yeah, that sounds that sounds accurate. And then I liked the fact that like all his worlds within his worlds are like connected, so he'll leave Easter eggs within worlds of different Indiana Smith. He really liked the name Indiana because I guess he had a dog named Indiana, which was named after somebody else that was named Indiana. And I had no idea that Indiana Jones was like his brainchild or like close to it. I was like, whoa, this dudees are fucking legend, like a real like an actual, like this dude's a G for George Lucas. He's the best. I was like, yeah, dude. I could not put that book down. I was like sitting in cold bathtub water like, oh my God, this is such a pain turner. I gotta read about this dude until the very end of this book and I did. I would not put it down. I was like, George Lucas is the man, bro. like the man, I don't like like, yo, cool dude. I like that guy. I've never seen Star Wars. I have, I've seen like the beginning. It's like in the time, blah, fucking blah, blah, fucking talk. Yeah, and then I started writing my own movies, you know. It's not that any of them, you know, as whatever, you know, sometimes it's circumstance, sometimes sometimes I' just realize that I make excuses. Like I have no reason not to be as successful as any of these people that I'm reading about, because I'm finding personality traits about myself as I'm reading about them, like Albert Einstein Total Duis. He might have been like like functionally retarded. I'm pretty sure he was retarded, but also a genius. Like like, oh, okay, this is the coolest thing about Albert Einstein are we done inukas never, never. He's immortal, right? We'll see him at some point. He's so cool. He's so cool anyway. I was like, yeah, dude, this dude is cool. But there's that's the Alb Einstein, my man, okay, so like, slowly almost solely responsible for the invention of the Adamah. That's dope. On accident, though, because once he realized what had like once he realized that, okay, like, okay, I'm correct about this. For sure, I'm definitely correct about this, but like, yo okay, should we back up a little bit? First of all, he didn't say anything until he was like four. Didn't say anything, not a not a single word, his parents were like,o, something's wrong with him. Like even back in the day where it's like, uh don't know. Something's wrong with him. He's not saying anything. The doctors were like, he's perfectly fine.'s fine. And he didn't say anything his entire life until one day, apparently, he sat down to dinner with his parents and the soup was too hot, and that's what he said he's like the soup is too hot. Like, could you imagine, like having a kid that you're like 100% sure is retarded? Oops, nope, you can't say that. Okay, well, you could. Then so let's just shouldn't I just cancel you can't say that. Why, though? Like, okay, when I was growing up, you have to understand I come from a time where it was like you could just call that to somebody cause they were being dumb, but not dumb, right? But I mean like at a certain point, like, okay, technically Helen Keller was deaf dumb and blind, but like sometime and I'm assuming like between the 70s and 80s, it became a slang for like that's dumb. Like, don't do that because whatever you're doing is not right, which is like, okay if you're not right, then you're what? Retarded. Like, I'm sorry. I'm like some certain things are not going to be like, I'm, you know. I'm like early 2000s game or culture, that's gay, but I love gay. It's like nobody's being derogatory about that. I'm being derogatory about your behavior and I might even use it as like a positive you know what's what describing words or adjectives? I don't know. I'm going through. I'm going to processes realizing that like, okay, I'm at the age where certain information is gonna be offloaded. Certain like it's not coming back ever. Like, you like, I I know Spanish, but only if I have to speak it and it's not like, I'm not developing any other nothing else is like my brain is like, we don't need this, do we? I'm like, I don't know. Maybe I should hold on to that. No, no, we don't need this. I'm like, okay, well. there are certain things about me that are just not gonna change at this point. I'm not sorry, because honestly, weren't too offended at everything when, like, there're there are things that are offensive that nobody really is offended about. like, if you really found an offensive, it would not exist anymore, you know? Because when somebody becomes really passionate about something, and they change it. Which is why I'm taking my time. I like, youo, annihilation is imminent. Like this cannot be anymore. Like, you don't change my brain chemistry. Fuck that shit. my brain chemistry is perfect the way that it is. Like I'm almost sure that like the entire mental health industry will change based on ideals that are like blooming and other like in other what the fuck was I just saying exactly ideas that are already springing up in in small circles. like they'll, you know, be one day. Like that's just valid, like nothing's really wrong with you. something's wrong with the world. Like, why? Like, and what can we do to change that? It could be environmental completely. It could take somebody with like severe mental health issues, severe schizophrenia, severe bipolar disorder, severe fucking severe depression, severe anxiety and change their environmental factors or even just like change the fact that that like they're facing poverty, poverty is a mental illness and that's not what it's not looked at as such. It's looked at as a deficiency on the individual's part when it could be like and it could be a polethro of environmental factors. That'll change. It will in my lifetime. I know that it will. It may not be because of me because for the most part, I'm a pacifist. I really am. I'm a yoder, like, honestly, it has to be like visibly hurting someone else or hurting me painfully enough for me to be passionate about it to make it change. Like, I'm sorry, I'm not. I don't want I don't really want to be a leader, especially because like people are still like populating this planet. I don't necessarily I don't I don't wanna be like a a leader in anything because that is like that's too much power. Honestly, just let me play the music and then fuck off. And I will fuck off. Like if you think I talk too much or you find me annoying or you think I'm stupid like eventually I I disappear. That's it a self-reflective Go away, all right. I't have to be asked twice. I don't stay in places where I'm not welcome. So, New York it's been good. Are't not really. But somebody I thought okay, who else am I obsessed with? I love this new lady that I found. Her name is Gina something rather fucking amazing. I I love New York people because I love New York people. Like I really do. like it is well, it's hard to fucking there's a fucking oh, honestly, it could be simplified to this as like, okay, maybe this embraces like the new the New York feminine and what I really hate is the New York masculine, which is just toxic, just disgusting, like where I spinning on things, shut the fuck up, like, are you not self aware? Like it's it's certain level of and I'm not, I'm really not binary in the sense where it's like balanc, bro. like balance, like a little bit of everything is good and like half masculine, half feminine is like a good balance, non-binary embracing that. But like yo, dude, there's a certain rasculinity about the city that's the thing that makes it nasty. It was like, whoa. whoa. I'm like, that's nasty, but I was oh, okay, I'm in love with this person. Her name is like Gene or something rather. I'm still I still have like I no, I have no feet in the comedy pool cause like I realized I stopped performing comedy and I stopped writing it, and like all the like semi tragic possibility, like possibly hilarious situations that were happening to me when I was actively writing comedy just stopped. I was like good, I don't necessarily need to be in that right now. That's that has sailed and will probably later sink, but I don't want to be in there if like, okay, like you're funny, if like sad and bad shit happens to you all the time. I'm like, that's fucked up. I don't wanna be that guyc 50 years from now I could be that guy and like still not earn a penny more than I'm earning right now making music underground. So if it's if I had to choose between the two, I've already earned mastery in recording arts. 10,000 hours or more, like I don't necessarily like being a comic is like another ladder. It's another it's a thing. And honestly, when I stopped like, well, I mean, like I I took a break from tears of a clown because it became such a like passion project for me that I was like, oh, this is that I'm caring too much like I should stop. and still not finish and it's not it's not like, it never had a release date in mind, so it's not necessarily like what's it delayed? Yeah, it's not delayed, and it's not it's definitely not in hiatus, but like, I realized that I have a certain responsibility to my audience altogether. It like to do this show as well and so like this, there's been taking kind of a priority, knowing that like my hiatus has been longer than any other hiatus is, and that I owe it to like my homegrown audience and my weird coat following to like okay like I have to give you guys everything from fucking like November to now and just musically that's a lot but then I've also the writing has also accompanied it and so it would be a shame to just let that go entirely because I feel that like my actual, my actual fan base is here in this show, unfortunately, well, not unfortunately, because I've started to get like a sense of familiarity within the dance music scene, like, as a producer through this podcast as a medium, because when I started doing this podcast, like, it wasn't like people weren't generally like now people are doing like following my, what's it? format. Like people weren't really doing DJ mixes and like putting music on podcasts, like it just wasn't people weren't doing it. I was the only one doing it now everybody's doing it and it makes me want to do it less, but then also like I have to kind of show consistency with myself in order for me to feel like I'm still doing something. What was that rant about? I don't know. I'm obsessed with this lady name's Gina or something rather. She's super New York. What would she say? that I really liked? Oh, if you didn't know the rules before you got to New York, you you like if you came to New York and you're not having a good time, you probably didn't know the rules before you got here.rect. I didn't come here on purpose. This was my layover city. I came here by accident and I did not know the rules. Now I'm learning the rules and I'm like the rules are fucked up and rules are kind of meant to be broken if you're disturbing my peace, I will then disturb your peace. No, I will not. I do not believe an eye for an eye, and also I feel that you are dangerous people. I will then report you to the police and and make the proper documentation in order for it to stop. I'm a snitch. I don't give a fuck. Like if you're actually hurting me, like if you're changing my the way that I think and the way that I feel, like if you're making me sick inside of my own environment, like you deserve it. I'll give a fuck. I don't give a fuck. I don't give any kind of fuck. And then that way, I am a feminist, cause it's like, yo, dude, like how long are you gonna sit and take somebody hurting you before you actually realize that like you're not the problem they are and in order for their behavior to stop, you have to actually like you have to prevent this by stepping up for yourself. It's kind of like a show and like, okay, like like at a certain point it is kind of like a game. Like how long are you going to let me do this to you before you just fucking like get up and fucking hit me back? And I'm like, I don't want to like, I don't want to fight, but at the same time, like, bro, like I've been getting my ass whipped by these idiots and so I'm like, okay, I have to actually, but I'm still not a fighter. I have to do it in a way that makes sense and so that the community can be improved when I move on. Like I don't necessarily want to put somebody in the same place that I am now because I really am not I don't and just improve it. Like I believe so much in doing that, like not just leaving no trace, but like improving the place from which you are situated when you leave so that when the next person comes through, they don't have to struggle through the same hardship. So in that way, leadership, sure, being a teacher, whatever, but it's more just for the like, I don't know, for the the It's like the consolation of like my my spirit, you know, like for that in that way, I do feel that it is perfectose in that sense, that it has to be done in a certain sense, because there's there's no one that's going to fight me more than me that's like nah, dude, like leave it alone, let it go, shut the fuck up, but I'm like yo dude like I'm literally over here having like my next step on. I wake up some days like I can't fucking breathe. Like there are some days where it's like I choose not to speak where there are also some days that I can't because I'm physically like exhaustive because I'm physically ill from whatever has been allowed to go on over the last year. So also that does have a lot to do with me. Like I'm not quick to want to come right back on to the fucking air. Like as soon as I go back, you know, all of my podcasts go back on to the platforms, my life changes in a certain way that I have to be ready for it. I have to be ready to you know, like I have to be ready to to balance the energy that comes from it because it is a strange energy that like once I put something out, it's not, I mean like there's there's I mean like it can be compared to like when I put music out, I'll always go through this like weird wavy like maybe it's part of the Ascension process. I have no idea how to describe that feeling as like something is changing. Like, you know, maybe building space in my actual realms or existence or whatever, but like doing this podcast is very drastic where it's like the not like sometimes especially if it's like a big drop, like and I put it out, and maybe it's just because it's on the FMs or whatever, I don't know like I don't necessarily know enough about radio frequencies to understand like what it can reach, but I know that it does reach far out because like I don't get my ne next. I don't get my next set of downloads. I don't get my next step. I don't move to the next chapter until like I do these drops and so let's you know, like reason number three. I'm like, yeah, also, it cost me money, so I'm taking my time. Also, I'm a little bit slower after this. Like I'm not it's not I'm like, okay, you guys are causing brain damage. I'm I'm getting my paperwork together. It's fucked up. Okay. I'm like, uh, but it did take the point of me getting like physically ill, uh, for me to realize like, oh, like everything all of everything's being slowed down. Everything's being affected, my show is being affected by it, my music is being affected by it anyway. Who else am I obsessed with? Uh, I'll be I love Albert Einstein. He was wrong, man. like nothing was okay with this dude. But everything was, he was like, I don't got time to put on socks, motherfucker. I'm literally building the equations that make the world make sense, and everybody's like, oh, look at that, you are correct. Every time you are correct, and he's like, I am correct every time. But wasn't the most social creature, I like this guy. I really liked this guy. I'm like, yo, dude, I'll beian on, my man. I like him. Anyway, I will I didn't I didn't know much about him besides like, E equals MC square, like time travel and shit, but like, what else are you gonna learn about Albert Einstein? Like, personality wise, he was a G. He really didn't give a fuck because he really didn't have to. He really didn't have to. He was like,uh. He had like no need for, like certain human I I like him, cause it made me feel okay to be kind of like he spent a lot of time in isolation. He spent a lot of time just like doing him. like which was like, I'm not comparing myself to Al Hhenin, but in this way, I'm like, yeah, like he he was like, yo, like, I'm not gonna lie, like, if I fuck around with you guys, like, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna be me. Like, I'm not a genius if I spend too much time in like the dumb dum world, which is how I feel. So I'm like go to, like, I realize like I'm dumb dumb to a lot of people who consider themselves like elites or consider themselves, uh, you know, uh scholars, but it's not it's not something like if I could do anything in the world, that's what I would do, is not to be like a famous fucking rock star, like a fucking television personality or like a writer, like those are things that are that those are things that I'm passionate about, or that are God given gifts, but like, if I could really understand, like academia and like conquer being a scholar, like, that's what I would do with my time. That's what I would like contribute my time and my effort to like science and research and like understanding what is already understood and taking my abilities and understand contributing scientifically to the world, the things that I understand, but are not yet known. The things that are not yet proven as laws, the things that are not yet, you know, even theorized in some aspects, who else am I reading, bro? Oh, dude, I love this guy, okay, this guy. All right. Okay, this guy, Jim Henson, he created the Muppets. I am terrified of dolls, puppets, weird things that are not like inanimate, like creatures, that are like personified, always been a problem with me. Like, I've never been big on dolls, I've never been big on puppets. and so I also know, I also grew up with Muppet people who were typically okay. Actually, I liked the Muppet people. Everybody I've ever met in my life that was like a huge, super duper fan of pup like Muppets, not puppets got no, you're like regular puppets and like a like no. no. Uh uh. um no. Anyway, anyway, Muppets, though. I was never big on Muppets, but all the people in my life that I've ever known that were like extreme Muppet people were some of the happiest they bounty issues. like intolerably like like innocent. like a lot of Mormons. Mormons love Muppets. Mormons love things that like Mormons, though. Mormons. But they love Muppets. They love Muppets, anyway, some of the some of the best people that I've ever met in my life are Muppet people. and I've never been a Muppet person, especially because they are puppets. I mean, like, I I take I take my pig, like, okay, big bird, creepy, creepy, big bird, big bird is creepy, no matter what you do, like, you look sideways at that guy, cause he's like ah, but then I learned about like, okay, the fact that like,, big Bird, the costume itself is like eight feet tall or whatever. And then the person who played Big Bird played Big Bird for like 40 years. That's incredible. Elmo, little creep, but I love him. Like Elmo's probably my favorite. Al almost probably my favorite, because he has an attitude. Like, if you watch enough enough watch to like my fair share of Elmo. I I like him because he's he's kind of like, like what would you he's like a brat. Like he really is. He's a smart ass and and then when they did the whole elmo, like his when he had his show, I like that dude. I can't remember what he his name is, but he had like a a weird mute dude. that didn't talk at all, and would like he'd be like, no, you're not supposed to do that. Like, I can't remember what his name was. I don't do Elma's voice, but yes it's close enough. Elmo's mm. Elbow, cookie monster, bro, cookie Mon, Bertton Ernie, and then I've been trying to find this fucking dude's laughc like there was Bert and Ernie and I can't remember who did it, but like one of them has a laugh that's like and I've been trying to find it because it's the funniest, and it makes like the perfect break for dub to I'm like, oh, dude, where is that dude's laugh? I can't remember if Fitzzert or Ernie who does it, but he's like I'm like, okay. where is it? I've been trying, but and then I get stuck on Miss Peggy, because she's she's in atrocity to be honest. I think I've met too many people like her. like in real life that I'm like, oh, yeah, her, but she's funny bro. She's funny. cause she's a fucking pig. She gives no fucks at all. She's a blonde pig. No she gives no fucks at all in the Kermit Kermit makes you feel safe. Kermit makes you feel loved, Kermit, Kermit Kermit, Kermit, the frog and that's like her obsession. She's like, yes, Kermit. I'm like, I I feel you. I feel you. Like, there's nothing wrong with that frog. There's nothing wrong with that frog. He's absolutely perfect frog. I love him. Anyway, anyway, now I love the Muppets's more. Well, I mean, like I obviously had some kind of connection cause I'm talking about them, but like now I'm like, oh, you know like now I can associate the thing like the kind of creative genius that like came from it. But I like this guy because, I mean, like, I I don't know, I personally became a little fixated on like his journey, which was like he wasn't necessarily he his life's mission was not like, I'm just going to I'm going to make puppets. That's what I'm going to do. He wasn't like that. He was just obsessed with TV. And what I'm reading about most of these people is that is like a common like a common commonality between all of them. everybody that I've just mentioned, everybody that I've learned about so far is like has this obsession with TV, which is something that I have since a very early age, would you have seen on TV? That album might take another couple of years. I thought it was gonna come out by this fall, but like the more I'm actually understanding myself as a person and like my affinity for television. And now I'm like I'm like collecting more things like I love television. I love television, like the and now I'm learning about the science behind it. Like the which, by the way, Einstein. like all this shit, like, I'm just learning so much that I'm like all all these connections are coming together and I can't force that to happen. That's not an album I want to rush. I seen on TV is probably like I don't know. It might come out next year, like next fall, because I'm like, yeah, like that in, you know, this, and then like that, and then for the first time, Ashley on the album that came out today, I took a piece of enter the multiverse that and I used it as a sample in my songwriting and it actually changed kind of it kind of changed the, you know, the overall aesthetic of the way that I do things because I I heard back. I always listened back to these episodes, but I heard back my own voice with the like with the elements of the music combined and like I like to I don't want to do it too much. I don't want to do it too much. I did two songs that were kind of close together called one is called Neptune, and one is called hijacked. I did hijacked first, and I love that song so much that I use the same kind of detail on Neptune within the same time span, and I th well, it's good for mixing because it's like they do go well together. They also mix with like some old school, like some older schoolased music that like I hadn't thought of, but I was like, oh, shit, like this mixes with this song and it does. Like, this goes with this and it's like songs from like 20 years ago, dubstep, but like still, uh, 20 years ago, dubstep is where at. That's honestly where the fuck it's at. you want dubstep. Honestly, like anywhere between like, 20 years ago dubstep, which is when it started and like 15 to 10 years agoubstep. And then when Bro step happened, it all just went like e e, and now it's I mean, like, you know, apparently people are doing it with AI. I I can't imagine, like, okay, like, you can give certain creative aspect to like, like artificial intelligence, sure, but like, you d I mean, like, there needs to be a human element in music, like, you cannot just let the computer do at all, because, well, I mean, like, I guess it's like relevant for the times that, like people are trying to programmed. So the fact that, like music has like the AI has the mathematical algorithm that makes music what it is and can like put out like like can put out like a replica of what it is, but without the actual human element of programming, like you're losing the consciousness. Like you're like I understand I understand why music is music and that like when somebody actually crafts something that a piece of their soul is, yes, I will finish talking about Mu Van in a second. I love Jim Henson, because he does he did myets. I'm pretty sure he's dead, which is great. I love dead people because I can I can be a creep about them. I'm like, oh, you're dead? great. Like who did I look up? and I was like, oh, I'm sure he's dead. but then he wasn't. And I was like, oh, my dad, I'll check back in a few years. I was like, yeah, you're dead? No, I'm not. I was like, oh, oops. My bad. Yeah. Anyw, what the fuck was I saying? I don't know. I got on rent about music and it shouldn't be made by computers. Why computers should not, like, determine the fucking, like outcome of things? Because computers are like I I don't I shouldn't have to explain this. I really shouldn't have to. Like there's a certain limit, like, again, ethically, there should be a certain limit, like you like, okay, you like you can't win an award for this if you used a certain amount of computer to do it. Like you can't do that. Like you didn't do any work. You literally just plugged it in some shit and the computer, which was already programmed to do this, did it for you. You can't win. Like you can't do that. You cannot do that. No, like you also the computer should not be able to choose the winner based off of numbers. shouldn't do that. Like, honestly, like I'm like, okay, whatever. Who else am I obsessed with? I obsessed? I like, I I let myself obsessed on certain things, but it's it's working out. It's working out to be, okay, what was I say about Muppet Man? I don't know. Why do I like him so much? Cause now I'm now I have a certain level of comfort with Muppets like like if you ran up on me with a Muppet, I would probably not be your friend that day. You would have to be my friend to try to even do that. But I would probably not be your friend that day. Like don't run up on me with a Muppet. What are you doing? Like, no, no, no, no, they're no, they're no. Like their mouth is but still like, like, it has to be one of the classics. like, don't don't run up for me with the fucking Yo. And then I found it out about like, oh, I found out about so much stuff. Who else did I read about JK. Rolling, but I already knew her her level of crazy and my level of crazy were about equal like six years ago. I was like, ah, somebody showed me a video of her and I was like, yeah. I'm like, it was weird. It was like looking in a mirror. I was like, oh, yeah. yeah, yeah. I don't know how I'm ever gonna get to like Harry Potter level success and also, like merchandising franchising and all that, but like, you know, I get like, I gave the energy of like, what I was seeing in her consciously. I was like, yep, that's me, for sure. Like, I don't know what the fuck you're saying. Who else did I read about? Oh, this well, less interesting, but at least I'll remember his name now. his name is Maurice Syndak. He um he illustrated uh where oh no, he wrote where the wild things are and illustrated children's books, I like that. I don't have much else to say about him, except for also wasn't he also obsessed with TV? No. No, he was more of a writer. I can't remember then. They're all merging together in the genius section. What else is going on? I don't know, what's on this? album? Um, six tracks, six dance tracks, which I've never really I've never really well, all of them are concept, but like I usually have like genre bins. I didn't do that much. I'm pretty much stuck to four to the floor. Anthony type things, um six tracks. Most of them are housey, like techhouse base house. an, very dance floor oriented. There's, uh, well, one is almost like I don't know what to call that one. like a retrospective. I don't know what to call it. It's got it's got these weird vocal, uh, it's got like, I wanted to go with like, the the sound the song is called IU. and it's like based in the premise that like, I'm you and you're me, even if we have no, like even if we have no medium or middle ground as a way to prove that, like, the same consciousness is breaking down between all of the things that are happening at once. It's just basically what's been going on since forever. And will, technically in some kind of form, always go on, even if it isn't the most minuscule microscopic, like, think about it, all of this, everything that we know of and even everything that we don't know of can one day just be like, compressed into this tiny little glimmering flint of nothing floating through space at the next thing that's gonna be like hot and moist enough to breed like an entire civilization. You don't know. You do know, because I just told you, but, you know, it's this this is the way I think about it, like everything, all the things one day just like so very almost non-existent, just floating its way to the next fucking thing. and then you know, something like that, on monopia, we love that. What else did I pick up that I put back already, captain on underpants, cause he's weird. I love Captain Underpants, Juni B Jones. What a girl now as an adult, Juni B Jones is literally the most like she's she's annoying. She's really annoying. Juni B Jones, who else? Oh, I'm still obsessed with Miss Frizzle. M Miss Frizzle needs to be real. Well, it is like, okay, cause if you think about the magic school bus, that's some like psychedelic shit. Why wasn't that live action a long time ago? Telet tubbies are weird. Don't run up on me in the telly tubby, don't do that. Don't. But I mean like I don't know, if you wanted to sum up my generations like perception of reality and like one one TV show it would be that. let's tell it that was. I don't like them. I never did. I remember I still remember the day that like my mom brought a fucking VHS and she bought she brought me like a stack of them because I think she went to like it wasn't Blogbuster. Where was the other place? It might have been blockbuster, but she came home with like a stack of tapes, square as the other place. There was Blockbuster in the other place, the other place closed, and then there was just blockbuster, then red box, and then there was no blockbuster. Where was the other fucking place? I don't know, but she brought a stack of a VHSs and she was like here, I don't know what she would like, so like try these out. and I don't know why, but like the title teller Tubby seemed like a good idea.c you're just going by titles, you' it's not like they put the pictures on the VHS canisters that they would come in, and so I was like, tell it toubies what is this? And I watched it. I think I specifically remember my mom coming in like towards the middle of the episode, and she's like, have you had enough? And I was like, yeah, I'm like this. I don't like this. I think I might have I think I put it back again and I went to the end of the episode I could go like,W, what happened? What happened? I mean, like now looking back, like as an adult, like I'm a tellyummy. I don't like them, but, like, if I think about, like myself, what I am, like, I'm kind of just like a nonverbal, like like a nonverbal tubi thing, like a strange color. Yay. I don't know.'mma telly tubby. That's probably why I don't like them. It's too self reflective, and I was like, no. And then the fucking machine that came out, I was like, and then it would just like ew, yeah, actually, I should revisit that. I think I think I've said I think I've talked about, like my idea for an actual like people don't watch TV anymore, but I wanna streaming channel that just streams all the weird shit that I've ever seen as like a sober, conscious adult, like or anything from childhood that's like leftover and just put it on one channel that just like loops weird shit. like put it all together. Like I think baby Einstein like put that on as a channel, baby Einstein, what else would you watch? O what else would you put on for somebody that like is intentionally for somebody that's like mid I don't I'm I don't I'm not big on fucking ketamine. I think it's dangerous to be honest. Like I don't think it's like, some psychedelic it well, it's not even a psychedelic. It's a fucking horse tranquilizer. Stop doing that, people are it's so popular, I don't get that, I don't get that at all. I don't understand. I don't understand. I think it dangerous, honestly, and I like, I come from rave world where, like anything goes for the next three and half days, like, but ketamine, like, that's always been like to me, bro, like, mm. that's pushing it. There's certain th no judgment, though, right, no judgment. I finally never mind, never mind, what the fuck else. I'm not sure. I think I had I think I had a weird dream lately, but like, I'd kind of brushed it off. Oh, I did. It was weird. My theater teacher from high school, my theater teacher from high school showed up out of nowhere. showed up out of nowhere, and was like telling me some shit. And I was like, oh. like but that was the whole dream the whole night, and it was so weird, cause I kept waking up and I was like, this is weird, man. This is the weirdest thing ever. He was probably one of my favorite teachers ever, though. I hadn't thought about him in so long that I was like, oh yeah, you.ird. And anyway, what else? Oh, I had so much to say. And I don't like that's it. Honesty goodness, like, I don't like I don't think ooh, I'm over an hour. I'm over an hour. That's it. I can't go more than an hour. I respect people's time too much, so they're gonna have to be another episode, though. I'm just not getting through my fucking Peloton hours. I'm just not. It's like the hardest thing to sit there well, music is work, I really tried it. I really tried to just like, okay, this is one of my favorite albums. I'm just gonna sit on this bike, but like, it's too much mental energy. I can't even do regular things to some of my favorite music anymore. like, it has to be like a complete andention. Otherwise it just gets like caught up. What are we gonna talk about this next episode? Okay, the next episode? we're gonna talk about how well this mushroom soup worked out. I'm really excited. It's very brothy. Those carrots we're about to go. Oh, I guess next episode we're gonna talk about whatson and Mrs. Gallipsey's refrigerator. I have no idea. I've never thought about it, but I forgot I was writing that movie anyway. Yeah.'s a it's a process. What else is going on? Uh, next episode, uh Mrs. Gallipsy's refrigerator. m, whatever I forgotten this episode that I'm about to remember as soon as I hit the record button, guaranteed guaranteed. um. What did I pick up anything else off the Internet? Nothing at all. Nothing. Something is you just gotta keep to yourself. And, um, there was at least a third thing that I was like, oh, you know, talking voice, talking points, like, well, I got to the hour. I was worried that I was gonna be like, oh, to say. But I, you know, like I I've said it. I said it and now I have to keep saying it, cause like yo, those hours on the Peloton are fucking like worth it. Like, I there there's it's been three days. It feels like three years cause I'm not getting enough I'm not I'm not pushing out enough peloton time. So I'm not as productive and I'm just, like not focused the way that I need to be focused to the clown as long as way. eventually, yes, and uh, I don't know, some other things. Yeah, I think we'll just cut it off there, so thanks for listening. I can't believe the show is coming have it on, right? It's like yo, why the fuck are you still doing this? I'm likeYo, regardless of what I do, there's gonna be idiots outside. So I might as well just make some fucking Ouch. I just hit myself in the fucking tooth with the coffee g cup. It is lukewarm now.. cupcakes, no, but I've been craving ice cream. Let's get through this mushroom soup and we'll see. We'll see. We'll s we'll we'll see that's it? Yeah, I don't have anything else. Oh, all the rage, all the rages is available now and all streaming platforms. Like can subscribe my YouTube channel. It's that's so stupid. I' never thought I'd say that.lo could subcribed. It's in the script, but apparently it makes the robot brainwash program. People actually do that. If you are hearing this and you are formally a program brainwashed robot person. just know that I'm helping to wake you up in your series toissension by giving you the consciousness that it takes to wait. Why the fuck do you need to even listen to my channel? Like, okay, my music is okay. but I'm realizing, like, I need to step up to steppping up. Oh, subronics, we can talk about subronics on the next episode. Yeah, that's gonna take at least half an episode. I don't know what level of marijuana that is. I'm trying to achieve that like sober. I don't have the patience, that's what the marijuana's for, but I'm like yo like, I don't have the budget for that level of marijuana. Nobody has the budget for that level of marijuana. Well, I mean, like here's the thing about smoking weed, like when you smoke weed, you make sure that you have enough money to keep smoking weed. That's how it works. That's why I'm like, I can't. That's like a that's an investment. It's an investment to mental health at this point. But it's still an investment that I'm like, oh, you're like when my insurance covers that shit? Sure. Sure. Until then I'm like, bro, I'm not gonna have like a whole income so that I can devote, like, a 30% tax of it to just, like, smoking weed to make me able to deal with people, like, it doesn't make necessary. It cost too much. It costs too much. I should just grow it off. Well, six months down the road, I might be subtrronics, six months, well, it's like a nine month process. I just figured this out. Okay. That's more investments. Well, you just need some Lights. Okay, I'm I'm crunching numbers. Thanks for listening. Have a good day. Goodbye.
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