**DISCLAIMER** This episode discusses themes of sexual trauma. Viewer discretion is advised. Please proceed with caution with any triggers and reach out to any mental health professional or healthcare provider if needed.
“Spider cracks across broken glass. Blood spilled. I left my body. A part of myself was taken in those moments. Request denied. With pain injected deeper inside. Did he intend to make me feel as worthless as he felt? I have tried to go back and find her. In that moment another piece separated. Sprawled on a beach, I try to revive her. Almost lifeless, eyes closed. Breathe, please breathe. And I hug her. I won’t leave you.”-Me
This episode I open with a vulnerable piece I wrote on the first time I was sexually assaulted and violated as an early adult. I go into how this is tied to The Father Wound (from my experience of not feeling safe and my subconscious beliefs on relationships that were created in childhood). When we have Father Wounds, we can attract others who mirror those wounds and relationships we had in our childhood. When we feel unsafe and not protected, that comes from the wounded masculine, we can have that belief and vibration at the subconscious level.
When we aren’t cognizant of our beliefs at that deep level, we may be exposed to others who don’t honor our sacred vessels. This episode and topic is VERY VERY SENSITIVE. The power of coming into healthy relationships where sex is respected is the reprogramming and healing of what we have not honored and was not honored in the past. I invite you to really examine your relationship with sex, be inquisitive, and see your beliefs on your body, mind, and soul. You are worthy and deserve to be treated with the outmost respect and kindness. Especially at such an intimate level. The book that I reference in this episode is called “The Body Keeps The Score,” by Bessel van der Kolk, M.D.
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