Fun But Heavy

In this wild episode, the gals are talkin' all about the concept of a wild women. You may know the stereotype, the primal, sexually empowered, earthy goddess who knows how to stand in her power. But what does that look like beyond the aesthetic? Can you be wild and still go to Dunkin' Donuts? Listen as the gals talk about when they have felt the most wild, the times they've seen someone else embodying that authentically, and even the times they have experienced the wild woman stereotype that ended up being more binding than liberating on this episode of FunnNNnn but HHEaAAAvvVvyyyYy

IT's FBH'S 50th EPISODE! *scream cries* In this episode, you get a peep into what it sounds like when the gals just have a chat. We talk about cheese (do we like soft or hard cheese? Is cheese a valid reason to be ~alive~?), what animal we would turn into at a party, if censorship should be a thing, how Kelly resembles a “beautiful penis” and how penis talismans used to be used. Listen as Jaliessa talks about how she moves her skin suit to Coldplay for healing, Kelly reveals her "peanut theory", and Ani talks about finding God in a moment of reckoning on the dance floor to 80s music.

We also ask the important questions; does having trauma make you funny/funnier? What is "harm"? Can you be Italian and eat clean? Is there such thing as "evil" and what is it if it does exist?

Plus they share some really good deep laughs, and as always they hit up their childhood trauma. Let the gals know what you think of this wildly chaotic episode of FunNNnNnn but HEaaAAAVvvvVyyyy

In this episode, the gals are talkin’ PLEASURE. Beyond sexual, and into all the juicy experiences of pleasure life has to offer. Jk you know damn well they talk about trauma and the parts of their life where pleasure is the hardest and least accessible!! They also get into feeling pleasure in big emotions… and the times when that is impossible. Kelly shares an EPIC birthday release ritual story, Ani shares her story of depression vs what she calls “kinky sad”, Jaliessa goes deep into restriction of pleasure through different societal and religious contexts, and SO. MUCH. MORE. And they go into where they feel deep pleasure in the most out of the box places. This is a highly personal, super deep, beautifully informative, wildly pleasurable episode of FunnNNnnn butttt HEeAavvVvVYYY

This week, the gals talk about the biggest obstacles that dating as specifically *spiritual* bitch. Yes, there’s already attachment styles, traumas, and communication to work through in relationships… but what happens when you add energy to it? And what do you do when you’re a spiritual bitch dating in a muggle world? When do you come out of the spiritual closet? Do you even need to be in there to begin with? What does spiritual even mean, anyway? And do you have to date someone spiritual if you’re not? AND don’t even get the gals started on toxic dynamics in spiritual, conscious relationships, and allllll the shadow there. Let’s get into it this week on FUnnnNNn but HeeaaAAvvvyyyyY

In this episode, Jaliessa and Ani are DEVOTED to going deep into the concept of devotion - let's talk surrender, spirituality, the times when you feel like The Divine has given up on you even though you were in devotion, what they are devoted to, devotion in kink, sexuality, and in relationship, and so0o0oo0o much more. This episode is divine, and it is one wild ride.

In this ep, the gals are talkin' all about surrender. Is it sexy? Maybe. Is it necessary? Yes. Its it easy? Not all the time. Let's chat about the difference between complacency, surrender, and passivity. Can procrastination be a trauma response? Let's also chat about Jaliessa’s having a LOTR moment, surrender as presence, timeline hopping, God as a kinky Dom, and so much more on this episode of FuunnNNnnnn But HeeAaAvvvYYYYyy

In this week’s episode, we come all the way back around to one of our first conversations...JEALOUSY. We still think it’s a powerful emotional experience pregnant with all sorts of goodies that are there under the surface if we have the guts to dig a bit. Kelly talks about how her jealousy of Ani and Jaliessa led to her recognizing and claiming her own desires, how judgement is related to jealousy and what happens when

We even talk about Jealousy as a reaction to issues of abandonment, the relationship to judgement and jealousy, jealousy as a conduit of repressed anger, and what stories we tell. Let's also discuss the SHAME that surrounds jealousy and how it simply...doesn't need to be there.

In this ep, the gals are discussing the concept of FAME. Is celebrity culture dying out? What’s the role of influencer culture in the world of celebrities? Do celebrities owe us anything? Where’s the line of idolization and humanizing “stars”? Have you ever even thought of the fact that we do call them stars? What is the role of inspiration in our culture? Also more on Kelly’s cat, our relationships to celebrities as kids and now, how Ani thought she was a famous child, also featuring a short rendition of Jesus take the wheel, fame as a dangerous drug, Celine Dion, goddess work, accessibility, projections, which celebrities we love and admire, and Ani is writing a book!

In this episode, the gals are talking about FRIENDSHIP! We love it! Join in on the conversation as they discuss their own friendship, transformation and conflict with friends, how they met, what they’ve learned and unlocked in each other, girl drama, prioritizing romantic love and the nuclear family, and soulmates as friends. They really gas each other up in this one... and if we're being honest, its not hard *hairflip*. Also mentioned - Kelly’s new adopted cat Sunny makes his debut, Ani got a synthesizer and is forcing Jaliessa and Kelly to drop an album, starting a petition to have Jaliessa wear hot pink, Jaliessa as a baby queer, romance in friendship, and essentially they break down how their triad has been about half and half...fun..and... heavy. Listen in and let them know your thoughts on friendship!!

In this ep, the gals talk about altered states of consciousness. Do we need drugs, plant medicine, and fasting to get there? Do we even need altered states of consciousness to be spiritual? What even are they? Do we think having altered states of consciousness were one of the things that cemented our spiritual beliefs? What does it mean to be “blown open” by these experiences and how to tend to ourselves in the wake of them? Is there enough work around after-care? Let’s talk Jaliess visiting from 5D and toothpaste is filled with sugar, Ani was kind of an intense kid, Kelly used to look for angels in her basement. And let’s also talk about the connection between mushrooms and pooping your pants ini this episode of FunnNNnNnn But HEeaaaavvVVvvyyyYyy