Kevin spent 36 years trying to be the person everyone else wanted him to be—Mormon son, perfect husband, devoted father. But behind the minivan and church callings was a secret he couldn’t keep forever.

In Part 1 of Kevin’s story, he takes us from childhood Barbie prancing to the moment he finally said the words “I’m gay.” It’s a raw journey through family expectations, Mormon shame, mixed-orientation marriage, and the breaking point that cost him everything—except his truth.

• Kevin knew from age six he was different—but religion taught him to hide.
• He married young, convinced love could erase desire.
• Behind closed doors, he wrestled with shame, porn, and impossible church expectations.
• A tragic loss pushed him deeper into crisis—and into the church’s own PR machine.
• Reading 140 stories from LGBTQ Mormons finally showed him what real joy looked like.
• His breaking point: coming out to his wife, his kids, his family, and finally himself.

Part 1 ends with Kevin stripped of faith, marriage, and family ties—but standing, for the first time, in truth.

Coming up in Part 2: Kevin’s sexual awakening at 36, dating for the first time, and the fiery events that shook Salt Lake’s gay scene.