Is it ego? Is it not wanting to look weak? I took to heart some sound advice on how to deal with people close to me, who won't admit their wrong doing and ask forgiveness.
Are you struggling with a Black and White mindset? are you losing color to your life? Take a second and think about the beauty in the journey, hopefully you'll find something? Shout out to Dr Kristin Neff and her book "Self Compassion".