Journey to Change

You ever had a conversation that took you back, way back, back into time? Haha those are part of some lyrics to an old song too, if you know, you know. Anyway I had that conversation, and it actually helped me. Sometimes revisiting the past can help with the future.

You ever had a dream that you were able to apply to things in your life? I’ve been spending a lot of time trying to figure me out, and I know I still have a long ways to go.. but I will get there. The patterns will hopefully stop with me.

I don’t know how many peoples minds work like my mind, but I assume there’s a lot because of what I see online ha ha. Just be riding along minding my own business when an intrusive thought comes into my head and yeah, I could kick it out depending on what it is. However if it’s something I think is applicable to this journey I’m on then I think I should talk about it. I am so thankful that I’m no longer where I used to be even though I’m not where I want to be yet.

Heard tell that sometimes you gotta crawl before you walk.. so my belief is that whether you gotta crawl, take them baby steps, then walk and then shoot , maybe even burst into sprint ha ha just move forward and keep moving forward and rise up every day.. don’t let fear of what’s new, of what could happen, what might happen, or the fear that you’re not good enough, or that you can’t do it stop you. I know that’s easier said than done when you been one way your whole life, but I think we got this!

Maybe some people are just childish, but then maybe their inner child is just struggling with the adult that they have never been able to become.

Just lying here thinking about how dry my phone is.. but then again do I want it blowing up with meaningless conversations? Nah.. I think I’m good on that.

Looking at a trash can full and overflowing made me think about how we can allow things in life to do us the same way. How come we take out the trash before it gets that way?

Realized that I started off one way and went another as per this brain of mine! Thinking about the way we are in the US compared to other cultures, we do a lot of things differently, and not always better. The past is only the past if it’s no longer what you do. Otherwise it’s still your present life.

You ever been in that low place and it just feels like you will never get back up? Seems as though you take two steps forward only to be knocked back five? It’s great to have people around you to be there in those times, but some of us only have ourselves.

After a conversation with a friend I started thinking about myself and the world that I experience. I used to think that my intentions were always kinda good. I never went into anything planning to hurt anyone. Yet that’s the way it went sometimes.