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Yeowsa, this is good in theory but way more difficult to practice in the moment when you have emotional charge running through your veins, causing you to feel like sh!t, alone, disconnected or victimised by life. Throughout our days people, situations, conversations, etc are potential triggers that activate egoic stories and beliefs that warp reality. Once reality is warped, it's like you're under a spell and can't control your actions, behaviours or responses and risk saying something you don't mean, or pulling away and hiding from life. Developing emotional maturity begins in the mind, becoming superconscious of your unconscious programming when situations take place that are fairly neutral, but your ego feels attacked. In today's episode I share with you one of my simple yet powerful ego clearing processes to keep my emotions in check, which means I am the master of my actions, and therefore my reality. 

Steve said to me this week, "I'd like to take over your podcast this week and share a story about hope." That's all he said to me and I replied, "okay, sure!" Feeling apprehensive and also a little (don't you fk with my podcast man) we recorded today's episode with him leading it. Little did I know what was about to come but you can bet your bottom dollar I cried. 

I'd be screwed without meditation. It is my go-to tool to pick up the imaginary phone and directly dial my higher self, for guidance and answers to serve me and my world. In the beginning I was scared to meditate, knowing I would get answers to help better me and my life. It meant I had the choice to change and advance beyond my bullsh!t, so my ego had me focusing on how boring it is, or how time wasting it is, or how sh!t I am at meditation (cheers ego). But with perseverance I developed a new relationship with it, and that was when I go inside, I get the answers I am seeking. And as a result I started to trust my inner voice, my intuition which grew self-trust, self confidence and the belief I can change the trajectory of my life, anytime.

In this episode I give you a taste of meditation. I hope you enjoy.

I believed for a long time that in order for me to grow spiritually, I needed something drastic like a car accident to happen so I could experience a near death experience. I know I know, not something I'm proud to admit, but it's true, I believed that. A friend said to me, "don't you think you can evolve spiritually without going through all of that?" It was like someone slapped me across the face and I woke up to a life-long belief that in order to grow, I must go through pain.

I contributed to such shit energy this week in our home. For one and a half days my mind was so constricted with its viewpoint on being a step-mum and getting back into the swing of coaching, events and collaborations. My self talk was poor and the result were poor. I needed to sit myself down, have a hard chat and ask better questions of myself.

Oh the days of pretending I had my shit together on first dates. I would put on any act I thought I had to in order to be chosen by the person in front of me. Thinking back to the dates is cringe worthy because my behaviour driven by insecurity and the deep belief that I didn't belong. So at the cost of my soul, I did anything I could to belong which only left me, you guessed it, alone.

So many times I wanted to call it quits when starting out in my business. I was working hard for the money and the return was way less than the tiring hustle I was putting in. Steve took one look at what I was putting energy into - ineffective work, that was driven by a very limiting belief that women can't make money. 

Waking up from ignorance is an ugly process and I'm experiencing it right now. It feels like The Truth is staring you right in the eye, grabbing you by the throat and you're standing there in shock feeling all the feels that have been buried by ignorance. This is a natural part of waking up to your power and giving rise to the leader inside you. Sure it's yuck, but it's what must be done to create the change we all truly want to see. 

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I used to get to the end of year and be like, "oh I can't wait for the new year, this one's been sh!t! It'll be my best one yet!" I legit would think that the new year was a clean slate with fresh energy for the whole year. But I was dragging all my unreconciled crap with me, wondering why the new year wasn't living up to my false expectations. Little did I know (until I knew) that what I did with that year was all up to me.

I've always known deep down what I wanted, and that somewhere deep down I could have it. But my ego believed that I couldn't have it - that I didn't deserve it, that it wasn't for me, that it just won't happen in this lifetime, blah blah blah. So I reconciled in my head why things weren't working out for me, losing sight and falling short of what I knew could be fulfilled. In the last episode for Season 1, we end with a powerful reminder that there is potential waiting patiently to be actualised. And we are the ones to reignite it.