The one thing everyone on this planet has in common is that we will all die. So that's why I'm saying you just need to do it now.

A lot of people say that they wish that they could go back and change something in their past, but I truly believe that our past made us who we are today. Whether you like who you are or not you are who you are because of your past and you are the only one writing your future. Everything else are just lessons that you're learning. You've been given a handbook you just need to pay attention.

I know we've talked about this before but Tick Tock was just reminding me how finding a new relationship is almost impossible today because of social media. Social media gives people access it's too easy to find the next branch.

It's very hard to not realize all the different things that you have to go through when you're grieving the end of a relationship. The biggest part is of course the relationship part and knowing that your present and your future are not going to be what you had imagined. But what I wasn't focusing on are all of the unanswered questions and things that we were dealing with while in a relationship / friendship. And how my empathy is still wanting to make sure that he is okay. And that me holding on to those final answers is probably not a good thing. So with this podcast I will release all of that energy to the universe so that I can move on and even though I do care I cannot wait to close that chapter so it's going to be closed without answers.

I kept asking myself how does your ex just move on to another person so fast. Move them into the house that you guys were living in and just act like everything is just fine. Well today on tick tock I came across a video that kind of resonated with me.

Today I heard on tick tock that once you get to sobriety the good thing about it is that you're going to live the best life you've ever had. Which means that leading up to alcoholism you were going through a lot of different things and you weren't able to deal with them on your own. So using alcohol to self medicate made you fall asleep believe things were better. But when you get to the other side you now have learned how to deal with life without using alcohol. And this is probably going to be the best life you've ever had. It's not easy but you're worth it.

I've walked in my neighborhood for over 30 years and have never had a time where I felt something was not right. But on Sunday I had that feeling and it's not a good feeling that women have to carry around all this caution because there are so many things out there that could be a threat to us. I would rather listen to my gut and be wrong than to ignore it and something bad happened.

So now there's a trend on Tick Tock with a bunch of women saying that you don't have to forgive. That it's okay that you like to carry around all the feelings and I would say the darkness I'm not sure what they say. We all know this is not a good way to live life. Yet here we are having people say, Young people, say it's okay if you're wronged you don't need to work on forgiveness.

This isn't the first time I got blamed for something I didn't do. And it will not be the last. But I'm okay if I have to be the bad guy it's not the first time and of course it's not going to be the last time. So blame away