In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal shares about the impact PCOS, endometriosis, and her fertility journey has had on her physical health and the ultimate decision Krystal made as a result of that. 

In this episode you'll hear about:
- the consistent and aggressive way Krystal gained weight as a result of IVF
- what it was like grappling with the decision on whether to get weight loss surgery
- the unique universal signs that told Krystal she was making the right decision for her
- the scary part about weight loss surgery
- how Krystal prepared mentally, emotionally and energetically for the surgery... and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
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This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

Continuing on Krystal's fertility journey, in this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as she shares about their first frozen embryo transfer. The super uncomfortable symptoms that come with the hormone injections and medication and the surprising regular ritual that bonded Krystal and her partner Bruce during this tough time. 

In this episode you'll hear about:
- the excruciating pain and panic attack Krystal experience during the procedure
- how Krystal deals with the dark days during IVF
- the impact weight gain had on Krystal's mental and emotional health
- the keepsake that Krystal still has to this day
- what Krystal is grateful for in this IVF journey... and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
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This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

Continuing on Krystal's fertility journey, in this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as she shares about her initial IVF appointment and what unfolded from there. She also shares about why she is intentional about the support forums and groups she joins whilst on her fertility journey. 

In this episode you'll hear about:
- why everyone's IVF journey will look and feel different
- Krystal's egg collection process
- why Krystal and her partner Bruce chose to freeze their embryos
- what deciding to do her first frozen transfer meant for Krystal... and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as we deep dive into Krystal's fertility journey... hear how Krystal accidentally overheard doctors discussing her case in the hallways of a hospital and what she consequently learnt and understood from that information.
 
In this episode you'll hear about:
- what getting diagnosed with endometriosis and PCOS meant for her
- what different medications were prescribed to Krystal and what they did to her body
- the moment it dawned on Krystal what a natural fertility centre meant
- how she found the right fertility doctor for her
- why Krystal started questioning if she even wants children... and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear we change lanes... listen as Krystal takes you through the process of her fertility journey. Going back to the start Krystal shares with us her on/off relationship with the pill, actually meeting someone she wanted to procreate with and the tumultuous relationship she's had with her body and hormones since being a teenager.

In this episode you'll hear about:
- going off the pill and being diagnosed with PCOS
- the vicious cycle of gaining and losing weight
- how Krystal became a self fulfilling prophecy
- deciding we wanted to start a family... and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal gives us behind-the-scenes access to her internal dialogue, sharing with us how she has gone back to listen to the last six episodes and the feelings of vulnerability and terror that come up. If you've ever wanted to understand what layered and complex trauma in someone can sound like, listen in!

In this episode you'll hear about:
- what lies your brain can tell you to keep you safe and small
- what holding conflicting feelings looks like IRL
- how to give yourself compassion when judging yourself too harshly
- why not wanting to hurt her Mum has Krystal doubting if she'll ever release this podcast publicly
- why defensiveness is a generational trauma response for Krystal... and  so much more!

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This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**
After being completely exiled and cutting all contact Krystal starts to build a new life. Imagine then walking into work one day to find yourself face to face with your childhood abuser. In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal shares about working in close proximity with her former abuser and watching through adult eyes as he does it again.

In this episode you'll hear about:
- when you believe the narrative that you're the bad influence
- the repercussions of having a warped view of what love is
- what the toxicity of holding a secret can do
- how Krystal processed the anger and rage of deep betrayal, manipulation and  so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**
Picture this, you're a teenager navigating some pretty big shit and you come home from school to your Mum having ransacked your room, uncovering your deepest, darkest secret. And she told your whole world.

In this episode of Krystal Fking Clear listen as Krystal shares about the moment it all fell apart.

In this episode you'll hear about:
- when adults betray trust and act without emotional regulation
- the fallout from fragmented memories as a result of dissociated trauma
- what happens when we project from our own wounds
- what a long history of abuse and manipulation can do to someone's young mind
- the heaviness of navigating an experience like this in your formative years with no proper support... and so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**
Continuing on from episode three, listen as Krystal gets raw about her personal healing journey and moving on from trauma. She shares with us about dealing with the inner critic, the importance of trusting the process and getting the support you need. 

In this episode you'll hear about:
- the reality of what it looks like to release shame
- showing up to do the healing work on the good days as well as the days you're in the pit
- the power of getting your feelings validated by a professional
- why people often don't have all the memories when they've experienced trauma... and so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being

**Trigger warning: this episode talks about child sexual abuse**
In the most explosive episode of season 2 listen as Krystal shares something she has grappled with since her teenage years. It wasn't until Krystal started seeing a therapist that the veil lifted and she realised the trauma that had transpired all those years before. An episode you don't want to miss!

In this episode you'll hear about:
- how Krystal was vilified and blamed when she was actually an innocent child
- what 'grooming' is and how it progresses
- why sharing this story is so important to Krystal
- the weight of carrying shame around that wasn't hers to carry... and so much more!

Share your takeaways with Krystal here:
https://www.instagram.com/krystalfkingclear/

This podcast is produced by Nikki O'Brien from Quintessential Being