Living in the Gray

In this episode I get a little bit vulnerable as I share why I show up the way I show up in a world that feels broken and disconnected. And why I wasn't always this way.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers 10 years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

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I sit down with my older sister, Wendy, to talk about aging gracefully in this crazy, chaotic, and often perfection-focused world. In this episode, we talk about hacks for being active and healthy as we enter the second half of our lives (and some of the fads we used back in the 90's!)

My book, Living in the Gray gathers 10 years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

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Wendy's YouTube Video Recommendations

Free self care? Yes, please! In this episode, April lists all of the (free!) tools and tricks she uses to reset her nervous system from this noisy, stressful world. You don't want to miss this one!

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

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If you are a tiny bit risk adverse like I am, this episode is for you. I rode a bike across the Golden Gate Bridge and was scared the entire time. And I did it anyway.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

If you've ever experienced loss, this episode is for you. I talk about how being brave enough to love opens you up to the pain of loss and why I would do it again every single time. Grab some tissues!

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

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Meditation for difficult emotions and moments

We have a special guest for this episode who is literally sharing a mic with me as we explore the last two decades of our marriage! Luke and I talk about this season of our lives, why marriage is work and a couple of tricks we use to keep the conversations fresh.

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

How do you See the World card game

Couple Reconnect card game

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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I'm back! Welcome to the First Episode of Season 2! We are talking about choosing love in difficult moments, why I want to live more like my 12-year-old niece and the wisdom of daily meditation.

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

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Last episode of Season 1 and I explore why I find so much peace leaning into God's plan. I discuss the power of rejection, my own worthiness and why life doesn't happen to us but for us.

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My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

God's Plan (visual)

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

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This isn't the first time I've talked about Ego -- check out Episode 9, too!

But I bring it up again because of the week I've had. There are some of you out there who've probably had a similar week -- you're not alone. My kids were sick, work was overwhelming ... you get it. And then I ran into a lot of egos.

Remember the ego is the part of the brain that wants to keep us safe. The part that's on high-alert and reminds us people are out to get us.

I heard this great quote I heard it from Jesse Itzler, but credit for the original goes to Robin Sharma. It says, "A bad day for the ego is a great day for the soul." Basically, if you can set your ego aside and be curious, the world opens up. I try to live every day open now.

But life is 50/50 and I'm human and so is everyone else.

So this week, my ego flared. I got defensive. Instead of choosing how I wanted to show up, I let the ego take over. It looked like me being frustrated a lot, focusing energy on what I couldn't control, not much good sleep, frustration erupting at home where it shouldn't.

Because I felt hurt.

We're all going to encounter this. But as I detox off this lousy week, I try to have as much gratitude as I can. I've gone for walks, tried to be present, I've sought out sunsets and sunrises, I've just stopped and looked at my loved ones and try to share something that I love them to show them.

When you're frustrated and angry, there's still time to have gratitude. These things will pass.

Links from this episode:

My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

Jesse Itzler

Robin Sharma

Insight Timer metta meditaions

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s tensions — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

• Instagram
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• Facebook
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In this episode, I eat a ton of mini Cadbury eggs early in the morning, before drinking my first cup of coffee and I break down why kindness matters, why meditation helps me with the anxiety train, and why grace is important in remembering that we all struggle.

Links from this episode:

My Book! Living in the Gray – A Memoir About Navigating Life’s Paradoxes

Insight Timer

If you heard yourself in today’s episode, you’re not alone.

My book, Living in the Gray gathers ten years of writing about living inside life’s paradoxes — the both/and moments that shape who we become. It’s a deeper look at the questions behind these conversations.

Visit my website or Amazon to explore the book, and join me on social media:

• Instagram
• LinkedIn:
• Facebook
• Substack