The more I delve into the world of bettering myself and becoming the best possible human I can be, the more reinforcement I am getting in my research.  We aren't just born good people, we need to shape ourselves day by day into the person we want to become and we need to reinforce this by the decisions that we make which form our values.  It's a process and a practice.  I didn't know I could or should do this or be aware of this but it Matters!  It all matters...everything we do and say builds upon itself and in turn, it ends up becoming who we are. The work is all that really matters in our lives.  Don't be neglectful!

For years I have heard that people who have had an awakening have done 'the work'.  I have always been open and willing to do the work but I never knew what 'the work' was.  This episode is breaking down the process a bit which led me on my journey of freeing myself.

As a kid I grew up in the generation where kids were seen and not heard.  We were not 'allowed' to show our feelings, impose our feelings upon others or discuss them.  It led me into a lifetime of feeling shame around being vulnerable and looking 'weak'.  It's really a look at how I figured myself out as well as well the process to chip away at the pain and shame around it. 

I think a lot of people carry around pain from their past...probably without even knowing.  That was me.  Living in a low grade depression for the majority of my life. I have since done the 'work' of figuring out why I am the way that I am and healing/forgiving myself from the mistakes that I've made and the hurt that I've felt. I'm taking you on the journey of seeing myself out of my funk. 

Do you ever wonder how you truly feel about money?  What it represents to you?  Your meaning behind making it?  Just diving into the idea that money is a super charged subject and how I look at money from a spiritual and entreprenurial point of view.

I have decided that loving yourself could be the most powerful and most important thing to learn in a lifetime.  If we could look at ourselves and our lives through a less judgemental and more loving lens, we could simplify life so very much. What are you doing on a daily basis to reinforce the person that you want to become?

So much of what we are is from what beliefs we formed as children.  As much as I don't want to admit it, it is very much true.  I noticed myself walking around like an open wound after I got laid off from my job in 2014.  I needed to take a deep dive on my fears, insecurities and self doubt.  As a result, I decided to own my pain and forgive myself on many levels which has freed me from my invisible mental prison.  Don't get me wrong, I still digress into dark places but I live knowing that the light is there and I just need to find it.  

TBH I've been having a lot of anxiety over the past few weeks.  In the past I would rush to 'fix' what was scaring me or making me nervous.  I would be very reactive...  It didn't end up being the right thing to do because I just wanted to fix the issue as quickly as possible.  Instead I needed to accept and analyze the problem and sit in the discomfort.  I'm practicing sitting in this discomfort so I can figure out my next best move and grow from there.  It's not easy but I do it.

Most of the time when I record this podcast it is morning time which is my best time of day. Today, I'm recording at 6pm and I'm just feeling a bit drained, depressed and nervous. 

What do you do when you feel off or low or just irritable?  I am finding ways to cope w/ these feelings and not giving them so much credit.  These feelings are NOT me...they are just chemical reactions in my brain and body that will pass.  It's processing these feelings and letting them go.  It's a practice and a process that I'm literally working through in this episode.

So I need to ask you, how much do you like yourself?

Who are you as a person?  Do you love what you stand for?  Do you love what you do?  Are you working toward becoming a better version of yourself?  So many big questions that I am constantly circling back to.  This is my practice at becoming the best version of myself.  What is yours?