Today I learned that I can learn anything by just breaking it down. I was having a tough time with my logic class. Even though I was using my formula of time + consistent effort I still was struggling to grasp the concepts. I remembered I watched a video about this guy talking about how he studied difficult concepts by simply breaking things down to the simplest layer and then slowly adding the more difficult layers as he understood. So that’s basically what I did with my logic shit. I started with the most basic concept of the chapter then I proceeded to next concept which was just a little harder and I actually understood the shit. It seems to me that this is a good method of how you learn anything. How to rap, how to code, how to make clothes. Starting small then leveling up. Not worried even about the big pictures but primarily focused on the smaller part that is more attainable. That’s pretty dope. The human brain is so magical. After finally starting to really learn this logic shit it seems like there ain’t nothing I can’t learn how to do.

Never look at myself as a victim. (Today I Learned #98) by Della Mbaacha

I have to turn my goofy down. (Today I Learned #97) by Della Mbaacha

Time + Consistent Effort = Growth & Understanding (Today I Learned #96) by Della Mbaacha

Today I learned that it’s pointless to pursue two careers at the same time. This whole semester I’ve been one foot in one foot out. I’d do my homework and kinda study but I would only do enough to were I felt comfortable enough to make music. That shit has been to my detriment this entire semester. Unlike previous semesters I’ve done fairly well but this has to be my most horrible. My discipline and determination has been split into two. This then made it easy for me to be foggy on both my school shit and my music shit. Looking back on it this was one of the reasons I wasn’t successful with college on my first tries. I was always involved in either music or some business which gave me the excuse to neglect my studies. Moving forward what I’ll do now is be a student during the semester and then make music during the summer and winter breaks. I’m not getting anywhere in my music by starting and stopping in the middle of the semester. I’m not getting anywhere in my studies by doing the bare minimum only to just fail the class and have to retake it.

Character is worth more than money (Today I Learned #94) by Della Mbaacha

People with self-control can hold it down! (Today I Learned #93) by Della Mbaacha

Today I learned that I have to treat myself like I’m my son. I got this idea from watching one of Jordan Peterson’s videos. He talked about how people treat their pets better than they treat themselves. He explained that a lot of people don’t love themselves as much as they do other things or other people. He proposes the idea that because a person is fully aware of their shortcomings, mistakes, and bad habits they withhold self love. He argues that despite of all the negatives of a person one should take care of them self properly because doing so puts one in the best position bring their own unique value out to the world.This concept makes so much sense. It was easy for me to be impulsive, take excessive risk, and let myself be bullied because I was acting strictly upon urges. Their was always something telling me that this is unnecessarily dangerous. Why did I put myself in harms way in hopes that I could win big? A part of the reason was because I felt I didn’t meet up to the standard in a lot of ways. Though now that I’ve been exposed to this idea I treat myself in a far better way. I conduct myself like I’m my son. I’m on my best behavior, I don’t hang out with friends who just want to use my resources. I have respect for myself. I tell myself even though I’ve made plentiful mistakes and will make many more, I’m a passionate, driven, and loving person and I deserve to be treated with basic respect or else. Having self love warms my life. So treating myself like I’m my son makes me appreciate myself more and makes me more willing to be disciplined, to be responsible, and to continue to push myself to avoid the negativity and get the best out of my potential. I think this idea really helped me improve my behavior too. It makes me not tolerate bullshit from people. When people play with me or disrespect me I take it as they play with or disrespect my son and when I know I’ve been on my best behavior I take it as a serious offense. I don’t have the type of patience to tolerate poor behavior.

Hold myself to an extremely high standard (Today I Learned #91) by Della Mbaacha

Today I learned that if I hang around long enough life is gonna give me another shot to redeem myself. I found this pretty inspiring. If one has acted poorly in the past life will eventually give you another chance to behave better than you did. I blundered in the past and made some missteps and made myself look like a fool in front of a couple people. After sulking about that shit for awhile I realized that I’m sitting on my own opportunity. There’s nothing that I can do about the past and how I behaved. But there’s everything I can do about the now and the future. Because I know this now I’m a little more agile with all the opportunities throughout the days. The only way I’ll forgive myself is if I change my behavior.also to somebody who is never going to stop trying this is pretty sweet. It means in a way that I even after stinking humiliating failure there is another opportunity to claim what I want right around the corner. There is another opportunity to conduct myself better as a man. Even talking with girls. Even though I didn’t muster up the courage to pull that girl today Life is gonna give me the chance to try again sooner than I think. So what am I gonna do with it? Am I gonna prepare for the opportunity or am I gonna take it lightly and probably fail to rise to the occasion again. That’s the shit that I’m asking myself all the time. What am I gonna do with this opportunity to redeem myself? Blunder again and sink farther into a hole of regret and humiliation or be so on top of things it’s commendable? That’s why I can’t ever quit ever again. On music, school, my love life, my social life, my mental & physical health none of that shit. Just simply by hanging in there Life is gonna give me another chance to improve in all these areas. I’m gonna take the opportunities and run with it.