In this episode, Roshi Allison Atwill tells an old story in which a man dreams that he is a butterfly.

Upon waking, he begins to wonder if he is, in fact, a butterfly dreaming of being a man.

Atwill invites us into the true wonder that appears when our fixed views start to give way.

We already know how to discover our own awakening. It is happening without our needing to try.

Listen in to learn about endless transformation and how to align with the natural flow of things.

"Another word for awakening is intimacy with the whole of my situation." — Allison Atwill.

• How to feel into the moment
• What is the transformation of things
• How to align with the transformation of things
• What are the impediments to a freer state of being
• How to be more comfortable with change

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• John Tarrant's books:
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  • The Story of the Buddha

Through exploring the classic Roadrunner and Wiley Coyote screenwriting rules, Roshi John Tarrant interrogates the constraints we so often place on life in hopes of it all making more sense.

In meditation, our rules often begin to loosen, and the true absurdity and delight of our situation becomes clearer.

What will we do with what we are given? Just taking it all in is a start.

"One of the fundamental things in Zen would be being adaptive and conforming to circumstances rather than finding circumstances." — John Tarrant.

• What happens after awakening
• How to stop fighting our mind
• Why don't we own our joy
• How to cultivate a generous attitude
• Ways to find what is true for us
• How to teach a culture
• What are koans for

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In this lively summer sesshin talk, Roshi John Tarrant engages students in reflecting on what actually happens as practice deepens during a long retreat.

Like front foot and back foot walking, we get a taste of the light and then are lost again in the darkness.

We reach for a new koan or practice that will open the "right" door.

Seeing our true nature encompasses both the light and the dark.

Let the koan carry you.

"There is not a matter or right or wrong. There is a matter of being here and respecting the quality of being here." — John Tarrant.

• How does meditation change the mind
• What is front foot walking
• How to harness the natural movement of the mind
• Why we should lean into difficulties
• How perception is linked to thought

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Meditation is not something you do; it is something you surrender to.

In this episode, Roshi John Tarrant speaks from deep inside Summer sesshin about how, with practice, the gap between ourselves and the universe begins to close and we start to trust the deeper currents at work, even in our difficulties.

What happens when you surrender to the moment?

"The thing about koan meditation is you don't have to be good at it because it is before being good or bad at things." - John Tarrant.

• What to do in meditation
• How to trust life
• What to learn from the koan about flying birds
• How to interact meaningfully with koans
• What happens when you surrender to the moment

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Today, Roshi John Tarrant takes up an infamous koan about a woman raising a goose in a bottle.

There are many bottles that we may feel trapped in throughout our lives. Awakening is never about solving our problems but rather about dissolving the constraints of the mind.

In this episode, we discuss the don't-know quality of Zen and koans in general.

We also consider koans as a gateway.

"Reject what is not true, and the real naturally appears." — John Tarrant.

• What does the koan about the goose in the bottle teach us
• How to care for life
• What is awakening
• How to get the goods out of the bottle

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This episode features several stories of awakening to what was always already here and on our side.

To end the project of suffering that many of us take on, we need first to identify the types of suffering. Only then can we begin to look past the suffering to the root causes.

In Buddhism, we can learn to make use of our suffering by reaching for the light.

What does reaching for the light look like, and why does the mind manufacture misery?

"There is a place inside of you where you can rest. Even when you are reaching, you are resting inside of your life." — Allison Atwill.

• How to look beyond frustration
• What suffering does Buddhism speak to
• How does the mind manufacture misery
• What are the two kinds of suffering
• Why does the mind manufacture misery
• What is inward radiance

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In this episode, Roshi Tess Beasley begins with an old Seamus Heaney poem about how the universe appears in all its splendor in the places we least expect.

What does it mean to stay intimate with the being of the world, and let it unfold against our fingertips?

What does it mean to give way to poverty in Zen, meaning to be empty of ideas and preconceived notions?

Listen to this episode to learn how to feel your way along the wall, no matter how dark.

"It doesn't matter how it comes to you, that you begin to dissolve your usual borders and feel a part of things." - Tess Beasley.

• What does koan Zen say about intimacy
• What does it mean to stay intimate with the being of the world
• How can we make sense of the feeling that our borders are not as certain as we thought they were
• What does it mean to give way to poverty in Zen
• How to let the world in
• How to feel your way along the wall

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Roshi John Tarrant explores the intersection of the art of haiku and silence.

In this episode, he shows how the vastness of the universe is always ready to emerge out of our very own heart-mind.

How do we convey this?

Listen to this episode as we grapple with the marvel of being alive and the sense of vastness of things.

We muse on what comes out of the silence and consider how to teach and learn from the Dharma.

"Darkness is a stillness, too." - John Tarrant.

• How to convey silence
• What are koans
• How to explain the dharma of haiku
• How to interact with koans
• What is precious about darkness
• How to fulfill your life purpose
• Ways to convey the Dharma

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As the year comes to a close, "the Guanyins" -- Roshis Allison Atwill, Tess Beasley, Michelle Riddle, and Sarah Bender -- team up to tell a wintery Christmas tale of wonder.

Holidays often come with difficulties, but also have the potential of opening the heart into unexpected moments of healing.

Listen to a story of reconciliation, surprise, and the blessing that emptiness can bring to any season.

Happy New Year!

"Zen sees awakening as a kind of miracle." - Tess Beasley.

Learn more about this episode of Meeting the Inconceivable at https://www.pacificzen.org/30

In this episode, Roshi John Tarrant shares a wondrous and humorous rendition of an old fairytale about the Golden Bird and Buddha Nature.

Explore how it is never our most treasured or heroic attitudes that lead us through the gates of awakening; it is far simpler than that.

Tarrant reminds us that, with just one sitting, all our crimes are wiped away.

Listen to this episode to learn about the benefits of generosity and discipline, and how we can best manage our expectations of desire and fulfillment.

"Everybody wants to be the best horse, but the worst horse is interesting." - John Tarrant

Learn more about this episode of Meeting the Inconceivable at https://www.pacificzen.org/29