Melatations

In this entry, I share an extremely candid view on and around my mental health when it comes specifically to my eating disorder - the dark cloud that's followed me around since my early teens. I talk in real time about the discomfort I feel and how it affects me day to day. It's not an easy listen, but an insight into the reality of someone struggling with an ED. Whether you have personal experience with this or want to understand humans better, listen with a bit of empathy in your heart. 

As promised, here are some resources that I've found or personally tapped into along the way:

https://www.aba12steps.org/

https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/get-information-and-support/get-help-for-myself/support-now/

https://butterfly.org.au/get-support/helpline/

Resource Library from Butterfly

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When did I start looking outside myself for answers I don't trust myself to find alone? 

In this entry, I reflect on outsourcing my decision-making to spiritual tools and other people, and how a disconnection from my intuition can lead me to seek answers externally rather than trust my own inner knowing.

A reflection on self-trust, intuition, and learning to turn inward for guidance.

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After a long hiatus, I am back, baby.

In this diary entry, I touch on the goings-on of my life at the moment — some of the thoughts I’ve had and how I’m trying to understand them.

All in all, it’s me dipping my toe back into the wonderful world of vulnerability.

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In this entry, I share what I’m learning about love in all its forms. The practice of actually stopping myself from avoiding it, choosing instead to surrender (or at least trying to). I talk about the patterns that shaped how I’ve given and received love, the fears that made me hold back. It’s an honest reflection on softening, trusting, and remembering that being loved is just as sacred as loving. 

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In this entry, I open up about what I call the Dark Night of the Ego—those moments when old patterns, fears, and identities creep back in and try to pull me under. I share how I recognise when ego is steering the narrative, the subtle ways it disguises itself as truth, and what I must confront before it takes me whole. This is an honest reflection on self-awareness, surrender, and the ongoing practice of remembering my higher self while moving through the 3D. 

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In this entry, I touch on my first experience with plant medicine. The expectations, ego deaths, and the quiet truths that came after. It wasn’t what I thought it would be, but it opened me in ways I didn’t ask for, but somehow deeply needed.

This is a story of death and rebirth, of continuing to lose who I thought I was, and of figuring out who I am becoming. No mysticism, no gloss. Just a little of what happened, and how it's shifting me.

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In this episode, I share a moment from the middle of it all — the part where I’m letting go of who I used to be and figuring out what balance looks like now. It’s a strange space to sit in… something old is falling away, but the new hasn’t fully landed yet.

This is me, in the thick of it — trying to stay honest, stay soft, and keep moving forward.

 If you’re also in transition, this one’s for you. 

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Ever looked at life’s so-called timeline and thought, “Nah, not for me”? This is about ditching the scripted milestones, jumping between possibilities, and throwing yourself into deep, unexpected encounters. It’s about the magic that happens when you stop living for the ‘right time’ and start living for your time. No more subscribing to someone else’s idea of success—just pure, unfiltered adventure, freedom, and seeing where the wild road takes you. 

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Perfectionism has held me back from so much—not because I wasn’t capable, but because I was too afraid to mess up and disappoint myself. My new public venture has forced me to face that fear head-on, and in doing so, I’ve felt a shift—towards growth, self-trust, and actually living. In this episode, I unpack what’s changed, how I’m learning to take up space without hesitation, and why moving forward (even imperfectly) feels so much better than standing still.

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In this episode, I uncover the surprising difference between feelings and emotions—realising that emotions are the nouns we hold onto, while feelings are the verbs that allow us to process them. This is a new perspective for me, and I’m just beginning to shift from talking through emotions to feeling through them. It’s a learning curve, but one that’s helping me rethink how I store and release emotional energy. Join me as I navigate this fresh approach to understanding and working through what I feel.

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