In part 2 of the episode of Healing, Hurts I  am still reflecting on part 1. Although I never planned to release this episode because I rebranded my entire podcast, I thought it was fitting due to the fact of where I am in my life happily married, and where I healed from old areas of relationships in my life. this is an old recording from last year (2021) before I rebranded my podcast, and while I'm now currently remarried to Apostle Eric Clark, and I am still on my healing journey thing things mentioned in this episode were part of my healing journey from 2020 -2021.

Healing is never an easy road to walk on in fact it is one of the riskiest things I have ever done in my life. It's like I walked into a danger zone within myself, and once I have begun I could not turn it off if I wanted to. Healing ❤️‍🩹 is one of the things you have no control over once you hand your pain over to God wholeheartedly. It's like you are removed from the driver's side of your pain, and you are given a ticket to watch yourself be birthed into this new person.

I just want to tell myself thank you for allowing the little girl to heal and unpack a lifetime full of pain and discomfort. XO

This is an old recording from last year (2021) before I rebranded my podcast, and while I'm now currently remarried to Apostle Eric Clark, and I am still on my healing journey thing things mentioned in this episode were part of my healing journey from 2020 -2021. 

Sometimes it's the things we often yearn for that seem to be out of our reach when we need it near the most ( i.e) Like feeling the presence of God when we are consistently going through battles and facing hail storms in our personal life. The question is! God, do you see me? God are you concerned about me? God, do you ever care about what I am going through? And yes I am here to encourage you that God does see you, and God is concerned about you, and God does care about what you are going through. Be encouraged people of God, and don't lose heart. 

It's never easy to allow God in fully to a pain that was buried deep inside of yourself never knowing that it could one day be healed in section. I know for many people it is not common to publicly place yourself on a chopping board to bear your life's story in audio bites, but for me, I had to put myself out there to help change the narrative of what it's like to go through something, and just hide instead of going through something while healing and be redefined in the fire. I pray that today's episode has helped you release the hidden things that lay on your mind. and within your heart. 

Please keep in mind I am now 40 years of age, and this episode was recorded last year while I was, and am still going through my healing journey.

Sometimes life is challenging and filled with a lot of uncertainty... But I want to speak this into your life that you're going to be fine, and you will not walk around feeling down, and out. God will replace in you what you did not get to fulfill in this last season in you life. 

In this episode, I discuss the importance of knowing why you matter, and the difference in just feeling like you belong to a person, place, or thing. The need to feel entitled to someone is just a place knowing whom to link arms with, and who to unlink arms with. There comes a time when you. truly need to allow God to reveal to your heart why you matter, and why everything else did not work out because it was not in His plan your you. 

Sometimes in life things can get really out of wack in expressing how you may feel. I use to be a severe people pleaser to the point where I blocked how I felt internally to avoid issues from arising. I was dying on the inside, and I buried myself in this place of false perfection. It wasn't until I got truly intentional with myself back in 2017 that I found myself learning to deal with the intake of my heart, and I had to show others how I treated myself and how I was not going to just go with the flow of life anymore I pray you find the courage to do the same. 

Losing my mommy has been one of the most heart-wrenching things that I ever experienced in this time in my life, and I am totally beside myself. Grief disturbs the heart at any given time. I pray that this time of healing will be one of the essential parts of my life so that I can steer others to God in a deeper way by sharing my life real, raw, and ready.