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Midlife Misery, the JOURNALS - Supporters Club Preview Episode
These episodes are going to be a bit different than the regular season episodes
They aren’t going to follow the timeline of the Crazy Train Bananas - cyber death - long term poisoning plot - Attempt on my life and complete life destruction when MY EX’S murder plot failed - THE ONE I’M currently PIECING TOGETHER IN THE SEASON 1 EPISODES
The supporters club episodes are going to focus on my actual Journals - many of the entries you can find in the blog posts on the website and the ones to come.
Once January 2024 hits my Journal entries get much more intense because my Ex's diabolical plan goes full steam ahead and we get to the 5150 moment
The Journal Entries from 2024 are very raw, emotional, and extremely vulnerable because of the tremendous amount of trauma, turmoil, and chaos my Ex unleashed - and continues to unleash on my life
There is a lot more vulnerability within the entries and they aren't necessarily suitable for everyone and they don't always help the story move forward - if anywhere - it’s a lot of venting and trauma processing
I’ve decided to put those behind the paywall because I don't want them to muck up the waters of the actual story
In the Supporters Club Episodes - I'll be diving more into my personal backstory, my family's story and my dad't story
I want to keep that portion of my story as separate from my Ex's story as much as possible
DESPITE THE FACT THAT IT IS INDEED MY STORY AND MY STORY TO TELL
It was written and delivered to me by a Narcissistic Abuser/My EX Husband and I'm telling that story to help others out there identify the signs of abuse and to let other victims of abuse know they are not alone
My story and my family's story is worthy of more discernment - in my opinion and I'd like to keep the 2 stories as separate as possible
Not that I won't be making connections to ANCHOR FACE OF DEATH - because they just have to be made
But my Ex won't be the lead character in the Supporters Club Episodes - HIS EGO DOESN’T NEED ANY MORE INFLATION
Another slight difference in the Supporters Club Episodes from the regular season episodes will be in the scripting and delivery
I spend a lot of time writing the regular season episodes out, editing them over and over, because they have to be linear and stick to a timeline and sequence of events and be as concise as possible because
A - I have to have it make sense -
B - I have to make sure the information I’m putting out there in the story is information that I can back up with receipts
Because unlike my EX - I’m not trying to get hit with slander or libel - I want to make sure that I can say XY&Z happened - and say here is where you can look for the information to corroborate what I’m saying to back it up
In these Journal style supporters Club Episodes - they’ll be more free flow, free thought, and I might not be as poised - I might break down from time to time because the content and subject matter is much closer to my heart and much more emotional for me
Which is also why I’ll try to keep the EX out of them as much as possible - this episodes will be less scripted and more off the cuff - so I might veer off, or go back and forth they wont necessarily be timeline specific and there may be some spoilers in these journal episodes
I might discuss something that hasn’t happened yet in the timeline of the season - much like this preview episode - I’m jumping ahead to January 2024 - and I’ve barely touched on November 2023 in the regular Season 1 Episodes
This is going to be a bit of a teaser or spoiler, if you will - and you may get more of them within the Supporters Club Episodes
FYI - all of the preview episodes will be free and never go behind the paywall - EVER - Because I will be focusing on my DAD specifically and what I was trying to accomplish for these preview episodes
I’ll weave in a little more of my backstory as well because I am fully aware that I may seem a little angry in the regular season episodes - and for good reason - however, I haven’t always been this ANGRY - admittedly I’m not the most vulnerable person in the world so I understand how important it is to share more of my backstory to enhance my relatability a bit
Once the episodes go behind the paywall they will jump around a bit more and focus more on the mental health aspect, the things I was working on in therapy and the familial relationships and experiences that make up my childhood trauma - they may be time specific to the real time of the episode release - much like this one that is going to start with January 2024 - because we’ve just closed out January 2025
So this is an idea of what you’ll get for the $5/month - at least one bonus episode a week I’m toying with the idea of early access to regular season episodes
Please stay tuned and check out the preview episodes which will always be free -
As far as launch date - I’m looking at late February/Early March for the Supporters Club Journal Episodes - which is what I’ll be calling them because I won’t be trying to cram in a bunch of timeline information into an hour as I continue to try to solve my attempted murder while I’m still alive - please stay tuned and thank you for listening
Thank you so much for listening and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT - XOXO Launa
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The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in court