Midnight Wisdom

22:55 27.11.2022

14:26 24.11.2022 black bulldog in front of the supermarket.

20.11.2022 23:51 Sunday Basics. I went to Einhorn and had a really lovely day that felt homey. My kid was Fiete. He smacked me in the face after helping him pee and he was so cool with it. Hard to be mad at a blonde handsome man like that. I met a lovely girl there too. Was a lovely connection. Hopefully the cysts and infections heal. I bought some games on the ps4. I committed to staying at the job till next September. I am doing alternate day fasting from yesterday until the 19th of January. Lovely seeing Johannes. He gave me the advice to look st my life on a larger time scale, and plan likewise. It’s so easy to forget perspective. I listened to Annaka Harris’s Metta course on Waking Up. At least the first two recordings. There will probably be many more humans than now in the future, hopefully they can deal with suffering much better than us. And in some ways not need to suffer in certain ways at all. I wish you well, thank you for perspective. What do we put inside ourselves? And how do we give ourselves the time to reflect? 23:56

21:33 Monday 07.11.2022 I feel a heaviness in my chest. I can’t keep saying that things will work out without being one with them. The distance I can create to things. The closeness. The things I feel are wrong with me. The things I feel are great. What is it to connect. To see. The states that we can be in. The states that we are. Right, Annica?

11:32 31.10.2022 Monday Talked about the vipassana experience, some small details, large details. Moon and sun. I had some nice moments with the moon, and the falling petals. It waxed and then waned throughout the period. Really feeling it at night, after leaving the final meditation. Watching it. Considering if I should just meditate for the rest of that night in front of it in that open field. I walked a lot. Slowly, fast, watching, thinking. So much thought.

30.10.2022 18:34 Sunday Clozee concert, Dustin, I got new keyboards and a 34 inch curved monitor. Reading Alan Watts and Arthur Shopenhauer. Sojourner Truth, ain’t I a woman. And everything moves.

22:52 Sunday 23.10.2022 ich habe einen Text geschrieben. Dann entschieden ihn sofort vorzulesen und hochzuladen. Wenn du eine Frage an Gott hattest, was würdest du fragen? Gute Nacht.

16.10.2022 22:13 Sunday I’m feeling very raw and emotional and about to sleep. Thinking about mom. Thinking about how sometimes selfishness is very important, and how being kind and loving and not holding on to things is a way to go. The teacher, as I cried, asked me how many vipassanas I did. “Three in one year? You’re very fortunate.” “Oh you’re like a little Buddha, he almost starved himself to find enlightenment.”

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