Midnight Wisdom

I got a pretty cool monkey poster I put over my bed.

We're all keenly aware of how happy we are, or how happy we aren't. Happiness is something we're all chasing, yet sometimes it feels so out of reach. 

What is it that truly makes us happy? The things that satisfy us or the things that give our lives meaning?

We impose our will on the world with every action we take, trying to mend any imbalances that exist between our internal state and our external state. 

Behind every intention is a meaning we're trying to translate from within ourselves to the world around us. Like drinking water to quench thirst or throwing a dart and trying to hit the bulls-eye.

We don't have a single intention at any one time, multiple intentions exist within us and we can only act on one. 

And as we act, others around us act according to their own intentions, and somehow it all has to fit. 

I like to be clear with myself on what my intentions are, but it's nice to take a slightly deeper look on what we truly mean inside. 

I'll be releasing a Midnight Reflections episode once a month alongside the normal episodes I'll be uploading. It just makes sense to off load a lot of what's going on in my life and through my head in an episode like this. It keeps me sane in a lot of ways. 

With everything going on right now it can sometimes feel overwhelming. Writing a book, recording podcasts and filming online courses, all along with the normal university work during my last semester and needing to write my bachelor thesis. 

And when you're focusing on so much it's easy to feel distracted and distorted, specially because I had to move from my old flat and stay at a friends place before finding another one and having to move in the coming week. 

I've seen a lot of change in me the past 4 months, and I attribute that to everything I'm doing. 

Writing a book is a process that will definitely have anyone question themselves in ways they didn't think they could.

And this podcast itself is changing me in ways I really didn't expect either, reflecting on my own reflections as I prepare my voice to be subjected to the eyes, or rather ears, of anyone willing to observe and listen. It shifts your perspective of yourself, your thoughts and actions to an entirely different level. 

Now that my narrative is public to anyone and everyone willing to listen, I feel that much more motivation to live true to myself and the words I'm saying, and it's pushing me in ways I really didn't see coming.  

Just seeing everything you promise yourself come to life in front of you is entirely new feeling, a feeling I'm not too familiar with, but a feeling I love. The ability to both create, and share, which is something we're all capable of.

Alongside the books I'm reading and the things I'm constantly trying to understand and give structure to because of writing my own book, it all feels.. different. 

It's not only the experiences we go through that teach us, it's our ability to reflect on those experiences that really carves the lesson into our souls.

I let that all out in this episode, plus a few experiences from my past and what I took from certain books I read throughout my life.

This journey is only just beginning. 

We're in for a ride.

We give meaning to what we interact with, and we're interacting with everything that our brain manifests for us in our journey through this world.

Our mind is a weird place, we're constantly in a struggle to understand ourselves and the things around us, and somehow give meaning to all of it, especially ourselves. 

The universe is intelligence understanding itself. 

Let's explore why. 

A loving but random encounter happened on my bus ride home. 

I had to share it with everyone here, so I started recording fresh out of the experience. 

How we live our days, is how we live our lives.

We make decisions every day, every single one of us, that can branch out into a million others. And as time moves forward, we move forward with it, not by ourselves but all of us.. together.

Every decision we make builds up into the path we're taking throughout our lives. 

There isn't one person who decides where humanity is going. 

It's on all of us. And that's something we shouldn't let go of. That's something we should hold on to dearly. 

We live one life, and we always have so many choices. Choices that branch out our life into directions we never expect, but always try to imagine. 

And no matter which path we take, no matter how beautiful, surprising or eventful our path and journey was, we will always think about the path we didn't take. The path we can't take any more.

That's part of the reason to why we feel that way. We're curious beings, and now we can never know what might have or could have happened if we did things slightly differently. 

A part of us yearns for that, and imagines an alternate version of reality we could have been in right now that only exists in our heads and no where else.

Yet it feels so real, doesn't it?