Nope, I'm not talking about DMTs or treating yourself with diet and exercise. I'm talking about working vs. not working. 

That's the dilemma presented to me yesterday. 

One, don't work, treat myself with diet, exercise, wellness. (I mean, not working means no money for insurance.)

Two, put myself through hellacious pain, nightmarish symptoms at a breakneck pace for whatever pennies I'm tossed.

This ain't no life for the weak. 

Kendrick Reviews: Mea Culpa (Netflix, 2024)

It was worth the watch. I'm a huge fan of Tyler Perry so none of the plot twists shocked me. I anticipated some backstabbing. I was thirsty for the strong, Black woman. 

What impressed me was the acting and actors. Every role was played to the T. Kelly Rowland shined. This film was about the excellence of execution. Great work.

MS Diary | Thursday, 2/29/24 | 2nd results of 30mg Oxybutynin 

I hope I'm not trippin. On day 2 (30mg Oxybutynin is the maximum dosage), I went to the bathroom MORE. I told my wife but she stayed quiet. 

During the daylight hours, I went pretty consistently, every 2hrs. There was no break, no dry visits, every two hours. That's not normal. Usually I'm making restroom trips liiiiiike, 1 every 3 or 4. I was tired AF by mid-day. My arms ached from all the transitions. 

Then, here comes night. I stayed at the 1trip/2hrs pace. There was one dry run and I returned within an hour. That's actually pretty normal. 

I hoped Oxybutynin would slow down my restroom trips at night. Instead, day 2, it's making my day trips increase to match the night pace. I'm not quitting! Just reporting. 

MS Diary | Wednesday, 2/28/24 | 1st results of 30mg Oxybutynin 

I'm disappointed. I wanted hours of sleep after my first 30mg dose of Oxybutynin. It didn't happen. I'm not giving up! No way. It's just the first quarter of a new game. *rolls shoulders* Matter of fact, let me go take it now.

MS Diary | Tuesday, 2/27/24 | GOOD news!

Nevermind the how. Today, I'm popping the legal limit of 30mg Oxybutynin. The reason is simple. Doubling up my intake should lessen my daily restroom trips.🤞🏾🤞🏾

MS Diary | Monday, 2/26/24 | Weekend woes

I came into the weekend on a warm streak. I started strong with yoga, exercise, meditation to manage nerve pain in left leg. It worked too.

This week will be much the same. I didn't continue the wellness routines I started. Now, I'm back to square one. Hope the process works again.

MS Diary | Friday, 2/23/24 | I manifested this…

I've been really focused on the left leg pain. SO focused, I manifested a way to slow the pain. Suddenly, the Rubicon World's Lightest Electric stopped charging. That means I can't use it. Now, I'm back to Optimus Prime. Now, a familiar pain. *sigh*

This ain’t no life for the weak.

MS Diary | Thursday, 2/22/24 | What I Learned…

Aight, the left leg is not solved BUT I gotta hot lead. Another Wheelchair User commented she had similar pains. The problem ended up being the WHEELCHAIR! 

Apparently, if you're wheelchair-bound, the wheelchair must be measured and set by your specifications. If not, your seating position affects your body. 

My wife confirmed the story with hospital tales. I thought this earlier but kept my fingers crossed. 

What will I do? More yoga. I only did one AM yoga session yesterday. That's why I believe the leg pain was active last night. Yoga is outside the wheelchair, less time in whatever bad seating angle. Also, probably gonna switch back to the Dalton power wheelchair for daily use.

MS Diary | Wednesday, 2/21/24 | Left leg pain day 3

I did an AM and PM yoga session for relief. Straight legs are difficult to perform but it definitely lowers the new pain. I'm taking Tizanidine too. It gives no pain relief but it does help me sleep. 

Sleep is paramount to my daily efficiency. I gotta sleep so I can think clearly when making wellness decisions. 

MS Diary | Tuesday, 2/20/24 | Treating the left leg pain

I'm taking it serious. Yesterday, I threw 1200mg of Ibuprofen. Didn't work Baclofen. No help. Tizanidine. Nope. 

I did 3 rounds of yoga, morning, noon, night. I think it helped. The pain hit in shorter episodes. When it started, if I did yoga, it would subside. It kicks back after I stop.

*grits teeth* Today, I'm rocking Tizanidine and finished yoga. The Tizanidine has me falling asleep in my wheelchair and while holding poses. 

This is going to be a challenge.