I spent years motivating and pushing myself to achieve the goals I thought would bring me success and happiness. Many of these behaviours were unhealthy and detrimental to my mental health. In recovery I developed a sense of faith in the Universe. I was able to let go of outdated goals, and as a result new inspiration flowed into my life. I began to follow the things I was curious about, and this led me to a life far beyond what I previously imagined was possible!

Episode breakdown:

• I used to believe I would be happy if I achieved my goals and could create the visions I held for my life.
• I employed a variety of motivational tactics such as fantasy, strict rules and harsh self-talk to push myself to achieve the results I wanted.
• A feeling of lasting happiness and success never came… Eventually I ran out of will power and could no longer push myself to achieve results. I experienced a very painful crisis in self-esteem, which thankfully changed the course of my life.
• I discovered that trying to motivate myself in various areas of my life was a way of trying to control my future, and an unhealthy way of dealing with my fears.
• In recovery I became less fearful of the future and more present in the current moment.
• As my faith increased, I could see that all my attempts to motivate myself were unhelpful and often harmful. I chose to stop “motivating” myself entirely.
• In the process of letting go of goals that no longer fitted, the tunnel vision I’d had for many years began to open, and I began receiving exciting new inspiration for my life.
• Curiosity led me to the other side of the world, and an entirely new adventure began.
• When I stopped pushing myself and let inspiration guide me, my life turned out far better than I could ever have imagined!

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If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story or my recovery, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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I share my personal story of how I moved from being uninterested in any type of religion or spirituality, to opening my mind and heart to the possibility of a Power greater than myself existing, and subsequently coming to believe in and rely on a loving Higher Power that I choose to call "God”.

Episode breakdown:

• Growing up I had little to no experience of religion, nor was I interested.
• 12 Step meetings were the first place where I heard people talking about “Higher Power” and “God” seriously - not making judgements and jokes like I’d always done.
• Desperation to feel better granted me the willingness to consider the existence of a power greater than human power which could help me solve my problems.
• I was given the freedom to design my own personal Higher Power/God, leaving behind all of my preconceived ideas of what “God” was/wasn’t.
• I decided that my God was an infinitely loving force that loved me as Its own child, never judging or punishing me for making human mistakes. 
• I decided God’s imagination is far greater than mine, and that God would always give me what I need in all areas of my life.
• When I asked my Higher Power/God for help, magic began to happen and I embarked on a new path grounded in my growing faith.
• I share an analogy from a renowned 12 Step speaker: If I want to receive letters from God/the Universe, I need to set up my letter box!
• I am so deeply grateful that I received the Gift Of Desperation (G.O.D.), which led me to establish my own connection with a Power greater than myself, changing my life forever and leading me to where I am now.

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If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story, my recovery, or the 12 Step Program I’m in, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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In this very vulnerable episode I share my personal journey from not being able to orgasm at all with a partner until I was 30 years old. I share how alone and ashamed I felt, afraid that I was broken and would never be able to experience orgasms together with another person. I share how my journey of healing the relationship with myself and my body completely changed my experience of pleasure and sex forever.

This episode goes deep, and given the nature of the content, it doesn’t feel right to break it down for you in the show notes. Enjoy the ride!

I am so passionate about sharing my story with you, because I know how painful and lonely this experience can feel. For anyone who has difficulties in this area, or any area related to pleasure and sex: you are not broken. This is a message of HOPE! If I could experience these beautiful and profound changes, so too can you. 

If this episode resonated with you, or you have any questions for me, I would love to hear from you. Please send me an email at [email protected]

Lots and lots of love

Josephine <3

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This episode is a slow-burn as I take you deeper and deeper into my personal story. I share how I moved from fearing intimacy and hiding behind my social mask into my journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance, and to sharing my true self openly and vulnerably with others. I share the first deeply intimate experience of my life and where to begin if you want to experience deeper intimacy in your relationships.

Episode breakdown:

• I’ve always had a desire to connect deeply with others, but for a long time I didn’t know how to.
• I developed a “confident, intelligent, cool” mask to hide my insecurities from the outside world.
• I mistook sex for intimacy, not realising my previous relationship lacked genuine intimacy. My ex and I were deeply afraid to be vulnerable.
• When I hit my rock-bottom the mask cracked and I was forced to face my inner world.
• I learnt that intimacy means “into-me-I-see”, and that I can only meet someone as deeply as I have met myself.
• In 12 Step recovery I embarked on my self-discovery journey, facing and bringing love to the insecure, dark and shadowy corners of my inner (true) self.
• I learnt to be honest and vulnerable in my friendships, and as my recovery continued, I developed a deep sense of faith that I’ll always be given the people I need.
• I developed a level of self-love and self-acceptance beyond what I previously imagined was possible.
• I met my boyfriend when I was finally able to share my true self with a romantic partner.
• I share how keeping little fears and insecurities to myself distracts me from the moment and blocks the flow of love and intimacy with my partner.
• Intimacy is all about being deeply present with myself and others.

If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story or my recovery, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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In this episode I share intimate details of my previous 6.5 year relationship: how I felt during that time, how I behaved in order to maintain the stability of the relationship, what happened when I started taking responsibility for myself, and where I am today with my current partner. 

Episode breakdown:

• In my early 20s I believed my relationship was great because we’d been together for many years, didn’t have conflicts or arguments, and had regular sex.
• I believed I loved my ex-boyfriend because I longed to be with him when we were apart.
• In truth, the relationship lacked intimacy and I was desperate for any shred of affection.
• We didn’t have the ability to be honest with ourselves, or with each other.
• The relationship gave me a sense of safety that I believe I needed to survive a difficult period in my early 20s.
• In 12 Step recovery I became aware of my codependent behaviours.
• When I began taking responsibility for my needs and my boundaries, my self-esteem improved and I learnt to be ok in my own company.
• When I changed, the relationship dynamic no longer functioned, and we broke up.
• Three weeks later I felt a new sense of freedom and was glad to move on.
• I was single for 6 years, during which I learnt to be ok on my own, discovered who I truly was and what I wanted in life and in a relationship.
• My self-worth was at an all time high when I met my current boyfriend. I was able to communicate honestly with him, and today we are in a deeply intimate, loving and supportive relationship that continues to evolve day by day.

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If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story or my recovery, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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I share my experience recovering from a state of constant fear and anxiety, why my relationship with control was inextricably related to the anxiety I experienced, and how my life is today: free of the fears which used to plague me and rob me from truly living.

Episode breakdown:

• I was always planning ahead and fantasising about the future.
• When life circumstances didn’t turn out how I expected, my self-image crumbled and I became aware that I was living in a constant state of fear and anxiety.
• In 12 Step recovery I learnt that my anxiety resulted from trying to control things I could not control.
• I learnt that my desire to control everything was a response to deeper fears.
• I was confronted with the truth: I only have power in this moment, not over tomorrow or the future, and not over anyone else.
• I felt relief as I began letting go of things I couldn’t control.
• I stopped living in the future and started to “wake up” to the present moment.
• In recovery I began to hand my problems, and my future, over to a loving Higher Power to take care of.
• When I stopped trying to control everything, my life turned out infinitely better than I imagined.
• Today I’ve recovered from all my anxiety and experience very little fear.
• I no longer obsess over the future, I can rest when I need to, and I get to enjoy all the little things each day has to offer.

If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story or my recovery, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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In this episode I share the career visions I had throughout school and university, the emotional breakdown and crisis in self-esteem I experienced when my plans failed, the inner freedom I discovered when I let go of my old ideas, and why I am so grateful things turned out exactly the way they did.

Episode breakdown:

• From a young age I was driven to have a successful career. I pushed myself to achieve high grades. I wanted to be the best and believed I’d be happy when I reached my goals.
• I forced myself through university despite not enjoying the degree. My emotional health declined and I began to obsessively control my food intake.
• I couldn’t get a job after graduating. I failed to live up to my expectations and this caused me to experience a crisis in self-esteem - my personal rock bottom.
• The pain I was in caused me to seek help in a 12 Step Recovery program. I began working with a sponsor, and as things slowly began to improve, I realised the career path I’d pursued no longer felt true to me.
• I realised that planning my future, setting goals and pushing myself to reach them had not succeeded in making me happy or fulfilled.
• When I let go of my old ideas and stopped applying for jobs, I experienced a feeling of freedom that was completely new for me.
• I am deeply grateful that my original plans failed. Had they worked out, I wouldn’t have the life I have today, which is far beyond what I ever dreamed was possible!

If you resonate with this episode, or have any questions about my story or my recovery, I’d love to hear from you! Send me an email at [email protected]

Love Josephine

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Welcome to More Will Be Revealed! In this very first episode I share a little about who I am and why I’m passionate about sharing my story with you. I introduce some of the topics I’ll be talking about in the coming episodes, and begin the journey by sharing why seeking external validation had a detrimental impact on my sense of self-esteem.

Episode breakdown:

• I’ve created this podcast to share my story: the highs, the lows, the impactful realisations I’ve had, and most importantly, the tools which have led me to where I am today.
• I am not a coach, guru, therapist or psychologist, just one person sharing her unique truth.
• There will never be ads on this podcast and I’m not selling anything.
• Take what you like from the podcast, and leave the rest!

// Seeking external validation //

• Growing up I was more focused on fitting in than discovering my likes and dislikes.
• I sought validation by achieving high grades and trying to obtain a thin, “Aussie beach girl” appearance.
• Deep down I felt unworthy, and believed I needed to prove something to the outside world.
• For years my own behaviour reinforced my core belief that I wasn’t good enough as I was. I eventually had a crisis in self-esteem when I was 22 years old.
• My pain brought me into 12 Step recovery. This was the beginning of my healing and self-discovery journey.

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