My Messy Little Life Podcast

In this episode I talk about how when my son was little he used to come into our bed in the middle of the night, how after my husband died I asked our son if there was anything of his daddy’s he wanted to keep and he said “his side of the bed” and how I know logically that getting rid of the bed doesn’t mean I don’t love him anymore. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I’m super nosey, how because of migraines and depression I spend a lot of time at home and how I’m at a point where I can’t bounce back the way I used to. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I surprised my husband by dancing hula for him at our wedding, how a grief grenade is a reminder that your person is gone and how telling myself I shouldn’t feel this way just adds to the pain. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how on the last day of summer break I woke up with a migraine, how I used to panic regularly after my husband died and how I had finally gotten to a point where I could see anxiety as a feeling and not some scary monster outside of me. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I adopted my cats, how my husband always said having pets is good for kids because it teaches them about death and how I’ve wondered if there is more peace and closure in knowing someone you love is going to die. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how my son started middle school this week, how I’m trying to navigate life with migraines and how I enrolled in a certification program to become a life coach. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how the outpour of love and generosity I received after my husband died was humbling, how asking for help mostly feels like defeat and how I hired a housekeeper and am working on not making it mean that I’m a failure. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I’m guilty of grabbing my phone and scrolling through for a solid hour before getting out of bed, how my son fainted and I think it was a panic attack and how I don’t think people realize when they ask me how my husband died they are asking me to relive the worst day of my life. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com

In this episode I talk about how I used to lie in bed at night planning the following day down to the minute, how when I have a migraine I feel beat down and helpless and how our summer break schedule is almost exactly the same as our schedule during the school year. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how nothing about anxiety makes logical sense, how I can do bugs but I can’t do medical stuff and how it’s easy to blame my late husband for everything that goes wrong. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.