In this episode I talk about how the logistics of an event are way more anxiety inducing then the event itself, how once you decide to hold onto a thought that is all your brain is going to allow you to see and how I gained a whole new perspective after my husband died. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how when my husband died I broke all the rules, how I just do what I can to show my son love and how the part of parenting I struggle with the most is letting him fail. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I still get nervous when talking to new people who don’t already know my husband died, how my real healing began when I started loving myself and how I feel like I’m at the mercy of my hormones. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I decided to start my own podcast, how I’ve often wondered if consistently talking about my husband keeps grief in the forefront of my mind and is keeping me from moving forward in some way and how I thought this would be a good place to pause and come up for air and decide what I want the podcast to look like going forward. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com. You can find my life coach Krista St-Germain and The Widowed Mom Podcast at coachingwithkrista.com. Stay tuned for Season 2 coming soon…

In this episode I talk about how the most challenging job I’ve ever had has been parenting, how when my son started grieving he needed everything I had in me to help him through it and how it’s my job to make sure this human being will be ready for the world someday. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I don’t like change and don’t adjust well to new things, how I can always tell when my emotions are getting away from me when I don’t even realize I’m having them and how I’ve learned that the need for control is about feeling safe. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how the resistance I have to facing big feelings is the fear that I won’t be able to handle it, how it’s so easy to focus on failures that victories get glossed over and how in an art therapy session my son said to me, “I love you because you can do anything.”

In this episode I talk about how Christmas morning was my end game and I never thought past that point, how I spend so much of my time trying to just get through things and how I decided that I want to focus on being more present.

In this episode I talk about how after I found out my husband died I would ruminate on all the things I should have done, how I found out something I can never unknow or undo or forget and how I learned that forgiveness was something I could do for myself.

In this episode I talk about how I always know when I’m ready to do something big and daring and bold when the thought of it puts a huge smile on my face and makes me want to throw up at the same time, how after my husband died my “what if” ideas were replaced with “what if” thought spirals and how the only weapons I’ve found to be effective against panicked thoughts are logic and love. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.