I had lunch with Dr Michael Jones, and in our conversation we got on the topic of my having seen a hypnotherapist, which took us through a conversation on Ego, then Drama, then Judgement, and I had to then relent to the appropriate feelings being: Compassion and Respect. This sounds complicated, so just listen. Sometimes a preface is unnecessary because so much gets covered in the meat of the story.

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I wrote this a couple years ago, and I never did anything with it out of respect for privacy. I think I'm safe to share it now, and as I read it, I recognize pieces in it other friends need to hear currently. I think there are reminders we all need in this. (On both sides of the story.)

Another realization of two things being similar in the way they feel, and also noticing why some people act the way they do. It's in the attitude, not the circumstance

Its hard to accept that most of what we feel is a choice. Its CHOICE that dictates whether or not something matters to us, or it does not...and what IF we consciously chose to feel differently? What then? That's the question I pose for myself. What if I just chose to feel something different? What if I decided something didn't matter? Is it in my control? Let's consider it is.

I sat down with my friend who has decided to tackle her old belief system -that she needed to be small in order for God to be great. Her religious upbringing in modesty, purity, and in many ways...shame; stopped her from considering she is beautiful, awesome, and wonderful. Which kept her small, quiet, and unsure of herself.

Although her story is different from mine, I feel as though we have so many commonalities in what we have experienced in our lives -that when we talked, I kept hearing her tell parts of my story through hers.

Like me, as Becky gets older she finds herself a cheerleader for growth in "the self", and knowing who you are. These are tricky waters, especially in an age where everybody has an opinion about what others are doing. It seems that you make yourself a target to say "I'm Awesome, I'm amazing, I love me!" And since that's where she's at, I wanted to invite her to elaborate more than what she's said in her instagram posts, and to let her know I stand behind her -cheerleading her in return.

We also touched on feminism, femininity and the fluidity of gender roles once we allow ourselves to have both feminie and masculine qualities. I also admitted to having some pretty opinionated beliefs on what I "expect from" women, since I also admit to seeing us as the more sensible of the two genders. Becky comes back with the need for each individual to understand their "currency", and it's clear what my currency is not.

This is a fun one, and could easily go multiple directions in a part 2, 3, or 4. Which maybe needs to happen. I dare you not to fall in love with Becky's giggle. She IS amazing. No doubt God knows it, so it's about time she knows it too.

I believe there are a few core things that we got dialed up on when we were created. Clearly love and fear are two of those things at the top of the list, but near the top is the need to understand and be understood. I feel like I personally have a lot to say about that, so I have tried to just explain the basis for the thought because it's likely something I will return to again.

This one is about the physical body and how easy it is to mess up the "system" when you aren't aware of what you put in your body and the effects it has. I'm all about perspective for the mind, but perspective...sensible perspective about how your body works is important too.

I've had a lot of physical issues throughout my life and I want to share the main thing that helped me with my biggest struggles. I'm sharing the story of what got me to the point of telling you about trysoul.com (referral number 539376) and myrainlife.com/natandchat  A product called SOUL made from seeds is the single most beneficial thing I've put in my body.

So...here's a story of my health journey, cool things I have found, and great books I've read. I hope there's something in here that you can benefit from.

Maybe you have someone you want to say this to... (just helping you)

The older we get the less we trust, the bigger the chip on our shoulder, the harder it is to not be cynical. It feels inevitable, but is it? As I always say "Who you are is a choice". This is my internal debate with cynicism and skepticism.

These are rough waters and rough times. As we do this together, I have realized I need to explore Grace...there is too much benefit in grace for it to go uncaptured and unrealized.