NatAndChat

(Adult Advisory on this one.)

I'm finding levels of freedom I didn't know I could reach, and I'm doing it by allowing myself to think about and feel some of the traumatic times in my life. We tend to avoid these things for good reason, because "Why would I want to live in the past?"

BUT reality is...if you haven't allowed yourself to feel the things from the traumatic times, the past lives in YOU. This time I'm telling some hard stories, but not because of anything bad now...the opposite actually. By finally letting myself feel and have adult perspective on childhood things I "couldn't" feel and couldn't possibly have had perspective on (because I was a child), I am burning the energy from them I have carried for too many years.

My benefit is so great, I have to share. I know you can do this too. I'm sorry my stories can be a little harsh for some, but understanding this is important. I've tried to be so raw for my own maximum benefit. I think I've kept all this inside me too long. I'm finally able to communicate it without crying, and that's not just a personal triumph, it's an energetic victory. I feel the benefit throughout my being. (I know how corny that sounds...I can't say it differently, unless I say it's magic.)

Sending you my love if you too want to feel the freedom from facing trauma.

Are you familiar with your Aura? You should be. It's an incredibly important "system" that affects/protects every part of your being. It's kind of complicated...so you'd better have a listen. If you try what I explain in this podcast, and you take it seriously, I would be interested in hearing your benefit. [email protected]

It's easier to insist you are weak in your self talk than to be the only one hearing "I am amazing".

Ladies, the self talk we do is so full of lies and reasons so we can insist on the negative being true. I'm here saying: You are lying to yourself in order to not be giving yourself words of praise. Why do we do this? Good effing question.

Maybe because if you believed the amazing things about yourself you would raise your own gold standard, and you would scare yourself. Isn't it easier to insist you are so very flawed, and so very imperfect? Ya, that's because you are a LIAR, and you have cognitive distortions.

It's time to stop telling yourself you should FEEL a word used to describe things, and that by NOT feeling an adjective, you must BE the opposite of that word.

I'm going to explain why this is NOT how you should be thinking, so it is not how you should be feeling! 

I get a little heated this time! AND...I love you.

Not that our struggles are universal or generic, but often in our desire to heal or process, we learn that others are feeling similar things at the same time, despite circumstances being different. We can find clarity through one another sometimes, and if not perfect clarity, at least some peace in the realization we aren't as alone as we thought we were.

I’m talking about the convenience of technology causing a shift in personal perception. We all need to pay more attention to integrity, honesty, and follow through, which requires more levels of self awareness than what many show at present. Yes, this is just my world, but the hundreds of people in my week, are a snapshot of generalities. Some things need considering. We all need to regularly ask, Who am I, and what am I doing?

Life takes us in directions we don't expect. We can think we have a plan, and everything can suddenly change. Stop and listen when that happens oh, because you might be pointed in a different direction that you are meant to go. This is a short story of that happening to me, and the lessons I gained.

I'm not a fan of vulnerability, but I am a fan of honesty and learning. Here's a big realization for me. Life is a puzzle, and the pieces are somewhere on the table...or the floor.

We can make each day easier if we take the lessons we learned yesterday and use them today. Let life help you build a library of information you USE.

Sitting to talk with my old friend Cameron on Creativity and Inspiration is not the typical chat for us. Most of the time when we talk -he tells stories, and I listen and laugh. Since that would be a one sided podcast with my laughter getting annoying, we decided two artists with multiple mediums should find it easy to discuss creativity and what gets us there.

We talk about art you are employed to do vs. art you create for yourself. We also talk about "compulsion, not talent" being why the greats are so great. The best artists are compelled to make beautiful art. I also asked him about "impostor syndrome" and the very real effect it has.

Cameron can be found online as CNVStudios on instagram, youtube, and his .com you can patronize him at  Patreon.com/CameronVanAusdal

I'm thankful for the beautiful, genuine, and rare unicorns out there. Those aren't just words you have to say in November. These words, and this letter are because of a special person who doesn't do anything but continue to be herself...top quality and so beautiful. I'm so glad she exists.