It's been exactly a month since this entire situation went down, and I'm finally getting around to posting this episode. I recorded it roughly 2 weeks after getting home but I put off editing it until now because I needed some space from it. Now, listening back to it, having a fresh perspective, I felt it was important I put this out. Both for me, and for other people who may be in a similar situation (and also future Beth if she ever decides to forget how shitty she felt in that hotel room and thinks she wants to go back). I'm truly proud of myself for showing another human so much love, but also for knowing when to step back and let go. As of now, I still have not responded to any of his texts, which breaks my heart a little, but you know what they say - "you must break the pattern today, or the loop will repeat tomorrow".