Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

Mother’s Day can be deeply complicated when your story with your mom includes trauma.

How do you honor your mother as Scripture calls us to…while also protecting yourself?

Are you allowed to create distance?

What does forgiveness look like when the harm is real?

And how do you guard the next generation?

Today, we step into these difficult and often unspoken questions with Monique Koven, host of the Healing Trauma Podcast.

This is a gentle, honest conversation about faith, boundaries, and healing—especially on a day that can carry both love and pain.

Join us for a meaningful Mother’s Day discussion.

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Art therapy can reach parts of the brain that traditional talk therapy often can’t. Research is beginning to confirm this—but the “why” is still unfolding.

In this episode, Samantha Liddicoat joins us to explore how creativity opens pathways to emotion, healing, and connection. She introduces The Imagination Journal, a playful, non-threatening way to engage your thoughts and feelings through color, art, and curiosity. It’s a conversation about creativity, expression, and discovering new ways to connect with yourself. #ad

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Hey Littles, this one is especially for you.

Anita Anderson has written a beautiful book just for DID parts—especially Littles—called The Hearthouse. It’s a warm,inviting story that gently guides survivors into connecting with their inner world, building communication, and growing compassion within their system.

In today’s episode, Anita joins us to share the heart behind the book and her own lived experience with DID over the past 80 years. We talk about what it means to create safety inside, to build community among parts, and to approach healingwith kindness.

If you’re navigating DID, this book can be a meaningful companion. And if you love someone who is, it offers a window into their inner world with insight andcare.

This was such a thoughtful and grounding conversation—we’re really glad you’re here for it.

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In today’s episode, Amy Weber joins us to guide a deeply important conversation about the role of the body in healing.

Our bodies have carried us through so much—especially in the context of abuse—and yet they are often the most overlooked part of the healing process.

Amy shares that the body is the “forgotten element” in recovery, and invites us to begin reclaiming it through one simple, powerful word: movement.

As we move—into healing, into rest, into peace, and into relationship with God—our bodies begin to respond. They learn to settle. To breathe. To feel safe again.

Coming from her work with the Releve One Foundation, Amy brings a message of hope: our bodies are not broken beyond repair—they are capable of responding, restoring, and healing.

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Good Friday can carry deep weight for survivors.Today, we gently enter into a hard but important conversation about the “why” behind that. This episode may be triggering, so please listen with care—only if you’re in a place where you feel grounded, and pause whenever needed.We’ll also talk about how cult environments can mock and distort the death and resurrection of Yeshua, often leaving survivors in a painful in-between space.If this resonates with you, I invite you to join me. Together, we can grow in compassion and understanding.

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Meet Linda Etherton—another courageous voice in our Victor Series.

Linda shares her story with a deep desire to bring glory to God, even through the hardest parts of her journey. Her testimony includes the painful aftermath of ritual abuse and the complex path she has walked toward healing.

Through seasons of confusion, emotional waves, and slow but steady restoration, Linda has continued to press forward. Along the way, she has experienced powerful moments of God’s presence and miracles that bring hope in the midst of brokenness.

Her husband’s faith and prayers became part of her journey home, and together they have remained committed through it all.

Linda’s story honestly reflects both the deep struggles of surviving SRA and the quiet, enduring victories of belonging to God.

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Larry Macmurdo first heard about ritual abuse and sex trafficking and knew he wanted to help. He reached out to me with a sincere heart, searching for a way to step into this difficult work. For several years, he prayed and wrestledwith how he could make a difference.

As a former Marine, Larry eventually realizedthat his training had uniquely prepared him to serve as a rescuer.

He connected with the 1,000 Men organization,where he received specialized training and now travels internationally gathering intelligence to help dismantle sex trafficking operations. Yet his heart remained burdened for the work here in the United States as well, which led him to become involved with Gideon’s Army.

These organizations rely on each member to raise their own support, and Larry continues to trust God to provide as hefollows this calling.

In this episode of Only God Rescued Me, Larry shares his personal story of abuse, the path that shaped him, and his deep desire to protect vulnerable children. His long-term vision includes bringing hope to those trapped in ritual abuse.

If you feel led to support Larry’s mission, your contribution would be deeply appreciated.

Larry, may God bless you and keep you safe as you walk this road.

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Tabitha Westbrook, a licensed therapist specializing in complex trauma, joins us for a gentle conversation about learning to approach our bodies with compassion.

In a world filled with constant information andemotional overload, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed or disconnected. But our bodies are not working against us — they are often doing their best to protect us.

In this episode, Tabitha invites us to slow downand view our nervous system responses through a kinder, trauma-informed lens. Together, we explore simple, supportive ways to honor what our bodies arecarrying and to help them settle with care.

This is a soft place to land — a reminder thathealing doesn’t have to be harsh, and that our bodies deserve patience as wecontinue living in the midst of healing.

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Dr. Claire Robertson Taylor knows that barely surviving isn’t where the story has to end. Healing requires intention — a decision to turn in a new direction.When staying inside feels safer, stepping out the door can feel almost impossible. But that simple act can be a game-changer.The world is drenched in green — a color that naturally boosts serotonin in our bodies. Even the soil beneath our feet carries microorganisms (yes, even the bugs — thank you, Dr. Claire!) that help stimulate serotonin production when we walk outside. Our bodies are designed to respond to nature.Sometimes hope isn’t abstract — it’s biological.When we step into the beauty God has so extravagantly woven into creation, something in us shifts. We breathe deeper. We soften. We remember.In this episode, Dr. Claire shares her love for the mountains, her deep faith in God, and practical insight into how engaging with nature supports us as we learn to live — not just survive — in the midst of healing.Dr. Claire's Victory Testimony: https://youtu.be/KJscyqxN2EwOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join

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From the outside, it was the perfect church family.A pastor uncle.A choir-singing mother.A ministry-leading grandmother.But behind that image was something unthinkable.Pamela Richards-Woodall was trafficked by her own family.Was the church unaware? Or unwilling to see?Her story includes ritual abuse, generational secrecy — and a life-or-death standoff with a shotgun that changed everything.In this episode, Pamela breaks the silence.Pamela's Book:House Full of Secrets: Human Trafficking and Redemption: https://amzn.to/3OoL804Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join

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