tiktok profile is linked in profile and it's @rootingformyself

my self-esteem is not on point at the momenthopefully entering my mid-twenties in less than two months will make it better (rip 23) anyway I'm trying to take it easy in November and not think too much about what I look like, if everyone hates me and what if everyone I know is in a secret group chat where they say terrible things about me behind my back, that kind of thingsxx

ig: rooting4myself.podcast

in this episode your host Mareva (me lol) discusses lots of random topics halloween-related

this is perfect -not biased- if you are trying to get in the mood, to listen to while doing your halloween make-up, when baking the famous (in my world) Tesco chocolate cookies or as a little trick-or-treating soundtrack

actually no showing up to people's doorsteps with earphones on and demanding sweets in exchange for not egging their house is fairly rude, please don't associate me with this

have a great hallowmas

vulnerability is such a difficult word to pronounce

so yeah I have been trying to be more vulnerable but not massively successful so far though I have been doing a fairly good job at saying embarrassing things about myself in an attempt to open up and be more authentic

here are a few examples:

- I like to draw (idk why this was so hard)

- I don't know

- I'm still trying to make friends in London

- I have never done karaoke before (always seem to dodge it somehow)

- when I'm clubbing I'm just so awkward because I can't dance so I look like Chandler Bing

Anyways

This wasn't my best, I hope you still enjoy

also episode 10!!

I'm surrounded by people who do those amazing creative things (I spend too much time in shoreditch) so needed to make myself feel better. Here is my attempt at trying to make us all believe we all are extremely creative in our own little ways even if we aren't very good at expressing it in a very sleek professional artistic way like picasso (big meanie btw) and most people who make ig reels are

now I'm gonna go back to doing my paint-by-number thank you very much for listening ily

getting personal with this one, this is a topic which feels very broad and important, with so many people moving country, especially in their teens and early adulthood

in this episode, I discuss topics such as homesickness, speaking a new language, adapting to the unknown and French people being hairy (still don't get why this stereotype seems to be such a common one but oh hey, this is usually when I remind people I'm only half-French)

men ewww!!!!

Talking about my experience working in construction/engineering and everything that happened along the way (featuring lots of middle-aged white guys)

Also how monotonous is my voice sometimes please I'm clearly boring myself to death here

what a year

Living in London is a teenage dream come true for me! if only I had put it on my bucket list back then, at least I could have ticked the box

In this episode, I talk about my experience moving to the city, what I love and don't love so much about living here, some random fun facts and how the London grind has fueled my anxiety (enjoy!!)

thank god for London though I have no idea where I would be without it (pun intended)

Proud to be a little GenZ snowflake

Addicted to Vinted, trying to justify myself ❤

Just as a warning, I think I say 'the gym' at least 200 times in this one, feeling a bit like a crazy woman I saw on a TikTok a while ago (iykyk)

But anyway, we might not all be Simone Biles, but we all enjoy a little run club

Also, I can do a very shabby cartwheel now, gymnastics paid off