Sometimes, the automated text from Dhar Mann is the only thing I look forward to reading in my day. His motivational messages help get me out of my head, which is much needed right now. I feel less and less optimistic and his messages help alleviate my guilt.

I discuss Sean Feucht and his so called "worship protests". As someone that attended an event, I saw firsthand how he brings out the best in everyone he meets. The media is doing a wonderful job distorting the goal of his events.

I am feeling disconnected. Feeling invisible. On the surface I am making these great strides but underneath it all I am as worse as I have ever been.

I discuss how it is now clear that my mind and my thoughts are indeed my own, or the result if the depression and anxiety.

I feel as if I am losing a sense of self as the concerns of others take precedence. It is my job to teach people how to treat me, but I am not going to spend the energy teaching those that do not want to be taught.

I discuss the 2020 movie based on a novel of the same name. It shines light on the daily struggles of a teen with Schizophrenia.

I discuss the need to create a routine and structure in my life.

I discuss the need to be more open about my political interests in order to attract the right people.

I discuss how with Ashley's help, I was able to confront the anxiety head on and take control back. It was a reminder that this is daily battle I must be willing to have until the anxiety is back in the passenger's seat.

I discuss the will the live and how it has appeared again.